A man once met a mendicant in a crowded market, and struck by the monk’s serene nature, he asked what teaching his master bestowed upon him which caused the monk to be so at peace with himself. The monk simply stated that The Tathagata has explained the origin of those things which proceed from a cause, and he has explained their cessation. This is the teaching of the great Shakymuni.

Oh how this rings so true to me today! I’ve been wanting to post about a subject that is very dear to me, and have hesitant to do so for some time. You see, I’m venerable—not the whorish smartass you read posts from on the org—but I’m like angel hair scraped across jagged slate. I fall to pieces.

Did you know that an atom, the fundamental building blocks of EVERYTHING in the Universe actually is almost entirely empty space? 99.5 percent of the mass of an Atom actually lives in the nucleus, which is though despite it’s mass, only takes up a almost negligible space in the atom. Electrons are even smaller. If an atom were to be expanded to the size of the earth, the electrons revolving around the atom would be the size of an apple. We may never develop technology that allows to see electrons. What’s even more confusing is that they act like both particles and waves. An electron can be observed but not measured. Or it can be measured but not observed. Moreover, and can exist in two different points at the same time, or not exist in those points at the same time. If a shot an electron (and this experiment has been down) down a collider, much like the Haydron particle accelerator, and you extinguished the electron, the opposite ‘twin’ electron 8 miles away on the other side of the loop would immediately be extinguished too—at the very same time! This defies Einstein’s theory of general relativity, but its totally true!

This year has been phenomenally emotional for me. I’ve had to face fears I have been putting off for the longest time. I’ve had to develop new skills and meet new people and see new places---I was awashed in a world that was utterly foreign in every aspect for the longest time.

Can a bird not be a bird, if it has neither wings nor feathers? But instead gills and tentacles? You don’t mix peanut butter and chocolate expecting the worse, do you? You assume you’ll get something altogether miraculous? There are places on this planet, in which water does not flow!
It’s actually been quite liberating finally allowing myself to open up and share this with you guys. I have been pensive. It’s as if Hugh le Despenser were being publically executed in front of me, and I was like Simon Cowell being asked to judge the execution.

For those of you how don’t know, Hugh was executed by two methods—hanging for one crime, and drawing and quatering for another crime. Queen Ezibella, who had him executed hated the shit of the guy cause he was likely having homo-sex with her husband. But I digress, Hugh tried to starve himself for 8 days without food or drink to deny the Queen her execution, but it didn’t work. On the day of his execution, he was raised up and hanged from a rope but not long enough to kill him—just long enough to really really cause him tremendous discomfort. Then he was tied to a ladder, his penis and balls were cut off and roasted on a fire in front of him (not part of the punishement, but a common ‘addition’ executioners would add in honor of Queen, who sat within viewing distance enjoying a feast). Finally, his stomach was cut open and his intestines pulled out in front of him—at this point it is said that he let out a terrible moan (which the queen enjoyed) and it was likely his last memory, for it is said he died before his heart was cut out, and he was quartered and his body parts sent to various parts of the Kingdom. His head, I believe, was boiled in a salty brine and put on display—I’m not 100% sure. And added insult was that only parts of his body were returned to his Widow in Bristol, where even today his body is not complete. Murals of Hugh hang in the Cardiff Castle vaulted room, which I’ve been lucky enough to see.

So if the Tathaga foresaw all of those conditioned states of being, is it not something I should pay attention to and heed? Am I not the electron stuck in two places at once, each part of me susceptible to extinguishment thereby cancelling out the whole? If given the right circumstancs, would I have sat in the audience and cheered the executioner on as Hugh went through the brutal process of being murdered? I’m not saying Hugh was a good guy—he was indeed a terrible scoundrel. I’m just saying that would it have mattered if I was just looking for a show?

And what of reinvention? What can that do? Who knows where things end or where they begin, no? I think everything is like sugar. It taste sweet doesn’t? Certainly, I would assume you agree.



I would love to know your opions. Thanks.


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Couldn't you have saved all of that typing by exposing your emotions using an emoticon?



When I do not have a massive headache, I will return and read this.

I'm not sure now if I need to be worried about dust mites or solar flares any more.

Your Hugh le Despenser story very clearly illustrates that men will always treat the penis better than a woman will.

If I bring that up here, does it make it like your BJ thread is now in two places on the org? I think so.

Im sorry Dan. I cant respond cuz I dont know what you're talking about;I didn't want to read all that. I couldnt even scan it and use context clues.


But a butterfly with no wings would be a worm or something

I'm loving the feedback everybody!

what's a mendicant?

I'm not reading that shit. Did you get some boipussy or not?

Did YOU know that on a sub-atomic level your ass has become one with that chair you're sitting on...

Efan said:

Oh, and Dan - shut the fuck up and expose something worth exposing
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I´ll will?

forget cornflakes i try to start each day with a generous helping of Tathagata

this guy could teach you a thing or two...

Thanks for all your support!

Keep 'em coming!

TheVoid said:

I'd like to see you put more effort into this thread. I mean, compare it to this thread. You've really got to step up your game to compete in today's tough Org economy.

You make me hot when you sound so smart

Efan said:

that thread!!!

No 'things', only processes.