okay, this is the god's honest truth....

I eat WHATEVER I want, WHENEVER I want. I don't care about health (I mean, I do, but not to the point of "ugh, I won't eat that! It's so unhealthy!" ) I don't care if I'm fat, I'm HAPPY.



Food is one of the greatest things on this stupid planet. I couldn't imagine not being able to indulge in it.

JerseyKRS said:

Sometimes I feel exactly that way. I looooove good food. Love it. Love it. Love it. I agree it's one of the greatest things on the planet. And since I quit drugs years and years ago, stopped smoking and have all but given up drinking I've got no vices left, dammit! And my tastes towards good food are mostly healthy even, except for my thing for desserts and sweets.

But if I eat whatever I want whenever I want, I become morbidly obese! And we're not even talking mass quantities of food. I simply don't eat obscene amounts. And yet I'm 60-ish pounds overweight.

I'm just trying to find the right balance.

JerseyKRS said:

Sometimes I feel exactly that way. I looooove good food. Love it. Love it. Love it. I agree it's one of the greatest things on the planet. And since I quit drugs years and years ago, stopped smoking and have all but given up drinking I've got no vices left, dammit! And my tastes towards good food are mostly healthy even, except for my thing for desserts and sweets.

But if I eat whatever I want whenever I want, I become morbidly obese! And we're not even talking mass quantities of food. I simply don't eat obscene amounts. And yet I'm 60-ish pounds overweight.

I'm just trying to find the right balance.

I totally indulged for breakfast this morning.

Toasted whole grain bun with monterey jack cheese, 3 slices veggie bacon, thinly sliced apple and apricot preserves.

CarrieMpls said:

60lbs overweight by there's-only-one-right-weight standards.

All of the women on this thread carefully monitoring their calories. . . I mean, whatever, but it kinda bums me out. Not that I don't understand why we go there.

iDunno. You could walk into my kitchen right now and eat ANYthing there and it's healthy, nourishing stuff. Zero junk food. All vegan (oh, except cream for the boyfriends' coffee). So, when I'm hungry, I walk in there and get something to eat. Dammit.

Being super fucking broke this summer, I stopped eating out, made everything from scratch (down to baking bread and granola), and had limited access to food for the first time in my privileged life. I wondered if I'd lose weight. Nope. Frankly, it wasn't that big of a change from my normal. My body is just absurdly efficient, and if I eat enough to feel ok, then I'm fat. Period.

Fuck it! Gawd, I'm proud of how well I take care of myself 95% of the time (the other 5% being mostly intoxicants, and mostly gin ). Proud of my healthy, planet-friendly diet. Proud of my strong, tan arms that propelled me through my summer vacation. Proud of my big smooshy body that a few sexy people can't seem to keep their hands off of. PROUD.

And I wish I could wave a magic wand and make the rest of you beautiful women proud all day, every day.


/rant



[Edited 10/11/08 8:57am]

60lbs overweight by there's-only-one-right-weight standards.

I've been meaning to post a reply on this forever... ...I don't know where my head has been:

As usual I have green, white, or oolong tea with almost every meal...but I need to remember to drink.more.WATER. Lemme see, so far as I remember

THURSDAY:

-no breakfast, but used traditional Japanese breakfast as my brunch/lunch:
grilled fish, miso soup (red miso with root veggies), brown rice, cucumber salad

-homemade shrimp toast, sliced tomatoes & cabbage salad w/ sesame citrus dressing


FRIDAY:

-small piece terriaki mackeral, light miso soup w/ wakame & tofu, brown rice

- homemade gyoza, mixed salad with citrus dressing

- homemade cream of cauliflower soup w/veggies

TODAY:

- I'm making an Eggs Benedict variation this morning; poached egg on spelt or wheat toast slice topped with sliced tomato, an undecided protein (slice of turkey breast, or bit of salmon), and my lighter version of hollandaise, sprinkled with scallions on top.

-for snacks I have nuts lying around everywhere, and I always munch on red pepper strips or fresh broccoli

-for a sweet snack I have unsweetened yogurt, which I'll add bluberries and a bit of lavendar honey to.

-my second main dish today will be daikon fettucine in tomato sauce, with chopped basil and freshly grated parmesean. It's Marimoto recipe (the chef from Nobu and Iron Chef), but it's SO easy, and oddly filling!

....updates to come later

morning : 3 coffees, black.

lunch : grounded meat, lettuce, cashews, cheese

no snacks

some more coffee


dinner : ?

Ottensen said:

Gawd! Everything you eat sounds good!
Reading your post was like reading a dirty novel

Can you just mail me my meals???

tackam said:

Great post, and I love your food choices, but I do find parts of what you're saying presumptous and slightly judgemental.

It's neither fair nor accurate to paint everyone with a broad stroke of the brush as calorie counters or women who don't feel beautiful, because they want take care about what they put into their bodies as nutrition. For the record I'm actually QUITE proud of the size I am...and other than the fact that I feel I need more water intake to improve my skin (though I'm told daily that my near 40-self still looks 26), I certainly don't feel as if I'm an ogre suffering from an inferiority complex.

I do know that being barely 5'4", there's only so much weight my small boned (pumpkin headed ) frame can take before I physically start to feel like shit, without energy, with a bad back exacerbated by loose stomach muscles. Excess weight also makes me snore like a jackhammer, greatly inhibits my ability to carry myself well in stillettos, and most importantly, is always a sign that I'm about to take myself to the threashold of Type 2 diabetes. Frankly I'm interested in none of the above.

So while I do understand your food choices (love granola, btw, I eat it in my whole wheat cereal all the time), and while I am very happy you've found the culinary groove that works for YOU, it would be nice if on a food discussion thread we could keep this on the level of "live and let live". We are all adults here capable of making the nutrition choices that work best for our individual lifestyles, without responses to what we choose to eat having a scoffing (and unwarranted) air of condescention about them



[Edited 10/11/08 10:48am]

Ottensen said:

Huh. Ok. I don't feel that I was "scoffing", and I wonder what it is that I said that doesn't fall under "live and let live"? I know that people read my posts as condescending sometimes, and while it's not my intention, I like to know when people take them that way. So, thanks.

I certainly don't think that everybody who cares about nutrition is calorie counting because they don't think they're beautiful. But I know for sure that many, many, MANY women hate their bodies because they aren't the size they're "supposed" to be. It's basically considered a normal attitude. I think it's important for those of us who don't feel that way to speak up in this crazy culture. So I do. It seems like you took that as an attack, and I'm not sure that was warranted, based on what I actually said. . . sharing my reaction and feelings to my experience of this stuff.


condescending edit
[Edited 10/11/08 18:45pm]

If I had a magic wand I'd wave it too. But as I said, I'm just looking for balance.

CarrieMpls said:

Me too, it isn't easy to find that balance, but you have to keep trying eh?!

Sometimes I'm just like "Grrr the hell with it!"

However I know I feel better when I do find that balance, when my body feel like it is out of control and out of balance the rest of my life can feel the same way. I wish it never had that power over me, but unfortunately it does.

It's a work in progress.

Meal 1: Just Erin


Meal 2: Carrie


Meal 3: ZombieKitten

Meal 4: FunkMistress (Sorry, Jerz! I had to take your lunch money, bro!)

Finale: KidaDynamite



I'm quite full for the day! Until next time, ladies!

Diva said:

You are the most beautiful thing my eyes have had the pleasure to see.

tackam said:

tackam

It is important to speak out about these things -- I needed to hear what you said today.

Far Out!!! I cant believe how some of u count calories like that and get through ure day
Not only would that drive me absolutely bonkers I just dont have the time or the patience
And if ANYONE told me I was not allowed to eat chocolate at least once a day
Besides...I really think as women we sometimes put far too much pressure on ourselves to be the "right" size. I mean if u really are over weight and want to be healthy by all means eat healthier and all, but for God's sake don't beat ureself up over it!!!
But I'll tell u something....Ive seen so many women torture themselves to be thinner...and when they get older they wind up looking like an old wrung out dish rag!! A bit of meat on ure bones makes u look a heck of alot healthier and less like a lizard thats been lying on a rock too long.....


Sorry Madonna

Diva said:

I did too.

chillichocaholic said:

Not to mention, when I start losing weight my tits start losing their beautiful volume. Fuck that!

I'll take a bit of soft belly to go with the curve of my hips and the bounce of my boobs!

CarrieMpls said:

60lbs overweight by there's-only-one-right-weight standards.

All of the women on this thread carefully monitoring their calories. . . I mean, whatever, but it kinda bums me out. Not that I don't understand why we go there.

iDunno. You could walk into my kitchen right now and eat ANYthing there and it's healthy, nourishing stuff. Zero junk food. All vegan (oh, except cream for the boyfriends' coffee). So, when I'm hungry, I walk in there and get something to eat. Dammit.

Being super fucking broke this summer, I stopped eating out, made everything from scratch (down to baking bread and granola), and had limited access to food for the first time in my privileged life. I wondered if I'd lose weight. Nope. Frankly, it wasn't that big of a change from my normal. My body is just absurdly efficient, and if I eat enough to feel ok, then I'm fat. Period.

Fuck it! Gawd, I'm proud of how well I take care of myself 95% of the time (the other 5% being mostly intoxicants, and mostly gin ). Proud of my healthy, planet-friendly diet. Proud of my strong, tan arms that propelled me through my summer vacation. Proud of my big smooshy body that a few sexy people can't seem to keep their hands off of. PROUD.

And I wish I could wave a magic wand and make the rest of you beautiful women proud all day, every day.


/rant



[Edited 10/11/08 8:57am]