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I Came To "Sort Of" (Yeah, I know. Lame, right?) Spill My Guts To Some of Those I've Insulted. I'm a man and I have pride to deal with, here. When I insult a person, I do it with passion. When it doesn't work out, I act out aggressively, by my lonesome to let some of the anger and steam out of my system by playing music with humor-and braggadocio layered-over-anger. Have you ever felt awkward, frustrated, and insecure of yourself because you didn't have the power to reduce someone to tears the way they could to you? Have you ever felt like people would piss on your name but wouldn't piss on fire to put you out?
Has this feeling ever mortified you to the point that you felt powerless in a societal sense? Yeah, these things seem weird. Someone shoving down my throat the fact that I am younger than the average mature gentleman as if I'm not intelligent (Granted, maybe yet to be wise. But, that time shall eventually come.) and "TRYING" to set me straight really gets in my skin. And, I have this habit that I just can't seem to kick where I might overreact because I may seem to be frantic and.....and....I don't know. Maybe it's the Excedrin talking.....or lack thereof. But, most of these things reign true as a vice of mine. Now, what's the remedy? I still can't find it. But, sharing these sentiments with at least "ONE" individual could be the next best thing. I want to apologize to those that I've offended and annoyed. I apologize for being too "wordy". Lucky for you, if you were to know me, personally, you wouldn't have to worry about me running off at the mouth. The keyboard is my mouthpiece, to an extent. I can talk. But, I'd have to be in the mood to initiate. And, that's very rare. I'm not a basket-case. And, if I were, I'd pretty much have my bonnet handle on straight, be weaved together tight, and have bread in it. Fuck fruit! But, I digress; once again only to say that I apologize.  It took a lot for me to get that out.[Edited 12/23/07 9:59am] | |
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I don't think that you have insulted anybody here. Of course I may be wrong as I don't read that much of what is posted on the GD/org. But from what I have seen people did tell you right away when you posted something that somebody felt was inappropiate, so I don't think that there are any bad feelings left. But who knows, maybe I just missed yet another org drama  . Anyway it's brave and nice of you to apologize IMO  .With a very special thank you to Tina: Is hammer already absolute, how much some people verändern...ICH hope is never so I will be! And if, then I hope that I would then have wen in my environment who joins me in the A.... | |
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From where I sit, if you've unintentionally insulted someone and you have the decency to apologize, you've done all that's required. Intentionally insulting someone is different, but I still think that with an apology most folks here would understand and be able to move on without issue.
Although having said that, I think many people here would have some difficulty determining whether you've insulted them or not... Just kidding... sort of..  | |
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I want a hug. |
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HamsterHuey said:
I want a hug. 
Just don't grab my ass, Huey... | |
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violator said: From where I sit, if you've unintentionally insulted someone and you have the decency to apologize, you've done all that's required. Intentionally insulting someone is different, but I still think that with an apology most folks here would understand and be able to move on without issue.
Although having said that, I think many people here would have some difficulty determining whether you've insulted them or not... Just kidding... sort of..  With a very special thank you to Tina: Is hammer already absolute, how much some people verändern...ICH hope is never so I will be! And if, then I hope that I would then have wen in my environment who joins me in the A.... | |
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violator said: HamsterHuey said:
I want a hug.
Just don't grab my ass, Huey... Lower back will do? Can I just nuzzle yer neck while doing this? I got needs, ya know. |
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Ummm, no, I refuse to feel like that.
And why do you need to apologize for being you?  | |
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FarrahMoan said: Have you ever felt awkward, frustrated, and insecure of yourself because you didn't have the power to reduce someone to tears the way they could to you?
not on the org but IRL yes! Rhythm floods my heart♥The melody it feeds my soul | |
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veronikka said: FarrahMoan said: Have you ever felt awkward, frustrated, and insecure of yourself because you didn't have the power to reduce someone to tears the way they could to you?
not on the org but IRL yes! It's the same for me  .With a very special thank you to Tina: Is hammer already absolute, how much some people verändern...ICH hope is never so I will be! And if, then I hope that I would then have wen in my environment who joins me in the A.... | |
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veronikka said: FarrahMoan said: Have you ever felt awkward, frustrated, and insecure of yourself because you didn't have the power to reduce someone to tears the way they could to you?
not on the org but IRL yes! That's sort of what I mean. It ain't really "The ORG". This was something that I had to deal with as far back as Elementary. I'm sort of venting from all chronological angles, for me personally. But, I'm glad someone get the gist. | |
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veronikka said: FarrahMoan said: Have you ever felt awkward, frustrated, and insecure of yourself because you didn't have the power to reduce someone to tears the way they could to you?
not on the org but IRL yes! veronikka, you're a lil' cutie pie...  | |
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gemini13 said: Ummm, no, I refuse to feel like that.
And why do you need to apologize for being you? Shit! I don't know. My fucking mind is running in circles, right now. You know, I know you get a lot of the piss taken out of you from a lot of people, and even though I might not agree with everything you say, I just wanted to let you know that your force field against negative energy is admirable. Sometimes, I feel the same way.
Yesterday was one of those days, man. You know when you look at yourself in the mirror to get a reflection, right? And, you do it not only to take a shallow look at your exterior, but, you stare blankly into your eyes and drift into thought of who you are, innately? And, you see something in you that some other may not. Like, "I'm so fucking intelligent. The rest of the world may not feel that way, but I could just get lost in me because I'm something special. Fuck what they say, I'm cool as hell. I like I how I do that one thing that drives people nuts! It sets me apart. I'm just me. No on else can be me. Fuck the rest. I'm the sexiest person I ever laid eyes on." It doesn't even exactly have to be conceit. Just loving and feeling who you are. That shit's cool about you, dude! That's how it is for me, sometimes. Anyways, this post was longer than I planned. I'm sick of this damn keyboard!  [Edited 12/23/07 10:55am] | |
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LoL
Maaan, I suppose we all got those moments, others more profoundly than others. There are days I hate what I am /have become and other days I am on top of the world. It's about feeling comfortable. You cannot be that all of the time. Life happens. All of the time. |
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violator said: veronikka said: not on the org but IRL yes! veronikka, you're a lil' cutie pie...  Rhythm floods my heart♥The melody it feeds my soul | |
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FarrahMoan said: gemini13 said: Ummm, no, I refuse to feel like that.
And why do you need to apologize for being you? Shit! I don't know. My fucking mind is running in circles, right now. You know, I know you get a lot of the piss taken out of you from a lot of people, and even though I might not agree with everything you say, I just wanted to let you know that you're force field against negative energy is admirable. Sometimes, I feel the same way.
Yesterday was one of those days, man. You know when you look at yourself in the mirror to get a reflection, right? And, you do it not only to take a shallow look at your exterior, but, you stare blankly into your eyes and drift into thought of who you are, innately? And, you see something in you that some other may not. Like, "I'm so fucking intelligent. The rest of the world may not feel that way, but I could just get lost in me because I'm something special. Fuck what they say, I'm cool as hell. I like I how I do that one thing that drives people nuts! It sets me apart. I'm just me. No on else can be me. Fuck the rest. I'm the sexiest person I ever laid eyes on." It doesn't even exactly have to be conceit. Just loving and feeling who you are. That shit's cool about you, dude! That's how it is for me, sometimes. Anyways, this post was longer than I planned. I'm sick of this damn keyboard! Rhythm floods my heart♥The melody it feeds my soul | |
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FarrahMoan said: I'm a man and I have pride to deal with, here. When I insult a person, I do it with passion. When it doesn't work out, I act out aggressively, by my lonesome to let some of the anger and steam out of my system by playing music with humor-and braggadocio layered-over-anger. Have you ever felt awkward, frustrated, and insecure of yourself because you didn't have the power to reduce someone to tears the way they could to you? Have you ever felt like people would piss on your name but wouldn't piss on fire to put you out?
Has this feeling ever mortified you to the point that you felt powerless in a societal sense? Yeah, these things seem weird. Someone shoving down my throat the fact that I am younger than the average mature gentleman as if I'm not intelligent (Granted, maybe yet to be wise. But, that time shall eventually come.) and "TRYING" to set me straight really gets in my skin. And, I have this habit that I just can't seem to kick where I might overreact because I may seem to be frantic and.....and....I don't know. Maybe it's the Excedrin talking.....or lack thereof. But, most of these things reign true as a vice of mine. Now, what's the remedy? I still can't find it. But, sharing these sentiments with at least "ONE" individual could be the next best thing. I want to apologize to those that I've offended and annoyed. I apologize for being too "wordy". Lucky for you, if you were to know me, personally, you wouldn't have to worry about me running off at the mouth. The keyboard is my mouthpiece, to an extent. I can talk. But, I'd have to be in the mood to initiate. And, that's very rare. I'm not a basket-case. And, if I were, I'd pretty much have my bonnet handle on straight, be weaved together tight, and have bread in it. Fuck fruit! But, I digress; once again only to say that I apologize. It took a lot for me to get that out.
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Don't change. And dammit, don't apologize for being wordy. To be honest, you fascinate the shit out of me. And No, I don't mean that in some sleazy, trying-to-hit-on-you kind of way.  | |
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No, I have too much pride in myself as a person. There's Joy In Expatriation. | |
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I dont know what the problem is, but I think your grrrreat! | |
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GreenLeaves said: FarrahMoan said: I'm a man and I have pride to deal with, here. When I insult a person, I do it with passion. When it doesn't work out, I act out aggressively, by my lonesome to let some of the anger and steam out of my system by playing music with humor-and braggadocio layered-over-anger. Have you ever felt awkward, frustrated, and insecure of yourself because you didn't have the power to reduce someone to tears the way they could to you? Have you ever felt like people would piss on your name but wouldn't piss on fire to put you out? Has this feeling ever mortified you to the point that you felt powerless in a societal sense? Yeah, these things seem weird. Someone shoving down my throat the fact that I am younger than the average mature gentleman as if I'm not intelligent (Granted, maybe yet to be wise. But, that time shall eventually come.) and "TRYING" to set me straight really gets in my skin. And, I have this habit that I just can't seem to kick where I might overreact because I may seem to be frantic and.....and....I don't know. Maybe it's the Excedrin talking.....or lack thereof. But, most of these things reign true as a vice of mine. Now, what's the remedy? I still can't find it. But, sharing these sentiments with at least "ONE" individual could be the next best thing. I want to apologize to those that I've offended and annoyed. I apologize for being too "wordy". Lucky for you, if you were to know me, personally, you wouldn't have to worry about me running off at the mouth. The keyboard is my mouthpiece, to an extent. I can talk. But, I'd have to be in the mood to initiate. And, that's very rare. I'm not a basket-case. And, if I were, I'd pretty much have my bonnet handle on straight, be weaved together tight, and have bread in it. Fuck fruit! But, I digress; once again only to say that I apologize. It took a lot for me to get that out.[Edited 12/23/07 9:59am] :nod: Don't change. And dammit, don't apologize for being wordy. To be honest, you fascinate the shit out of me. And No, I don't mean that in some sleazy, trying-to-hit-on-you kind of way. :shrug: Thanks. | |
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horatio said:
I dont know what the problem is, but I think your grrrreat! I second this! surviving on the thought of loving you, it's just like the water
I ain't felt this way in years... | |
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JDInteractive said: No, I have too much pride in myself as a person. Well, I can certainly respect that. I guess the strong will's been a great blessing to you, then. | |
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I'm witnessing the meltdown of another and the shit scares me. This shit brings on the abyss in my mind.  | |
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awwwww Farrah 
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 Sometimes I don't understand the point your trying to make, but you're still so much fun when you're just being you. Don't second guess yourself. I like you, and that's all that matters | |
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I don't think you've offended anyone...and if you have, by just being yourself, then it's certainly not your problem...
everyone brings something different to the org table...some are more accepting of others offerings than others, again, not your problem... the org should be fun and entertaing and you my friend are both of those...besides, if your posts suddenly became logical and less wordy, I wouldn't even read them shits anymore...
be you...if others accept it-great...if not-their loss... | |
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did he delete his account?
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DanceWme said: did he delete his account?
looks that way...  | |
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roodboi said: DanceWme said: did he delete his account?
looks that way... i feel bad and i didnt even do anything
people should be able to come here and have fun and all that jazz. not feel they've done wrong for being themselves. i dont know what his case was but... 
ok enough | |
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roodboi said: DanceWme said: did he delete his account?
looks that way... 
why? | |
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