hokie1 said:

I am sorry I scared you. I would never hurt you. I needed someone to take control, I needed someone to think for me. So thank you for being there for me. I am still here...but it's still hard. It hasn't been 24 hrs since he broke up. I feel like it's been a lifetime since I read those words. But..today I plan to stay here. Or maybe try to sleep..but sleep makes you dream.

MoniGram said:

It's OK... I am just glad you're here Moni. I know it's still hard. It will take time. Just breathe and try to get through each hour, each minute.

hokie1 said:

I am trying. I just lost it a few mins ago. Screamed at the top of my lungs. Why doesn't he hurt like me? He is moving on so easily.

MoniGram said:

It may seem like he is, but he probably really isn't. Men tend to conceal their emotions. They can pretend like everything is fine even when it's not. OK, all the dudes here that don't do this are excused. Don't come here and write a bunch of crap about how you're sensitive.

Anyway, my husband is acting like a robot right now. We're in the middle of getting a divorce! You'd think it would show, but nope. He's good at being on autopilot like that. Me? I was an emotional wreck at first, but it is getting easier. I still do have moments though...

Wow! I just made a huge mistake...I had a missed call on my cell. And it was no one important..but then my voice mail went to all my saved messages...and I heard...

"HEY THERE SWEETIE! NOT PICKING UP YOUR PHONE..I SEE HOW YOU ARE. JUST KIDDING. I AM LAYING DOWN TO GO TO BED, BUT I COULDN'T SLEEP KNOWING YOU ARE UPSET. SEE HOW SPECIAL YOU ARE TO ME. SO DON'T CRY, STOP WORRYING WE ARE OKAY."

Then all the other saved messages came on...and I am crying! Oh dear God! Then one message came on and it reminded me of that night he left it and how he ended up calling me and saying.."You know I love you so much. and if we are meant to be, we will be together. It's just one day at a time Sweetie. But know I love you, and you make me happy."

That was only about 3 weeks ago that he said that! Why did he lie to me!?!


DAMN YOU ANDY! DAMN YOU FOR BEING SO CRUEL! DAMN YOU FOR HURTING ME! FOR LEADING ME ON! FOR MAKING ME THINK WE WOULD GET PAST ALL THIS! I WANT TO HATE YOU! but I can't! I want you to hurt! I want you to feel this pain I have!

me voy a regalar
en esta navidad
un carino neuvo
que me sepa comprender
que me ame de verdad
yo me lo merezco.

me voy a regalar
orta oportunidad
un amor eterno
sin horarios
ni pretextos..


Gotta listen to some good, "KISS MY ASS" kinda music... now sing with me!..



If this doesn't hit the spot for you, try Mary J. or some classic angry Alanis Morrisette it'll keep you mind occupied... in a positive way, and for now , just stay away from anything chemical to numb the pain... you'll heal quicker that way cuidate, mi amiga presiosa... estoy pensando en ti.

MoniGram said:

This is exactly why you should be greateful he is out of your life things happen for a reason
And I'm so glad to see you here today

paintedlady said:

OMG, that's my song

Those are the actions of a weak person, the right man would have put you first.
you deserve far better than this.

paintedlady said:

I need that kind of music. I am trying...I really am. It's almost 10:30am..the normal time he would call to say..I am on my way to work.

Raine said:

DAT'S RIGHT

Raine said:

I am seeing his actions were very much like the actions of a coward. He would tell me one thing, and well his actions were another. Why didn't pay attention sooner..but I got caught up in love. Not again..I am to tired of it.

hokie1 said:

Hi Moni

Hokie is right. He's hurting.

veronikka said:

I know hun, but it's so hard. I keep trying to think of the bad he did to me. Then silly things pop in my head. Like...he would say..' you are lucky you are so cute' or how he would call me his baby!

ThreadCula said:

Is it wrong for me to hope that is true? And Hi hun! Thanks again for last night!

MoniGram said:

I know its too soon to tell... but you will be glad that he's gone. You don't need a scrub to anchor you down..... when you feel a like it wear something cute and flirt away! Just the act alone will allow for you to feel sexy again, and smile from the inside. Until then focus on the wonderful family you've been blessed with.

PS. Buy yourself something new, as a treat for you being so wonderfully you.
[Edited 12/6/07 8:31am]

paintedlady said:

How I would love to shop and make myself feel better. But I can't even bring myself to shower right now.

MoniGram said:

No.I dont think so.

I told Michael to his face that I hate him. He says 'Why do you hate me?!"

That idiot

MoniGram said:

You must look cute now! Even a glance or a wink from a stranger would do so much to boost your spirits.... so GET UP and go scrub your azz.... make those titties smell nice and don't you allow him to hold you down any longer! Today is a NEW day... possibilities are endless. You can be sad, you don't have to look sad, remember you've been through harder times and you'll get through this.

NOW GO ON AND STAY SEXY!!!


can't spell today..duh
[Edited 12/6/07 8:44am]

paintedlady said:

Its so true! My mom told me "You may feel like dirt,but you should look like heaven!"
The minute I took off that freakin engagement ring,I got hit on

You dont have to go out Moni,but at least shower and move around a bit. That'll get your mind off of things.

paintedlady said:

you are right..I am still me, with or without Andy. He might have made me feel beautiful again, but it's me that is beautiful..it wasn't his words that made me that way.

ThreadCula said:

I love that quote! Thank you for that! Like I said...I am still me, with or without Andy. I am a good Mom, and will be an awesome Memaw! I am still Monica..I was Monica before him, and I will still me Monica after him!

Here's another and a wish that you feel a bit more like your usual self soon.

(For the record, he's a fuckwit)

sj1600 said:

Thank you! I need all the hugs I can get. And I love what you called him.

I'm here checking in on you Moni! Glad to see you're here and chatting. At least being here will help to pass the time.

I'm going to keep checking in when I have a few minutes throughout the day. Today is half over. Keep as strong as you can.

hokie1 said:

Thank you Hokie...got past the 10:30 mark...4pm will be another one to get past..then 8pm tonight...and 10pm....if I can make it thru one whole day without him and hearing his voice...then maybe I will be okay on Friday and the next day.

MoniGram said:

That's the spirit Moni!!! Sometimes even if you don't feel like being positive just doing it helps you to get into that mindset! You WILL survive this. I promise.

MoniGram said:

Because of my "Latino-ism", I tend to not notice men around me when I'm involved with someone, (flirting with other men when you have someone as a Puerto Rican is like breaking son Cardinal rule). When you decide to go out, keep your head up, and notice the men around you..... you might be pleasantly surprised to find that someone's probably been trying to get your attention for some time now.

But you'll never know if you don't get out there!! So feel free to be free, time's a waistin'.

MoniGram said:

Uh oh....Okay, since I live too far from you (like say, 7,000 + miles away),you can't come over sooo...

...it's time for some film prescription Rx to get you through the hours when you're not whacked out on the pills and wine: it helps the time pass when you can't sleep or start honing in too much on 'him'.

Please rent, or get to your nearest dvd store to buy, order from Amazon the following movies as SOON as possible to keep you distracted and possibly emit a chuckle or bolster you into Girl Power mode. Keep in mind that if you buy you can memorize all the dialog to pretend you're saying to whats-his-name when you're frustrated and if you can get them from Amazon you can get them at drastically reduced prices or some of them even come as double feature combos (like Sliding Doors/1st Wives for $14 new/$ used).

1. FIRST WIVES CLUB

2. WAITING TO EXHALE

3. DIARY OF A MAD BLACK WOMAN

4. SLIDING DOORS

5. ADDICTED TO LOVE

6. INTERSECTION

7. THE STARTER WIFE

8. MOTIVES

9. WHITE (from the Three Colors trilogy)

10.UNDER THE TUSCAN SUN

Whatever you do, make sure you see choices #1 and #10. Not only are they funny for what ails you, but you get nice messages about closure at the end of each. Short of that, when you start thinking too much during those solitary moments...um... what do you feel about taking a cardio kickboxing class at the local gym? There's something soooo theraputic about envisioning an ex's face as the kick-punch bag in front of you while you're whittling your waist down to nothing from all that cardio.

So sorry to hear about your pain Moni.
Love is sometimes really fucked up.

It hurts now, but you will get over.
You will because you are a strong, wise, beautiful, sexxxy
and extremely loving woman
And that's something NO ONE can take that away from you.

If you don't want to take my word for it
listen to her:

http://www.youtube.com/wa...DOUxuzC9CQ