hokie1 said:

Okay Hokie no more pills..and no more wine. I promise. I know this seems so stupid..and silly in some ways. It just hurts so badly! I just feel all this wouldn't hurt so bad if I had done something to deserve this break up.

Volitan said:

Someday I might fish again in new waters...or go back to old.

Okay everyone..this gal is going to try and lay down. Hopefully it will work. I am sorry if I scared anyone.

MoniGram said:

OK...thank you. I know it hurts so badly...I know....



It is going to get better, but the wound is fresh. Sometimes when I get really upset about the divorce stuff and I find myself freaking out or getting stressed or just plain bawling my eyes out, I remind myself that the hurt I feel is a normal part of the grieving process. Tomorrow is another day. I just try to go to bed and say that tomorrow will be a little less horrible than today.



I hope you get some sleep soon. Check in here in the morning. We want to know you're OK. I'd stay up but I have to be ready to go in 4 hours.

Remember you PROMISED me. Don't go back on your word....

MoniGram said:

Remember Moni there is a lot people who love you and need you

Hope you can get some rest and like Hokie says tomorrow is a new day

MoniGram said:

Get your rest girl!

Well laid down...woke up with a tummy ache. Feel worse today!

MoniGram said:

Thank you all for my hugs, and advice, and good happy thoughts. Moni will try her best to become happy Moni again. But I don't know if she is even in there anymore. I feel like everything and anything has been ripped out.

I know I am not the first..or will I be the last. But right now I feel stupid.

MoniGram said:

There is no need to feel stupid. Being broken-hearted feels like the world is coming to an end and it's just very natural to feel down and sad .

My tummy hurts...my eyes feel like sand paper and are swollen beyond belief, my nose is raw. And all I want is to go back, and never meet Andy...or go back to June 28th when he last broke up with me...and instead of taking him back, walking away.

I almost feel like I am using this thread to vent, to complain, to feel feel better about what happened. I also feel like a damn tittie baby.

MoniGram said:

It's good to let it out. We're all here for you Moni

Moni so sorry I missed this thread my heart goes out to you

jess555ja said:

Thank you Jess! You all will get tired of my crying. But the sun came up, and it's a new day. 10:30am will roll around..and my cell won't ring, and I will cry, but some how I am going to get thru this.

jami0mckay said:

Thanks Jamie It's been a rough few hours..it hasn't even been 24 hrs yet since all this went down.

MoniGram said:

Nah, we won't get tired of it. Believe me, I've been where you are before. It's good to talk about it and let out all of the emotion. It will make you feel better.

MoniGram said:

Just in case it makes you smile again: my bf says that Andy is a fucking dumb man for leaving a woman like you.. "That woman is so sexy she could suck the rust out of a used car.. He's so fucking dumb!!", he said.

Vent all you want moni, that's what we all are here for.. To make you feel better... I just read the post you sent during the night, I got really scared..

If this thread really makes you feel better about yourself and makes you think twice about hurting yourself, it should be stickyed. You need support now, honey...
[Edited 12/6/07 5:36am]

MoniGram said:

I'm so happy to see those words..

jess555ja said:

Well get ready for venting. It hasn't been 24 hrs yet since he sent me that wonderful break up email! An email!

Moni you deserve better than this treatment. I am sorry he was weak and let the pressure break him. I don't understand how he did but each situation is different. My love to you

Mushanga said:

Wow that made me smile like you wouldn't believe! Hug him for me! And tell him to find me a single friend!

Last night was a rough night! When I was driving...I really wanted to just turn my wheel of my tahoe, and go head first into a semi. But then I thought of my kids, my granddaughter, and the other drivers family. Then last night..it would have been so easy to take all those sleeping pills..but Hokie and Threadcula helped me out. By talking to me, and staying with me! Thanks ladies

I know today will be hard..and with the holidays coming it will be even worse. But the more I sit, the more I see that Andy treated me badly. He kept me a secret from his family and friends. He would keep secrets, and I would catch him in lies. Not to mention other things I had to put up with.

I was good to him, treated him with love and respect. Showed him he could be that better man. It just pisses me off to all ends that some other woman is going to get those rewards.

Just dont let this guy mess it up for the next.

mdiver said:

Thank you. It hurts to think he is only going to be with that girl because of his friends and family. I only wish him the best.

Cloudbuster said:

Thank you

MoniGram said:

I'm so happy you're smiling.. and giggling..

We'll find you a real hunk and send him over to do some sexual healing for ya.. Though when I showed my bf your pic, I think he'd volunteer..

It's good that you're thinking about your children and grandaughter, but the person you really need to take care of now is yourself..

MoniGram said:

Moni...I'm not saying this to scold you. But, you really did have me scared last night. I am so glad I made you PROMISE me. I admit I wanted to make you feel guilty about doing anything. I know you're too sweet to hurt me even though you're hurting!

I'm just glad you made it through the day and we're here to help you today and the rest of the days that come.

Mushanga said:

Your bf does wonders for my ego right now. Well find me a hunk, and send him here for Christmas.

Hun..I am going to try and take care of me. I just want to sit around in my pj's today. But tomorrow..I will have to shower, I will have to function. I have my 13 yr old son to think of.