Oh God i'm so weak these days...

I just can't stand anything: people get on my nerves after 2 sentences, i feel physically & psychologically unable 2 do half what i gotta do.

I've been breking up with my girlfriend & now we're both looking 4 distinct appartments & though we're in very good terms (breking-up was a mutual decision & we really like each other) we just can't help but fighting each other about shit, just because we're exhausted & need 2 be on our own 2 b able 2 share moments again.

I'm waiting 4 answers about my work from 2 publishers but since it takes 'em so long 2 answer i don't believe in a positive response anymore. Actually, 4 the 1st time in my life i don't believe in my work anymore... & that makes me worry so much about my future: if i can't "make it", what the fuck will i do with my life???!!!

Since i moved from Lyon 2 Marseille last year i have very few friends here 2 support me (& though i have dozens i could call in Lyon, well... they're just not here 2 have coffee with me, u know...) & anyway i just need 2 b alone 4 a while 2 rebuilt myself & gain self-confidence again. But i even worry i won't get a nice appartment because i don't have much money & landlords now want u 2 earn so much money 2 rent u something...

& as if it wasn't enough i had a clash with 2 of my best friends over shit we're working on 2gether...

Jeez i'm so discouraged... & so sick with people...
[Edited 5/11/07 3:10am]

Sounds like you just need some time. Things will get better. They always do.

I'm sorry. I feel ya.

shaomi said:

I know what you mean
[Edited 5/11/07 9:07am]

did you see? sausage platter has been around lately


one day, one step at a time.
just keep doing what you've got to do.
and feel free to vent here when ever you need!

yes I have and it sucks...you will get through it be strong.

Thanx 4 the kind words.

I'm now waiting 4 an answer 4 an appartment, i'll have it monday or tuesday. I soooo hope the owner says yes... Knowing i've got a new home won't resolve everything but it'll b a start...