Muse2NOPharaoh said:

I understand. And salute you!

FunkMistress said:

Maybe you and I need to go find bundle of lilacs and stuff our noses in it and see if it produces nirvanaish feelings. My luck it will produce a horrid allergy.

Oh I know exactly where you are coming from Karen..

I feel kinda euphoric too, or exhilerated.. no, at peace with myself, happy..

comfortable..

I dont know.. but theres something thats happened to me
I kinda feel the warmth of a close realtive watching over and protecting me
and everyday is just so sunny and happy inside me

Glad you are feelinmg it too!

Muse2NOPharaoh said:

I don't stuff my face in bush anymore.

FunkMistress said:

that sounds a bit lesbiany to me

FunkMistress said:

ROFLMAO! I sware I wish we lived in the same city! I so can see us busting ribs with laughter fits and drinking coffee. Telling all the kids what are you looking at? Go build a tent!

REDFEATHERS said:

Well, duh.

REDFEATHERS said:

E X A C T L Y!

Muse2NOPharaoh said:

And don't come running if one of you gets hurt!!

july said:

FunkMistress said:

Muse2NOPharaoh said:

It's been out of my regular rotation for about a year now. Without any kind of meaning to, really.

I find I really, really miss the social aspect, but don't miss anything else.

CarrieMpls said:

But you still go out with your friends, without drinking/a lot, though, right?

I guess its the same as not smoking

REDFEATHERS said:

I am so glad to hear that - I have been feeling that way too lately.

Shanti1 said:

I feel like I got the Ready Brek glow..

I like to think I am constantly evolving. My life is a staircase, constantly going up. Sure there are much needed landings along the way. I like to think that every decision I make is towards bringing myself up one step. Be it in work life, socail life, general living, money, and even music. SUre there are many areas for improvement...always, but as long as some of the areas in my life are going in the upward direction, then I am ok and don't feel as though I am stuck.

I think what's difficult is that while I view my life that way, my partner does not. This leads to many tense situations. He sees his life as a circle and feels stuck a lot. I have tried to suggest to him that it is his perspective that needs changing. Life is not a constant loop, it is forward moving.

Beautiful thread Karen.

I'm making huge changes involving taking better care of myself. Over the last five weeks, I've lost six pounds and my cholesterol has been lowered from 209 to 187. I gave up Pepsi. I haven't had one in almost 70 days.

I find it's time to re-evaluate relationships as well and time to let go.

Stymie said:

Good for you Stymie
I wish I could give up coffee and soda- my two vices...

I hear you about the letting go- it is a long slow process but some times a necessity.
Much and to you!!

the only major change i've gone through took place around 2 or so years ago. since then, not much else. i'm still me.

Shanti1 said:

Stymie said:

i think you're a total superhero just for giving up soda. i would have the hardest time doing that.

Recently I made a vow to myself to be on time/early to every appointment, occasion I must attend. I was always dragging in 15 minutes or more late to work. It's not a huge problem but I tended to push the clock, and often made a mad adrenaline rush to things. I finally got sick of it.

I even started a journal about it. WOW! How it feels to be relaxed, being rid of that sense of flusteredness, improving relationships. Now this has not been a flawless ambition. But in general the improvement is huge! Somehow I have much more time and energy, I even wake up on time now.

heartbeatocean said:

How did you do it?

I'm chronically late for everything. I do what you just described above.

I recently got a very short hair cut. It has changed my life in many positive ways. I'm saving on shampoo and other hair products, and no longer have to worry about mishaping my hair when I let the top down in my car.

FunkMistress said:

I'm not perfect. I was late yesterday.

It all came out of this great workshop I took a couple of weeks ago. One of the key points about the workshop was keeping agreements and how that can remove all sorts of suffering in your life and and help develop self-trust so you can really move forward.

So it hit me that that's one thing I need to change, especially to improve my relationship with my boss (which isn't bad, but just think what could happen if I was early! Maybe a raise! )

But some of this is kind of weird...so I'll orgnote you.

heartbeatocean said:

Imago said:

In contrast, I've recently grown my hair out longer than it's been in almost 18 years. It now reaches my collar bone. I plan to grow it about 4 more inches. I can do fun things like pull it back in pig tails. And I'm considering looking at some nice barrettes and other hair accessories next time I go shopping.

Yeah, that's about all that's changed with that.

Mama K, I'm glad you've stepped into the sunshine again. I know the feeling you speak of. . .

This winter has been hard for me. I've been sad and stressed a lot.

Due to various things, but a significant part that has been troubling me is that my financial irresponsibility over the past couple of years is coming back to bite me in the ass. I don't really know what I'm going to do about it. "More month than money" is a GREAT way to put it. But. . .I'm going to take care of it, and it will be ok.

Like Anx, I'm having a bit of a last hurrah. . . an on-the-cheap last hurrah, but. . . going to NYC over spring break, and I think it will be a nice little shake-up, get me out of my kinda glum routine a bit.

Then, I come back and settle into a challenging quarter at school, a new weight training routine that I've been enjoying but would enjoy more if my energy weren't so low, and utter financial discipline. I'm also going to continue something that I've been working really hard at over the past several months, which is getting rid of clutter and being a better housekeeper, so that my home is a nice place ot be.

I'm going to be a better me. Happy spring!

Imago said:

I think getting a new avvie has done wonders for you! good for you!