Imago said:

It's some sort of foder-rehash-a-somthin'

Anx said:

Great topic....I feel my perception is not more of knowlege but more of viewpoint. I see the world very different than most....almost alien IMO. Most things seem like an obvious common sense thing when others see it as difficult or can't see the answer at all. I liken it to the Matrix movie and the book the Fountainhead. In the book like in the movie the main characters are aware of something that everyone else chooses not to see or can't see and are detached from people. That is how I feel until I come across people who can "see" the same things I see.

Im sure what I wrote sounds completely insane...If you think so please move along...nothing to see here.

Imago said:

And this is where we part ways.

ah well. It was good while it lasted.

Sinister said:

Never read The Fountainhead and only know of The Matrix what was told to me by an ex, but I'd say that's a very good analogy.

jerseykrs said:

tom brady?

I often liken my existence to a Twilight Zone episode. I cannot for the life of me understand why most people live their lives the way they do.

Imago said:

see, was THAT so hard for you to understand?


oh, wait, i just re-read your answers, maybe it was...

Um, I think I can grasp what would make people look nice. I'm good at making people look cute and finding the most beautiful part of them and displaying it.

I'm also good at relating to people and empathizing with them.

I suck at giving good advice, or any advice at all really. I relate but I don't know how to solve problems.

I'm really good at memorazation, and like book smarts, but I have absolutely no common sense.

I'm good at making things look pretty, and I like pretty stuff.

I'm also good at taking the fall for other people. I'll make myself look like an idiot, just so someone else won't have to.

And this totally isn't what the thread was about, is it?

How 'bout how do you think people percieve you?

I think people see me as weak, and dumb.

I'm a little weak, but I'm not dumb. I just don't care to know about stuff I have no interest in. Some people call this ignorance, I just call it conservation.

Do you often get the feeling that you can easily understand certain things that few other people can?

Alternately, do you often get worried because you can't grasp certain ideas that seem like second nature to most everyone else you know? I'm often surprised of the amount of things people get worried about

What is it that you feel is so hard for others to grasp spirituality
and what is it that is so hard for you to grasp? money

What would be the ratio between your rare knowledge and your rare ignorance? the whole world

Why am I asking such weird-ass questions? cuz you're a prolific orger/you're bored (?)

Happy holidays! 2U2

Anx said:

No
No
No
80/20
Because you want to sound smart.
Happy Holidays.

Anx said:

Ace said:

Anx said:

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StepfordWive said:

I'll hire you. I am not making this up: I got a voicemail from my manager to come speak with her in her office. When I had a minute, I headed in, and she closed the door behind me. The conversation:

Her: Jana! Thanks for coming in.

Me: No problem. Sorry about the delay; I'm answering the group voicemail and didn't get to mine until afterward.

Her: Okay. I have something to say about you! Oh, wait...y'know, never mind!

Me: {completely fucking confused) Uh, please, let me hear it!

Her: No, I really won't...no.

Me: Really, please Deborah! Is it bad? What happened?

Her: No, I just, I'm sorry.

Me: Please, don't worry. I've GOT to know!

Her: Well, I just wanted to say...you've got beautiful eyes! Your whole face is gorgeous, and you..

Me: (I've got the WTF face at this point)

Her: You RUIN it with that dark eyeshadow!

Me: (laughing) Christ, I thought this was about WORK! What a relief.

Her: Listen, I was in a beauty pageant

Me: (still laughing)

Her: NO! It was a SCHOLARSHIP PAGEANT. For college. "Miss USA".

Me: You're kidding me. My stepsister's in the same pageant. It's really for a scholarship? I'm not sure that even SHE knows that.

Her: Macy's has free makeovers Jana. I know a girl who works there. the key is asking for a "seasoned" makeup expert.

Me: Boy. I guess I'll admit I never really picked up on the whole "makeup" and "beauty" thing. I was raised by my dad, whom when I was eight, decided to give me a haircut while my hair was in a French braid.

I'm in an odd state right now. Should I feel offended, horrified, thankful...?! What the FUCK. This just happened about 15 minutes ago.

fucking rubics cube!

I might as well answer my own questions:



I grew up feeling that way, though I think it was only part true and part due to growing up unusually isolated. I had a lot of time to myself as a kid and I became a real individual, which in some ways was good and in some ways not so much.



Yup. Some simple tasks I just cannot grasp, and I don't know why. .And some things, like learning how to play guitar or learning a new language, are very difficult for me to learn. When I see others doing these things with ease, I wonder what it is that I lack that makes it so easy for them.

Intellectually, too...when I feel dwarfed around someone who's just a complete uber-egghead, I wonder what it is that I missed that they were able to access. Part of me feels like, well, I can understand the CONCEPTS they're talking about, but I can't come close to articulating myself as well as they can, and I don't have the book-smarts they have. I don't feel completely alienated, but I feel like there's a whole world of understanding I haven't even touched. It's both frustrating and kind of inspiring, I suppose.




I think it's hard for people to grasp that there is a reality that is relevant beyond the given moment. I feel like people all too often want to cram everything into one snapshot or blink in time, and say that "this is everything in the universe, and we must invest completely in THIS moment, and we will judge everything that comes after on THIS single frame of film." And I know, "carpe diem", "live for the moment", blah blah blah, but I think there's something to be said for realizing that right now - right this second - does not have to dictate what the next moment will be like. In fact, that knowledge helps keep me MORE in the moment, I think. It helps me accept what each moment brings. And that seems like a simple philosophy...though I don't think a lot of people get that.

And what I don't get? Hmm. Maybe it's tied in, but I think I'm poor at dealing with chaos. I can't live in the eye of a hurricane, and I know so many people who EXCEL in chaos. I don't know if this is a good or a bad thing. I need some kind of order or some kind of linear SOMEthing to get me through. I sometimes envy people who can go through life with no rhyme or reason to anything they do. Rock on.



Lotsa ignorance vs. a speck or two of knowledge.



Because I am a longtime/prolific Orger and I want to sound smart.




Oh, eat me.

INSATIABLE said:

omg, that's disturbing, shallow and hilarious, all at the same time!

just remember - taking beauty advice from a beauty pageant contestant is a dangerous undertaking!

Anx said:

The older I get, the more I crave order. I think I'm just a few years away from doing an Accidental Tourist-style alphabetizing of the contents of my food cupboards.

StepfordWive said:

I call it "triage".

Ace said:

Usually if something rings a faint bell of interest, I'll just assume that one day when I'm ready to dive into it, I will. I try not to pressure myself into getting interested in things that don't move me now. I've revisited a lot of things I simply couldn't appreciate when I was younger. I think I'm going to keep doing that as I get older. There's plenty of time to check stuff out.

Anx said:

My view is that life is short and you cannot possibly do it all; so you might as well spend as much time as you can doing things that make you happy. If that doesn't conform to other people's ideas about what you should be doing, I think it was Socrates who said, "Fuck 'em".

Egg Nog

Anx said:

I have to remind myself to be that way about music. Sometimes I feel almost panicked at everything I'm missing in a given moment, especially when I'm listening to Parade for the trillionth time.

But generally, I'm pretty ok with all of the shit that I don't know because I don't currently care.

HereToRockYourWorld said:

Ditto.

I used to be obsessed with music (was a musician, devoured all the rags, bought a shitload of vinyl and CDs, etc.).

Now, I'm like, "Meh ".

Anx said:

I guess I've gone through most of my life kinda feeling like an old soul. I have an easy time reading people, to a point that it's almost kinda woo-woo-creepy on some level. And if you have an easy time reading people, well. . . it makes you function really differently in the world. When people find it hard to hide from you, but they don't necessarily know it, it really changes communication. It's sort of vague, but it is an additional layer of knowledge.

As for what I don't grasp easily, I'm with you on languages and guitar. Guitar specifically. Like, I suck at all languages (including English. . . . . . really, considering what a reader I've been, I should have a better vocabulary), but most instruments I have an easy time picking up and doing something relatively melodic with. Guitar? No clue. It's mind-bending to me that it's such a popular instrument with casual musicians. I can't do anything with it.


Between knowledge and ignorance, well, I've got vasly more ignorance. Between RARE knowledge and RARE ignorance. . . probably pretty balanced.


You ask weird questions 'cause you're weird.


And fuck all of this jesus crap.

Anx said:

YES - you know, I feel like I get it, no matter what, even if I don't, I have some weird plausible theory that sounds half right

NO - that never happens to me!

N/A

because you are a weirdo, obviously

thanks! you too!

Anx said:

First, Happy Holidays Chris

To answer your questions, no I don't think I'm able to understand things others can't

Yes there are many things I can't quite grasp that most others can

I have no idea what the ratio would be lol

I have no idea why you're asking such weird-ass questions either

and again, Happy Holidays!!

purplerein said:

don't worry dearie it's not important. don't bother your pretty little head over this mean old thead.

Mach said: