So over the last few days I've been slipping back into old habits. The beginning of my seasonal affective disorder kicking in full force, I think I've been looking for comfort.
Trouble is, I'm not finding it where I thought I would. I made myself a platter of junk food last night for dinner. And it tasted awful and made me feel sick.
So tonight I decided I'd try smoking again. So I just walked to the store and bought a pack of cigarettes. After a few puffs, I was utterly disgusted. It made me feel dizzy and nauseous. Put it out, and came inside.



I suppose (ok, I know) it's for the best. It just feels like I don't have anything left.


So what do you do? Where do you find your comfort? What do you do when the old tricks aren't working anymore?

heroin













mainlined

sex, drugs and alcohol

jerseykrs said:

I'll try that next!

CarrieMpls said:

call me, we can pass out together!

I just read one of Dan's threads and they make me feel like "Damn, I'm glad I don't suck THAT much!"

jerseykrs said:

as long as I don't have to listen to you vomit.

CarrieMpls said:

Drawing something...always works for me.
[Edited 11/11/06 17:20pm]

jerseykrs said:

ok, ok. I'll listen to you get sick.

FruitToAttractBears said:

same here.

FruitToAttractBears said:

I think I need a new hobby. I can't draw though. But nice suggestion.

CarrieMpls said:

All it takes is practice

freeze a door knob and throw it at your neighbor. That's always fun.

jerseykrs said:

FruitToAttractBears said:

Yeah but I'm not creative at all. I don't even know what I'd draw. I'd need someone to give me drawing assignments or something.

jerseykrs said:

Why frozen?


Wait, will it stick?

my secret potion is roasted yerba mate, which you can probably find at a local bulk coffee store, if you have one out there (which i'm guessing you do). nobody listens to me when i rave about what a cure-all this tea is, but i love it because it IS such a great pick-me-up (i just wrote over 5,000 words today while drinking a bodum full of the stuff) and the taste also resembles coffee enough for me to keep going back to it. it gives you a buzz, but you don't crash from it. it's a nice, healthy, clean energy boost and it's full of vitamins and all kinds of good, healthy stuff. you can also get non-roasted yerba mate (i know seward cafe serves it), but i don't like it as much as the roasted. it's probably more potent, though...

Anx said:

do you use the traditional mug and straw too?

CarrieMpls said:

I know what you mean. Maybe draw a picture of another orger...

You know...I'd been thinking about starting a "draw me a picture" thread where ppl'd do just that, draw a pic and then request a pic for someone else...but I dunno...
[Edited 11/11/06 17:39pm]

jerseykrs said:

that helped.

Eating several chocolate cookies, but I've replaced that with putting on a good tv show/movie and riding my bike to it. Exercise can feel almost as good as sex and certainly way better than those stupid cookies.

JustErin said:

That's a good one. And I felt awesome after yoga this morning.
But that fades pretty fast. And I can't live at the gym. My apartment is so small, there's no room to do anything remotely exercise-y inside it.

Maybe I should start living at the gym.

an intense workout followed by a nice hot shower with a well mixed Crown n Seven with a cigarette, works for me every time.

I'm glad the smoking disgusted you!! DON'T KEEP TRYING IT!

Go for a walk.
Call your friends.
It's gay, but I like to take a bubble bath and do my nails, brows, dip my hands and feet in the parrafin wax. (All that stupid stuff)
Excercise.
Have a drink.
Read a book.
Theres lots of stuff you can do.

Rite now is my fave time of the year cuz the holidays are coming and I LOVEEEE to watch the cooking channel (Food Network) and get ideas for Thnaksgiving and Christmas dinner. That always gets me in a good mood. If your into that kind of thing.....

jerseykrs said:

i have a bombilla gourd thingie but i don't use it. it's too small. nope, i just brew it in a bodum and pour it in one of my big ass mad hatter mugs.

Bubble bath!

meditation