Let me start by saying that although life has taken me on the path less desired I know that the flaws are inherant to the fabric and do not effect its wear ability in anyway... that said I need to vent:

Lets see.... NEVER SAY WHATS NEXT!
1) I am being dragged into court on matters that are 7 years old.... but 7 years ago life took a dump and I need to resolve said things. Upside: The (almost) darkest part of my history will at last be in the past.. and i am ready to face it off....
2) I broke my toe on the stairs Monday... it was a dumb move and it really doesn't hurt but looks damn dumb ....forces me into sandals and causes me to have to explain said dumb move over and over again to the tune of some 40 peeps a week
3) The darkest part of my history... This one has me upside down but as my sister says I will give it 24 hours and no more.....

My X and I are very close... His mother is uncool on all levels.. although we are divorced and she is the reason.... I have not as yet really escaped her clutches.... ( She stole my identity 10 years ago and nearly destroyed my life...) I did loose a child while proving my innocence and saving our home. ( Long ancient story) some of you would recall...

Well last night she attempted suicide.....
Which brings a whole host of feelings to the surface.... She wants attention is my best guess as she has at last worn out her welcome in most circles... You know the let me swallow a bundle of pills then call all my children to me..
My X is devastated.... I have taken over child duties and am now lying to them... So they are scared because they are used to talking to each of us many times a day and can't get through... I know he is feeling isolated and my mom is on vacation so he doesn't have that to fall on....
My heart is hurt and once again the mass manipulator has us all on our knees....



Your turn vent
[Edited 8/16/06 19:36pm]

goodness!

you are so strong

(nothing to vent here NEXT!)

Let it out!

Holy fuck, kitty!


just stay strong! and know that you are VERY loved

Oh Karen... I'm so sorry all of this stuff is happening to you at once. For some reason, it seems to go that way sometimes.

Take a deep breath...and be sure you're taking care of yourself through this. Things will be ok...just get through this.

:F: love to you ... and Reiki, in mere moments

Karen!

It will all work out

2the9s said:

I should blackmale you for info on the big nothing thread... If I really thought there were any...

althom said:

luv4u said:

Thanks you and everyone.....

I do know it all is suppose to happen at this time and such.... I just have to kick and scream and kick a little bit..

I have never been afraid to be known... no one should be..

when it rains it pours, huh? sorry to hear about the crapfest, but it only means you're in for a whole lotta good once this all passes.

Muse2NOPharaoh said:

careful beautiful one... you may break yet another toe

Mach said:

Perhaps... It doesnt hurt though... My pain tollerance is through the roof... the only real pain I have ever known is soul sorta stuff... TRUE STORY!

Anx said:

Does this mean I have to confess I really adore you.... Because I really don't think I can take that public...

i promise if i make it to minne i won't ask you about your toe


you seem to have the right perspective on all these things
and for certain you are one heck of a woman - i know you can deal.

best to be straight with the kids though? they are old enough to get that their grandmother is a wack job. they don't need the whole story... just enough to give them some power back.

I remember us having this conversation.

I will pray for you so that you can find patience and so that she wont affect you as much as she does. That's her goal and it's not easy to ignore.

Stay strong honey.




M

for you... stay strong

You know I am here, don't you.

Love you.

Love you, Karen. We'll talk soon.

aww, honey!



if there is anything i can do to make it better, let me know

Sorry to hear this. I sympathise with you.

Love you always Karen...you have my number...if you need it , use it

You have every right to be angry and you should shout away until u can't shout anymore.

I have had lots of crap happen to me in the past, some of which haunts me still. But, and this is the big thing I would not really change it. Ok i could do without having to go through the pain and mental torture of it all again but all the bad stuff that has gone off has made me the person who i am now. And i actually like the soul i have.

You have done so much and have so much to offer people. What does not kill you makes you strong. Be strong and beautful just as you are.

You will come through this, stronger and better from it.

Muse2NOPharaoh said:

zip it

Stay up, sis! I'm praying for you, for sure. Philippians 4:13