Did you get nauseous at first?

ella731 said:

My dreams have already come true. The rest of my life is but a bonus. Just one second with the person you dream of is enough for ten lifetimes. I can't lose from here.

And yes, I am a softy. There is no act, I am caustic as all hell, but there's love inside there too.

PurpleThunder said:

Well, actually I was thinking it was mismatch in the opposite sense, but you go on and give your best. Perhaps you could post pics of the outcome.

Fauxie said:

ella731 said:

Not at all. In person I'm terribly dull but full of love. It wasn't much of a stretch.

PurpleThunder said:

Puke all you like. Go 'head. 'Tis only the truth.

This is the dream we all dream of. Boy vs. girl in the world series of love.

Fauxie said:

its just so mushy and fluffy

PurpleThunder said:

And?

Have u never felt mushy and fluffy? When you're honest and genuine you can never go wrong. I learnt this a long time ago. Honesty is the way to happiness.

How's things Terra? Cool pics the other day. Did you have a good night out with your friends? It sounded like the kind of night out I miss sometimes.

Fauxie said:

Im always fluffy and mushy...its you that isnt always that fluffy and mushy...you're more straight to the point
Im good...I had a really good time and I ended up with a 36" Dolphin who needs a name....

PurpleThunder said:

Cool!

A fluffy and mushy trucker eh? I'm caustic, sure, and sarcastic, but I don't want to be misunderstood. I'm not a pessimist and not that cynical. I just try to keep myself balanced by letting my caustic side come out. I have too much to be happy about and want to stay humble. You see how scary it can be when I'm just nice? There you go.

Nice is overrated.

starkitty said:

You are a test, sent by the Devil, I am sure. To be honest, I'm just glad you're posting on my thread. I miss you round here so much!!! What've you been up to?

By the way, have I ever told you that I love your hair?

My hair is a fickle creature, either straight or just wavy, not wavy enough. I'm glad you like it though, I do too.

Me, I've been trying to write something like a novel. However, recent events have strangled my muse to death and she is not breathing right now. The flames that fueled turned to cold hard icy panic. I am not at liberty to explain. I have been trying to keep mine ass covered. Life is crazy.

I think that covers it. I have a volleyball game tonight, my team is not very good but we have a good time (until our captain breaks out a white board and tries to draw a plan of attack - that's just funny).

Fauxie said:

Yes I was even wearing my trucker style hat today

starkitty said:

Glad to hear you've been well and maintaining your nice hair.

You must be here more often, I urge you! I've missed your mordacity like AB would miss a gay org crush.

I have also been attempting to write. It has been over 2 years and just today I began to jot down some ideas for some poetry, but it's hard work. I don't think the way my life is now is helping me in this. I feel all the things I want to write but I've lost the ability to write them. My contentedness with this feeling is then hindering my motivation to try to write about them. The directness of my feeling the experiences makes documenting them seem rather trivial, if that makes any sense, and yet I'm wanting so badly to have some kind of creative outlet.

Just good to have you here starkitty. In my own way, I love you to bits.

Thank you Fauxie, that is entirely sweet! I appreciate that.

Ok. Well, you have to write what is you, otherwise it is false, at least I believe that when it comes to poetry. And I believe you have to really make the reader feel what you feel. I can understand how your sense of complacency makes you feel like you can't convey your emotion.

I generally write about something that makes me cry (the death of my mother, lust, love, heartbreak or heartache, very palpable emotions). But usually I don't write when I'm just content, I have to be tortured in some way, if you will.

And I know you will! So I understand what you mean. I don't have a solution, and I'm not telling you to torture yourself, but I understand.

Also I know what you mean by documenting them. Sometimes something is so beautiful on its own that you don't want to force it and nail it down.

But sometimes it writes itself in your head, and that's when you can't stop it.

starkitty said:

Thank you. I was talking to a friend the other day about his poetry, and urging him not to cloud out the vulnerability and personification in his work by using too much complex metaphor and abstraction. I think it's important for you to be seen in your poetry and writing. I think you shouldn't hide, and that's where the real gravy is.

Be well.

Fauxie said:

Lovely to see you again.

starkitty said:

Don't be a stranger, ms mordacity.