Sweeny79 said:

Number23 said:

Sweeny79 said:

throwing clumps of red at helpless kids must help with that positive energy





(I just can't let it go)
[Edited 4/28/05 15:11pm]

I am getting there..

paintsprayer said:

Dude it's over bury it.

Number23 said:

Made this a temporary background image, told the kids it was Gilmore before he had completed the collagen injections.

catharsis said:

hey, thanks! i *do* think writing can and should be a job - MY job - but i run into the same attitude you run into, and i'm finding that where i am, the magazine/publishing community is extremely cliquish and very protective and proprietary of who they let into their ranks...but i'm still chipping away. what i meant with that original post was that it's hard to keep focused on my writing while still trying to maintain a non-writing job to keep the lights on and the rent paid. it becomes more and more difficult to have energy for both worlds.

Life is a journey- it'z all about da journey which will somehow eventualyz shape your self actualisationz

One must kick fear in da ass and do what one wantz- i notice once people do this dat they seem 2 have this vibe of energy which screamz 'i can do ANYTHING'...and also i reckon datz cause they gain alotta support too

Sooo I fink n believe you can do anything

paintsprayer said:

Who the hell is Gilmore?

lilmissmissy said:

My singing teacher once told me... 'you must fly with the eagles to become one'.

To talk of a 'self' would surely be to posit something inherently and independently existent which endures through time, with a genuine identity between what exists now and what existed before. However, identity would require that we share all properties, which of course is not tenable. There is no identity over time. As I've said before, it's interesting that we construct this 'self' using a very selective process of singling out certain events and experiences which seem important, meaning that we base our 'self' more on what does not exist than what does!

i'm lovin' woodworking and photography, just hope i get something financial out of it.

Fauxie said:

Ummm...I wanna be a cowboy.

Lleena said:

You know if you measured yours against mine you'd lose.

2the9s said:

There's still time.


By the way, your new avatar is a million times worse than your old one. Where on earth did you get that piece of crap???

Fauxie said:

I admit, it really sucks ass.

lilmissmissy said:

Reading this I can’t help but be reminded of that scene in Donnie Darko where the gym teacher is forcing Donnie to place his x near either love or fear and Donnie goes through that speech about how life does not operate at either end of the spectrum all the time and that life is too complicated to oversimplify it to love or fear.....

~~~~~

In the book “Conversations with God” the author describes fear as an unnecessary emotion because the way God looks at us is like this: We are all children playing in a safe playground. Even if we fall or stumble no real harm will come to us. So if we are in fact in this playground we have nothing to fear, we are protected at all times.

That part of the book resounded a truth within me and, since I read that (and I’m sorry to anyone who is a follower of this book but I take it all with a few grains of salt) I have become some what empowered. And while I do not exclusively feel that this security comes from the Almighty alone, (I realize that my childhood and the feelings of safety and love my parents and community provided for me play a large role in my ability to swallow this theory almost whole) I see it as a valid point.

All that said.....Fear is not the issue. I could NOT be afraid to kill someone. That does not mean I should do it. Reaching your potential is not a matter of “doing what you want” it’s a matter of doing what is right and just and good. You can do this and still be afraid, you can be fearless and never come close to doing what is right.

For me, reaching my potential will be found in doing what God and the Universe asks of me, not doing what I want or what I am unafraid of. I have not always done this. I am starting to do so now, and I have realized that it matters not where you are, who you are with, how fulfilled you are…it is simply a matter of choosing the high road and following it through even when it would be so much easier to do just the opposite.

I hope this makes sense, I’ve gotten my Psychology and my Theology mixed up some here.

And what the fuck do I know? I’m just waiting for my laundry to be done so I can go to bed.

Sweeny79 said:

Again with the Donnie Darko....

Sinister said:

Hey it's a good movie

Sweeny79 said:

Your obsessed with it! Admit it!

Sinister said:

I have never said otherwise.

Sweeny79 said:

Yeah- but sometimez it takez a great deal of adrenaline- which is often related 2 fear to actually go ahead and do what you want, which in my mind, is what God (or whichever higher being one believez in) has engraved in your heart. And da andrenalin really i believe comez down 2 individual thought processes and experiences and what notz.

I agree wif da higher road stuff...

and yeah...

lilmissmissy said:

Oh fear is a necessary function for survival, definitely. But fear in my opinion has nothing to do with reaching or not reaching self actualization.

Sweeny79 said:

Dat'z cool, it'z ur opinion-- but from what i've come to know, it is not uncommon among many to be a lil afraid of da unknown when for example choosin a new career path...and once a person getz sick of da fear, they usually begin 2 take da leap or they reach a point where they have an epiphany ...so i wasnt basing it on just any seemingly obscure airy fairy thought- just what i've observed in human nature is all. All opinionz are subject 2 limitationz ofcourse.

lilmissmissy said:

I guess it all depends on what you feel/think self actualization is.

Sweeny79 said:

Yeah, true dat

the question was meant to be a yes or no answer. i didn't mean for it to drift off into psychobabbleness....

Anxiety said:

I hear ya. From the age of 13, people have essentially laughed at or if they're kind humored my desire to make it in music. There have always been lectures on having something to 'fall back on'. I tried that through work and school and at the end of the day, it really doesn't do it for me. And I know that practically, I need to make money and keep myself busy, but I know that no other path in life is gonna make me happy. So to all of you who have doubters and haters...brush 'em off.

magnificentpentatonic said:

me too. and sometimes i sense there's no real end to the journey