I've been okay for a long time, but it's starting again though I was cool when the album was released and feel like he's not gone when I listen to it. For the past half-week I've been sensitive again and was sobbing a couple of hours ago.

Maybe you should stop listening for a while. Give him a break then listen again.

I'm soo angry with that whole situation- his death was so avoidable.

I'm okay with hearing him again, that was a problem for awhile with the sensitive songs but I got over it. When the music is off I'm thinking of the person and how it happened, cause I experienced numbness the most and shock when it was happening that's why the tears are ongoing, still crying it out, though also keeping busy with life and trying to stay happy, cause I do have a good one.

evvy, I know He didn't deserve it, I'm trying not to think about the trial until the time comes, but I've already sadly and painfully accepted that there may not be justice and hate the fact I have to be selfish and look after my own life instead now and staying happy, while having in the back of my mind that he was killed this way and that quack is getting away with it.

I know. It doesn't feel the same without him, but life has to go on

angel345 said:

I know. It doesn't feel the same without him, but life has to go on

yeah it really does and I think I'm doing better than I imagined, but it's still hurting like hell and it took me places I never thought I would go :*(

I think most of us fans will always miss him and feel sad over his death, but you know what? I don't even feel like MJ is really gone. I think maybe i'm in denial about it which is why I don't feel sad most of the time or cry anymore. Obviously I know he's gone, but I just still can't seem to fathom that Michael is actually no more. In my head and when I listen to his music, I think he's just hiding out on an island or something. It just doesn't register with me most of the time he's gone. I usually forget he's passed away . I hate to even think about it.

Cinnamon234 said:

I think most of us fans will always miss him and feel sad over his death, but you know what? I don't even feel like MJ is really gone. I think maybe i'm in denial about it which is why I don't feel sad most of the time or cry anymore. Obviously I know he's gone, but I just still can't seem to fathom that Michael is actually no more. In my head and when I listen to his music, I think he's just hiding out on an island or something. It just doesn't register with me most of the time he's gone. I usually forget he's passed away . I hate to even think about it.

yeah he did not feel dead to me all this time either, but i knew he was, but it was also shock and numbness and denial keeping me from admitting it, cause of how it happened. It would have been easier if it was natural.

*Sends AlphaStreet a big hug*

Strangely i didn'y cry over his death. Something doesn't add up. I think he's still alive.

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funkycat00 said:

Strangely i didn'y cry over his death. Something doesn't add up. I think he's still alive.

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I was finding it hard to cry too as constantly as I expected though my body felt it, I kept thinking it's fake too, but I've realized it's not and even if it was, he's not going to jump out and say boo either and maybe it's better that way, cause people will not like being fooled

ali23 said:

*Sends AlphaStreet a big hug*

*big hug* love your avatar, I've always loved the legend continues clips and was so in love with him when I first saw them

alphastreet said:

funkycat00 said:

Strangely i didn'y cry over his death. Something doesn't add up. I think he's still alive.

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I was finding it hard to cry too as constantly as I expected though my body felt it, I kept thinking it's fake too, but I've realized it's not and even if it was, he's not going to jump out and say boo either and maybe it's better that way, cause people will not like being fooled

Try this website:

http://www.michaeljacksonhoaxdeath.net/

There's 100s of people there who believe he's still alive and there's plenty of weird stuff out there to fuel that belief.

These videos are good too:

http://www.youtube.com/user/MJTheKingOfLife

The fact that the doctor who "killed" him is still free and taking vacations says it all to me.

alphastreet said:

ali23 said:

*Sends AlphaStreet a big hug*

*big hug* love your avatar, I've always loved the legend continues clips and was so in love with him when I first saw them

Thank you!

purplesweat said:

alphastreet said:

I was finding it hard to cry too as constantly as I expected though my body felt it, I kept thinking it's fake too, but I've realized it's not and even if it was, he's not going to jump out and say boo either and maybe it's better that way, cause people will not like being fooled

Try this website:

http://www.michaeljacksonhoaxdeath.net/

There's 100s of people there who believe he's still alive and there's plenty of weird stuff out there to fuel that belief.

These videos are good too:

http://www.youtube.com/user/MJTheKingOfLife

The fact that the doctor who "killed" him is still free and taking vacations says it all to me.

I used to go to that site for months and believed in the hope, but I stopped for good. It's not emotionally healthy for me anymore. But sometimes going there reduced my crying for a few days before starting up again.

[Flame snip - luv4u]

Alphastreet, I won't tell you how you should feel because no one knows what you should be feeling nor why you feel the way that you do, other than you.

I can only say this...

In my home, I'm doing what I've always done this time of year. I'm enjoying the holiday season with those that I love. When my guests arrive at my home, they are greeted and enveloped in some great music. It tickles me and warms my heart, when one of Michael's tunes is on and I can hear my guests singing along, at the top of their lungs (trying to anyway) before I can even get to the door.

Michael has always been present, through his music, in the pretty much all of the most enjoyable times of my life and he will always continue to be because that is the truth of his legacy and I will always honor that!

So my Christmas wish for you...is that someday you can get beyond the sadness of Michael's death and find a way to embrace and celebrate his life. I truly believe that Michael would want that for you and all those that love him, as well.

Happy Holidays!

.

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HatrinaHaterwitz said:

Alphastreet, I won't tell you how you should feel because no one knows what you should be feeling nor why you feel the way that you do, other than you.

I can only say this...

In my home, I'm doing what I've always done this time of year. I'm enjoying the holiday season with those that I love. When my guests arrive at my home, they are greeted and enveloped in some great music. It tickles me and warms my heart, when one of Michael's tunes is on and I can hear my guests singing along, at the top of their lungs (trying to anyway) before I can even get to the door.

Michael has always been present, through his music, in the pretty much all of the most enjoyable times of my life and he will always continue to be because that is the truth of his legacy and I will always honor that!

So my Christmas wish for you...is that someday you can get beyond the sadness of Michael's death and find a way to embrace and celebrate his life. I truly believe that Michael would want that for you and all those that love him, as well.

Happy Holidays!

.

[Edited 12/24/10 14:08pm]

This is beautiful He is truly missed.

alphastreet said:

angel345 said:

I know. It doesn't feel the same without him, but life has to go on

yeah it really does and I think I'm doing better than I imagined, but it's still hurting like hell and it took me places I never thought I would go :*(

Be strong. You can do it

Why isn't this in the all-things-MJ thread?

ThreadBare said:

Why isn't this in the all-things-MJ thread?

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Timmy84 said:

ThreadBare said:

Why isn't this in the all-things-MJ thread?

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ThreadBare said:

Timmy84 said:

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OK I dare you to go through all 100 pages of the Michael thread and then say that same mess when you come back.

Hope your browser freezes.

Timmy84 said:

ThreadBare said:

OK I dare you to go through all 100 pages of the Michael thread and then say that same mess when you come back.

Hope your browser freezes.

I'm just sayin'... There's a thread for that sentiment.

Cinnamon234 said:

I think most of us fans will always miss him and feel sad over his death, but you know what? I don't even feel like MJ is really gone. I think maybe i'm in denial about it which is why I don't feel sad most of the time or cry anymore. Obviously I know he's gone, but I just still can't seem to fathom that Michael is actually no more. In my head and when I listen to his music, I think he's just hiding out on an island or something. It just doesn't register with me most of the time he's gone. I usually forget he's passed away . I hate to even think about it.

I have seen enough death hoax videos. Am I convinced or not Again, life goes on.

alphastreet said:

I've been okay for a long time, but it's starting again though I was cool when the album was released and feel like he's not gone when I listen to it. For the past half-week I've been sensitive again and was sobbing a couple of hours ago.

It's only natural to feel the way you feel. Some people may not understand it because it's a celebrity as opposed to someone you may know more personally in your life. However, when you like an artist so much, it's usually because their artistry has affected you so deeply that it touches you emotionally like you may have never expected. You look forward to hearing their voice sing something new as well as some of their older songs. When Donna Summer passes, I don't know how it will affect me. I'm sure everyone who knows me will be checking in with me to see if I am okay. However, I have prepared myself spiritually for death in general, so I don't expect that her death (or the death of anyone I actually know) will cause me to break down like an actress who overacts at a funeral or something. But who knows!? I could fall apart unexpectedly just like an overacting actress at a funeral. It's natural to cry as a result of situations like. And sometimes, what appears to be an overacting cry is actually a genuine cry. It's a personal inward thing that often manifests itself in tears. So, go ahead and feel what you feel for whomever you feel it for. They're your feelings and your heart. You have that right. It'll get better. Will it ever end? That may depend on the individual person.

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ThreadBare said:

Timmy84 said:

OK I dare you to go through all 100 pages of the Michael thread and then say that same mess when you come back.

Hope your browser freezes.

I'm just sayin'... There's a thread for that sentiment.

That's just the thing it's already been said by the original poster there.

Timmy84 said:

ThreadBare said:

I'm just sayin'... There's a thread for that sentiment.

That's just the thing it's already been said by the original poster there.

Hmmm. I see...

HatrinaHaterwitz said:

Alphastreet, I won't tell you how you should feel because no one knows what you should be feeling nor why you feel the way that you do, other than you.

I can only say this...

In my home, I'm doing what I've always done this time of year. I'm enjoying the holiday season with those that I love. When my guests arrive at my home, they are greeted and enveloped in some great music. It tickles me and warms my heart, when one of Michael's tunes is on and I can hear my guests singing along, at the top of their lungs (trying to anyway) before I can even get to the door.

Michael has always been present, through his music, in the pretty much all of the most enjoyable times of my life and he will always continue to be because that is the truth of his legacy and I will always honor that!

So my Christmas wish for you...is that someday you can get beyond the sadness of Michael's death and find a way to embrace and celebrate his life. I truly believe that Michael would want that for you and all those that love him, as well.

Happy Holidays!

.

[Edited 12/24/10 14:08pm]

That's so sweet of you and Michael always entertains at parties for sure. One time I went to my mom's friend's place for a party awhile back and there were 80's ballads and tunes playing in the background including Thriller songs and the Beegees, and someone made a sweet comment about them making beautiful music in the afterlife, and I thought that was very warm and sweet

leecappella said:

alphastreet said:

I've been okay for a long time, but it's starting again though I was cool when the album was released and feel like he's not gone when I listen to it. For the past half-week I've been sensitive again and was sobbing a couple of hours ago.

It's only natural to feel the way you feel. Some people may not understand it because it's a celebrity as opposed to someone you may know more personally in your life. However, when you like an artist so much, it's usually because their artistry has affected you so deeply that it touches you emotionally like you may have never expected. You look forward to hearing their voice sing something new as well as some of their older songs. When Donna Summer passes, I don't know how it will affect me. I'm sure everyone who knows me will be checking in with me to see if I am okay. However, I have prepared myself spiritually for death in general, so I don't expect that her death (or the death of anyone I actually know) will cause me to break down like an actress who overacts at a funeral or something. But who knows!? I could fall apart unexpectedly just like an overacting actress at a funeral. It's natural to cry as a result of situations like. And sometimes, what appears to be an overacting cry is actually a genuine cry. It's a personal inward thing that often manifests itself in tears. So, go ahead and feel what you feel for whomever you feel it for. They're your feelings and your heart. You have that right. It'll get better. Will it ever end? That may depend on the individual person.

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[Edited 12/24/10 20:15pm]

Trust me I didn't get it either. And my crying wouldn't come out all at once cause I was in shock and having all kinds of sensations. I guess it's coming still cause I'm still processing what happened and it's taking long though I have come a long way at the same time. I guess it doesn't help that the weather brings my mood down and this is still something I dwell on. I feared death and was afraid of it and stuff like that before he died anyway and though I still worry about it, I'm much braver and am continuing to grow spiritually as a result though I almost gave up on it when for the first time in my life praying and all that was not helping me get over it right away and I got burnt out from it until I took a step back.