Hell YES!

I'm preparing myself right now cuz that is going to be a HARDCORE day. That is the anniversary of my cousin's death and I will be paying my respects to her that day. I have to update the world but basically I got hooked up with a group called Heart Centered Speakers and I did my very first presentation last Wednesday on the power of forgiveness. I ended my presentation with the fact that my cousin was killed due to domestic violence and that I saw the group as a vehicle for me to give my message and a way to really fulfill the promise I made to my cousin in her passing that I will live my life honoring her memory by using and living my gifts in order to help others and that is exactly what that group will be for me.

It was a wild year last year and my niece was the first birth in the family after my cousin, and her 6 month old baby Anthony, were killed so it was just especially moving and special to have been there to see her into this world and I am serious Cali, at the time New Religion was speaking to me big time but I was really nagged by these lyrics:

A little bit, a little bit more for you
so come and get a little more baby

Another hit is coming back down for you
so come and get a little bit, give me some

Give me some new religion
something that I can feel
give me some new tomorrow
bring it on and make it real
drowning in sweet forgiveness
come on baby to my life

OK, you tend to call a lover "Baby" but this really isn't a "lover's song per se and the religious aspect of it is obvious but you wouldn't call God "Baby" either Well it wasn't until my niece was almost here when I realized The "baby" isn't about God or a lover.....baby is literal! And seriously this is at a time when my gifts were in full swing and revealing themselves in some absolutely stunning amazing ways and I realized why the song was speaking to me so hard.

Because I was finding my true faith by being true to myself and being open to the gifts that I have been given. She was 3 weeks early and I would have missed it because I was going to Miami for the invasion the next morning. I believe that my connection with this song is the reason why she came early. To be a living illustritive example of the metaphors found in that song. She is something I could actually feel with my hands and what better example of the state of forgiveness than a pure unblemished child?



Yup, I'm going to be a mess on the 15th

That was a pre-existing condition, and you know it....