I was coming back from a business trip yesterday on a plane. As soon as we landed, I turned on my phone and received a news alert informing me of Prince's death. The news was just breaking; in an instant, my heart was breaking, too.

I struggle to put into words what Prince meant to me. I am in my 40's now, but Prince walked with me through my childhood, my early adult years, and into the present moment. His was the voice I heard when I struggled with my own questions of the world: spirituality, politics, sexuality, social justice, love. I feel there was an intense connection between his attempts to sort out this crazy life and my own struggles, although his thoughts were chronicled so much more eloquently in word and song than mine could ever be.

Prince, thank you for being my teacher, my first love, and my friend. I love you. Rest in peace with the Lord. May you truly see the Dawn now.

~ A lifelong fan

[Edited 4/22/16 18:36pm]

[Edited 4/22/16 18:36pm]

kpowers said:

I woke up then I realized Prince died yesterday. Made me sad again. Doesn't seem real. Anybody else feel this way?

I'm still in denial. It feels wrong.

kpowers said:

I woke up then I realized Prince died yesterday. Made me sad again. Doesn't seem real. Anybody else feel this way?

Yes. I felt sad all day today, with Prince on my mind nonstop. I didn't sleep well last night either.

FormerlyKnownAs said:

kpowers said:

I woke up then I realized Prince died yesterday. Made me sad again. Doesn't seem real. Anybody else feel this way?

YES!!!! So sad... a sadness like I've never felt before -- like someone ripping my heart out. This must be what it's like to truly experience heartbreak. Watching the TV is surreal. All the tributes... so beautiful, I'm just speechless how much is being done to honor him! Yet everytime I try to get by without crying, I can't. For pete's sake, I'm a 45-year-old man! But the inner me realizes he misses the Prince when he was a 15-year-old teenager. I'm still so surprised and shocked by the news, and I find I start to cry at just the mention or thought of him. The world just won't be the same, nor will music.... and nor will I. I really want to get "over" this - but feel like other people, other that peeps here on the Org, may not be able to relate to how deep this pain hurts.

I slept for maybe three hours last night and woke up a little before 3:00 AM - and I woke up crying, as if tears were what woke me up. While seeing the tributes, newsclips, performances, speeches, and videos, I am reminded how great he was. And just typing that... I feel stupid. "Reminded?" No -- I never stopped thinking he was great. I just wish he would have gotten this kind of love and respect from people while he was alive; he earned it and deserved it. He gave himself to us in song and performances. And what really breaks my heart is to know we won't ever see him do it again -- and he won't ever get this kind or amount of coverage or respect again. That's why I watch the TV - and I do so and say, "Yep, I was there!" and "Yes, I knew that about Prince."

[Edited 4/22/16 18:24pm]

I share your feelings. I don't want it to be real. I keep telling myself it can't be happening. Please stop this madness!

Cheers everyone. Couldn't get to the site till now.

kpowers said:

I woke up then I realized Prince died yesterday. Made me sad again. Doesn't seem real. Anybody else feel this way?

Yes, this morning I was groggy and thought with relief that it must have been a dream. A bad dream.

You know you're a Prince fan when your mother, your boss, your colleagues and your friends offer you their sympathies as if you had just lost your brother.

And I did.

I'm afflicted/blessed with Permanent Earworm Syndrome, which means that music is always playing in my head, night and day. In the first few minutes when I was absorbing the reality that my musical hero and creativity guru was suddenly gone, I realized that Black Muse was already playing in the space between my two ears when I first heard the news. It had been there since earlier that day.

I stopped to think about that. He was already on my mind on what was supposed to be a regular day, what is going to happen now that I have the ultimate excuse to dig deep into my collection of released and unreleased material? I mean, I could keep my internal DJ on blast forever and a day.

For you, my fellow orgers, here are the songs I have played since I learned the sad news:

- Popped the SOTT DVD to try and dry my tears, got as far as ICNTTPOYM.

- Someone sang the Purple Rain refrain to me at the office, but I haven't played that song -- too soon.

- Free Yourself

- Black Muse

- Mr. Nelson (wonderful, sounded like an invocation)

- Neon Telephone

- Let's Go Crazy Reloaded

- Moonbeam Levels

- Empty Room (the Blast from the Past FLAC file, took some guts to press play since it could make Kleenex sales increase 1000% if properly released one day!)

- A Case of U (oh lord)

- Crimson and Clover (oh lord part II, this track sounds PERFECT right now).

(I stopped myself from listening to The Breakdown and Hardrocklover, some other day when I'm stronger I will, but because these are so recent it's just harder).

That was my first long post on the topic -- grieving is a very individual process, everyone has their own pace.

Love to all the Org and may his music always be in your heart.

[Edited 4/23/16 1:23am]

My brain can't wrap itself around this. He was SO alive a few days ago, entertaining thousands with the tour... How can it just end like that?! I am so shocked and unable to process. I have really lost a close friend, and I cannot stop the pain.

What do we do now?

babynoz said:

PurpleColossus said:

Agree totally, its all about the love and the love we had for the man and his music. I mean I have realy toned down and just enjoyed all the support I have had from other fans, my friends and family and even people who I have not spoken to since the 90s, have reached out to me and offered me support.

.

We need to realise we all have a huge loss on our hands and be grateful for the memories and the legacy Prince has left us. And also see and be grateful for the impact this magical person has had on our lives.

.

Been playing sincere songs a lot like Damn U, and Sometimes it snows in April. I miss him guys and have cried. But we all do.

starkitty said:

babynoz said:

kpowers said:

I woke up then I realized Prince died yesterday. Made me sad again. Doesn't seem real. Anybody else feel this way?

I'm still in denial. It feels wrong.

ufoclub said:

kpowers said:

I woke up then I realized Prince died yesterday. Made me sad again. Doesn't seem real. Anybody else feel this way?

Yes, this morning I was groggy and thought with relief that it must have been a dream. A bad dream.

1contessa said:

kpowers said:

I woke up then I realized Prince died yesterday. Made me sad again. Doesn't seem real. Anybody else feel this way?

Yes. I felt sad all day today, with Prince on my mind nonstop. I didn't sleep well last night either.

WetDream said:

I haven't posted in a long time, but have been here since 2007.

I'm hurt. The pain is too much. I am struggling.

kpowers said:

I woke up then I realized Prince died yesterday. Made me sad again. Doesn't seem real. Anybody else feel this way?

ive been crying off and on since 4am this morning. was hoping it was all a bad dream


my head hurts, my heart is shattered.

starkitty said:

Welcome to "the org", starkitty… we had fun, didn't we?

oh my

P.E.W. ive never had a name from it but i have it too. anything can trigger a song, especially in the wee hours of the morning.

since the news hit ive had many songs in my head but it always goes back to sometimes it snows in april.

My name is Tracy.... and my family have known for yrs that it is to be played when i fall of this mortal coil....


never in my worst nightmare did i think it would be in my head because our beloved prince has gone...way too soon.

my mum texted me, my boss rang to see was i okay at work and then chatted to me for ages when she arrived later that day. the fb messages and posts have been enormous.

my friends get it, they shared in my excitement back in Feb so know how much pain i am in right now.

an ex-collegue summed it up perfectly when she posted: i feel like you have lost a friend.

Aerogram said:

You know you're a Prince fan when your mother, your boss, your colleagues and your friends offer you their sympathies as if you had just lost your brother.

And I did.

I'm afflicted/blessed with Permanent Earworm Syndrome, which means that music is always playing in my head, night and day. In the first few minutes when I was absorbing the reality that my musical hero and creativity guru was suddenly gone, I realized that Black Muse was already playing in the space between my two ears when I first heard the news. It had been there since earlier that day.

I stopped to think about that. He was already on my mind on what was supposed to be a regular day, what is going to happen now that I have the ultimate excuse to dig deep into my collection of released and unreleased material? I mean, I could keep my internal DJ on blast forever and a day.

For you, my fellow orgers, here are the songs I have played since I learned the sad news:

- Popped the SOTT DVD to try and dry my tears, got as far as ICNTTPOYM.

- Someone sang the Purple Rain refrain to me at the office, but I haven't played that song -- too soon.

- Free Yourself

- Black Muse

- Mr. Nelson (wonderful, sounded like an invocation)

- Neon Telephone

- Let's Go Crazy Reloaded

- Moonbeam Levels

- Empty Room (the Blast from the Past FLAC file, took some guts to press play since it could make Kleenex sales increase 1000% if properly released one day!)

- A Case of U (oh lord)

- Crimson and Clover (oh lord part II, this track sounds PERFECT right now).

(I stopped myself from listening to The Breakdown and Hardrocklover, some other day when I'm stronger I will, but because these are so recent it's just harder).

That was my first long post on the topic -- grieving is a very individual process, everyone has their own pace.

Love to all the Org and may his music always be in your heart.

[Edited 4/23/16 1:23am]

prb said:

kpowers said:

I woke up then I realized Prince died yesterday. Made me sad again. Doesn't seem real. Anybody else feel this way?

ive been crying off and on since 4am this morning. was hoping it was all a bad dream


my head hurts, my heart is shattered.

kpowers said:

prb said:

ive been crying off and on since 4am this morning. was hoping it was all a bad dream


my head hurts, my heart is shattered.

Aerogram said:

You know you're a Prince fan when your mother, your boss, your colleagues and your friends offer you their sympathies as if you had just lost your brother.

And I did.

Co sign.

Thank you, the people surrounding us.

And thank You, fellow orgers. May we all live to see the dawn.

We will cary on his music !! i am so sad but at the same time i was lucky to live in the same era hi did.

May you jam in heaven Prince.

somethinginthewater said:

I'm staying in bed today.

My neigbour asked me if she could get me anything. She laughed saying that she read on fb about my suffering. She is a sweetheart, but as she has lost a lot of people in her life, she must consider my pain a bit over the top.

It's good to know that you guys understand.

And I just don't want it to be true.


Just not true.

My 9yo daughter keep asking me "Did Prince really die?"

I couldn't let myself cry yet, I feel that if I start, I will never end. Plus it is my belief that people that pass on other levels of existence need to be accompanied with light and love, not sadness and regrets. There will be a time for me to mourn, right now I see all the love so many people have for him, and it makes it a little better. Gotta be strong.

Never say the words "They're gone"...

[Edited 4/23/16 7:07am]

my dear friend xx

dJJ said:

I'm staying in bed today.

My neigbour asked me if she could get me anything. She laughed saying that she read on fb about my suffering. She is a sweetheart, but as she has lost a lot of people in her life, she must consider my pain a bit over the top.

It's good to know that you guys understand.

And I just don't want it to be true.


Just not true.

babynoz said:

kpowers said:

I woke up then I realized Prince died yesterday. Made me sad again. Doesn't seem real. Anybody else feel this way?

I'm still in denial. It feels wrong.

I'm experiencing all the symptoms except grief, I refuse to cry yet, it almost overtook me a few times

While driving home yesterday, I actually started envisioning meeting you all for a memorial celebration, and almost lost it.

All the people that know I'm a Prince fan who tried to connect with me, or console me, just couldn't give me what I need. Even my 73 yr old dad sent me a text it's irritating me irritating me, because it really does feel wrong, like something is off with the universe