Damm this must be some book Denise....

http://www.blameitonvanit...index3.php

Please write your reviews...if you've read the book


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Part2: She says she's a virgin for 12 yrs and can pray to stop the rain.

BOOK REVIEW....

One persons opinion of "Blame it on Vanity"

"The devil’s perversities snatched up what little strength that lay within me, seeping and sneaking through, preferably choosing their way into my joints, branding and searing my lungs and oh so much torment from scraping away at my own flesh. He waited patiently for the reading of my obituary. I was unrelenting, unreasonably lost, suffocating in dumbfoundedness, further seeking pleasure in a round glass bottle full of vitriolic venom, which slid me into depression beyond blockades. I should have been thoroughly engulfed in an ocean of careful wondrous dreams with the whole Kingdom beset before me, however my ocean thrust me against the rocks and ripped my sour soul in two, thus rendering my upper half to a tornado and with my lower, i lowered myself to that of a squatting dog, dare i say sucking up his own vomit."


She is refering to Prince as the devil. She was caught up with him. She wanted more, and he was ignoring her; she was yelling for attention. When she writes "scraping of away at my own flesh" , the wording makes me think she was cutting herself, depression? Still, Prince ignored her wanting something more, she was suicidal. I believe this evident in this sentence "He waited patiently for the reading of my obituary." Prince probably said peace. Vanity didn't kill herself; although, she was caught in infatuation,stuck around "I was unrelenting, unreasonably lost, suffocating in dumbfoundedness, further seeking pleasure in a round glass bottle full of vitriolic venom, which slid me into depression beyond blockades." She could no longer her hide depression from everyone, it had begun to take over by this time. She felt she entitled to more than what was given. Prince was her "ocean of careful wondrous dreams" . She believes, she should have had Prince to herself, also more success "the whole Kingdom beset before me" , Vanity was looking for a fairy tale ending with Prince, really her Prince and her the superstar pop princess.

however my ocean thrust me against the rocks and ripped my sour soul in two, thus rendering my upper half to a tornado and with my lower, i lowered myself to that of a squatting dog, dare i say sucking up his own vomit."

This whole last part is a big ass typo. Anyway, her fairytale she so badly wanted slid through her hands. She got caught up in a storm of infatuation with Prince. She let herself get played by Prince. She let herself be disrespected by Prince, because she knew he was going to stop bullshitting, one day. She lost some of her self worth because it played out so publicy. Though, I do not get sucking up the vomit completely. That could have been better said by writing I am down, out and until this very day I this won't pass the stomach and out the bowel because of what i've gone through is known to most of the world. I try to become a evangelist, people still bring this up as I get to digesting and almost, almost put behind me. I have to look back at it again. This time i'll purge myself, on my terms and I kinda need the money too.

SO FUKKING OVERWRITTEN ITS KILLING ME, she needs to write it over, nobody but me is going to take the time to understand this lol. Her story is not worth $45 dollars and this happend time and time again. Sounds like Effie White lol.

http://www.blackvoices.co.../256887/47
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"People have their own synopsis of me and what the truth is," she says. "The truth is in the box."

Though she's dated rock stars such as Billy Idol, Adam Ant and Nikki Sixx and was married for less than a year to former NFL player Anthony Smith (JET, April 17, 1995), don't expect to read about any of them in her book.

"I have been a virgin in Jesus Christ for almost 10 years," says Matthews, who lives alone with her five cats. "It's a great testimony to have that. I wouldn't even think about letting anybody touch me. I look at myself now as a treasure and respect myself."

One man she will mention in her book is Prince, but don't expect intimate details. She described the relationship they shared as "very special," admitting he was the only man she ever truly loved.

http://findarticles.com/p..._n24219249
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Now that's Power of the mind! Prince got that good shiit! 20yrs later
that's how I will be remembered.

For $45 "no intimate details"

I think that's what everyone's been waiting for..."Tell all" means that.
LOL How many dudes, name names and what positions.


Denise I may have to pass....

MoneyMade said:

That's sorta my thought.

I can understand if she wanted to revise the book so that it didn't have a negative spin on things that sounded like a grudge.

But jeez, she must have discarded entire chapters. Can't imagine what fluff would be in the place of "intimate details".

Cinnie said:

$45 bucks!! for fluff???

I want all the salacious stuff..Ie "I remember it was myself and Susan with Prince in his bed" Or "Prince took me to a cemetary and strapped me down....blah blah. Let me be the one to judge Denise if you were a bad girl...

MoneyMade said:

If she really wanted to leave the past in the past, then no book would exist. But since we're writing a book about stories from the past, let's just acknowledge that it was 1983 or whatever, and I don't think anyone would judge her for her "past life" because it was basically a previous incarnation compared to today.

And I can't personally gain any spiritual insight from long wordy metaphors that allude to soul suffocation. It's like... describe the real event please!

Cinnie said:[quote]

MoneyMade said:

That's ok Nikki Sixx spilled the beans...from his book Heroine Diaries & Dirt:

February 15, 1987: Van Nuys, 2:15 p.m.
What the fuck was that about? Even by Vanity's standards, last night was insane. When I called her she didn't want to come over, and invited me to her place instead. I soon found out why when I got there. She'd been smokin' coke for hours and looked pretty fucked, so I thought I'd join in.
Vanity was doing her crazy Art shit and we ended up doing base all night, then when it got light out she told me she felt hungry. That seemed weird because nobody gets hungry on coke but I said OK, and drove out to get bacon and eggs and orange juice. Then when I got back 10 minutes later, the guards wouldn't let me in the gate to her complex ... they said she wasn't there. I was telling them fuck you when two black guys drove out in a Cadillac ... that was weird ... there are no black people there besides Vanity. She drove out 10 minutes later and I chased her down in my car and asked who the black dudes were. She said they were just friends.
Weird night. She always finds a new way to mess up my head.
NIKKI: I found out later from her sister that the two guys were dealers delivering coke. One more cute thing about Vanity back then: her car license plate said HO-HO-Ho. When Prince had finished with her, he'd told her, "You ain't nothin' but a ho-ho-ho!" and she liked that because ... she had a thing about Santa Clause. That sort of made sense in Vanityworld.
EVANGELIST DENISE MATTHEWS: I was the glutton for punishment [with Nikki] and also the punisher punishing. It wasn't easy being high all the time and relating to another human being. He could have related better with a pet rock.
I won't pretend that I was always there. If our relationship had been examined by a professional at that time, his diagnosis might have read, "Intensive care is much needed for this mad, neurotic, paranoid, psychotic, disturbing relationship, with egos at large coming through the door."
I believe there is a whole phi-sod to the ph-sod of being an idol, don't you think? We take on the mysterious role of its origin. Everybody else traveled the same road so we might as well follow the drugs, the sex, trash the hotel, the crazy parties, grow your hair longer, look the part, wear the makeup and act crazy until it kills you. The rest is simple ... boy meets girl, girl gets yucky, both get woozy and call it love, oh yes ... sick!
Lost Poetry: Her love is like a swimming pool/Winter comes and it's no use to you/Her love is like a suicide/ Lose your faith and it takes your life/ Her love is like a merry-go-round/Spins you in circles then it knocks you down/ Her love is like cheap alcohol/Morning comes and you don't remember at all/ Her love is like a Cheshire cat/ At first so friendly but at you it laughs/ Her love is like a passionate kiss/ At first so sweet then it takes your breath/ Her love is like the stars above/ Your guiding light always leaves you lost/ Her love is like Jesus Christ/ No matter how much faith/ you still die on the cross.

I prefer the clarity in Nikki Sixx's account.

More from Nikki Sixx 'Heroine diaries'
BTW Denise,,, how can you write a book if Vanity was so fukkkkked up back then. I prefer from third party accounts.


February 26, 1987: Van Nuys, 4: 20 a.m.
Could I pay someone to kill my girlfriend?
Vanity came to rehearsal ... Jesus, I try my best to look normal around the band and then she shows up like that. A year ago, I would have been ashamed at her cackling, throwing those fucking Prince dance moves and hanging off my neck while I was trying to play. Her eyes were fucked ... she must have been freebasing all night. I told her to shut the fuck up and she got in my face and asked what I was gonna do.
What could I do? I just turned and walked out of rehearsal. Left her there with the guys in the band.
TOMMY LEE: There was something real crazy about Vanity. She would just turn up at a rehearsal and jump up on a road case and start dancing randomly, out of nowhere. We'd be trying to rehearse and Vanity would be doing this strange little burlesque show. When I first met her, she seemed cool, but then it all changed...
Nikki and I were freebasing a little back then. Vanity was into that as well, and Nikki claimed she got him started on it. But Sixx is a big boy -- he can't blame Vanity; it was his doing. Back then Sixx was like a big spider's web, and he would bring others into his little fucking dark world. They would either a) never leave, or b) get so fucked up they would panic, get out of there and leave him to it.
EVANGELIST DENISE MATTHEWS: Nikki and I had very different tastes in music, religion, food, movies ... you name it. It made for a relationship built on chaos and confusion, like two people getting stuck in an avalanche that never stopped rolling downhill. Life was full of surprises, with too many bruises and not enough Band-Aids. The highs were too high and the lows were as deep as Hades, the home of the dead.
Was I happy? Well, happy is all that you know it to be when you're a kid parading, masquerading and raising yourself in this crooked, wicked world. Back then, it was like giving sugar candy to a baby, or more like chocolate cake ... all you can eat. Then the candles burn out and you burn out, and wake up wallowing on the plateau of stupidity.
I am happier today than I ever was. I am only unhappy when I am not paying attention and listening to God's voice for simple direction. The struggle is less because I quit fighting with God as much and now try to submit to his will (the Bible) faster. Life is a series of hits and misses and tests that never end, but the reward is when you win Heaven just because you gave it your best try.
True happiness comes when you obey the Scriptures. My morals and values have greatly changed and, because of my faith in Jesus, quite often pain and suffering breed growth. I dig doing what's right. I hate pain.






February 27, 1987: Van Nuys, 10:50 p.m.
Vanity left when Pete came over today. We have decided to have a party. I'm waiting for Jason now, and Pete has gone down to Sunset to pick up some girls from the strip clubs and bring them back here. It's never hard to persuade them.
Lost Lyric: Seven million bodies/ lying dead/ Beneath my hands/ War was such a simple/ Game to play/ Preachers do my bidding yet/ Blame me for their sins/ Alter boys are taken in dismay/ Kill and eat your neighbors/ Gas a subway in Japan/ I got more apocalyptic plans
Before I was so strung out, I used to go out and pick up girls and bring them back myself. Now I'm too reclusive to do it. Every time I go out, somebody gets in my face and wants something from me, and I just can't handle it. It's not just the drugs, it's the fame ... it's overwhelming these days to go anywhere. We're on the cover of every magazine on the newsstand

Cinnie said:

Yeah, his words are easy to understand even if u don't like the things he is saying. Vanity's style of writing is very dramatic and like a riddle.

lipstick said:

No wonder she loved Prince.

Tell me who I missed:

Andre Cymone, Prince, Nikki Sixx, Adam Ant, Micki Free, Billy Idol, NFL balla Anthony Smith...


Come on.....??
God Bless Canada
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Open your mind then U will understand,.....


I can't believe she smoke that shit (crack rock) for 10yrs straight!!!!

Cinnie said:

me too His book sounds very interesting and candid.

One of the last interviews as Vanity....

If only I would have gotten to her career before she went over the edge.

"The Dirt"


Nikki Sixx explains how he met Vanity...and how she taught him
to free base cocaine.

http://books.google.com/b...q=&f=false


UNREAL...

MoneyMade said:

I remember reading that Nikki Sixx had a crush on Vanity for 5 years and he kept on pursing her and her p.r. or whatever told her to do it. Sixx sound very bitter towards her. I don't expect any of them to remember what they were doing.

MoneyMade said:

RICK JAMES!!!!!

woogiebear said:

http://www.youtube.com/wa...r_embedded

[please link and WARN for NSFW material! - CarrieMpls]


Damm now that's really nastty....
I don't know if I could go in after Rick!
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Drugs turned Vanity into the cat lady.

Best believe when she's talking about the devil she is talking about drugs.

Cinnie said:

Agreed.

woogiebear said:

tap tap tap

MoneyMade said:

She is gorgous here. Yeah that book is something else. I don't know if people will buy it from the excerpt she put on the website. People just want to read 'the dirt', like Sixx figured out. That's why his book was in the NY Times Bestseller list.

Does anyone know when the damn book is coming out?????

blue22 said:

about half past never.

blue22 said:[quote]

MoneyMade said:

Only God knows what kind sick depraved Freak shit...she has engaged in
(PRINCE, BILLY IDOL, ANDRE CYMONE, ADAM ANT, RICK JAMES, JAMES DEBARGE, NIKKI SIXX) Just the ones we know about...

and we want the details!!!!

MoneyMade said:[quote]

blue22 said:

dayum!