joyfantastica said:

dreamfirstborn said:

"When I see u .....
I see ur wings.
Meaning:
U have everything u will ever need in this moment 2 spread ur wings and fly.
U r fully equiped."

when you write things like this... it's very poetic. I like your rhyme.

But what does it truely say?

how am i suppose to take this?

and i say I because it is written to me?

i asked you this were is the validation within that statement.

do you want me to fly away?

this is not dout. or confusion.

i am just not clear in what your are truely saying?

there has to be some way we can communitecate with one another. In order for us to have a complete understanding of each other.

without understanding will there ever be a new beginning?

the image of the chid at peace and on fire... i understand that. I understand the language it is being spoken in. It's that simple yet that complex.

there is one of us within the two.

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dreamfirstborn:

Im sorry for any confusion i left U.

misunderstandings between 2 when the soul speaks is a tragety.

otherwise whats the point in saying them to another? When u cant see my eyes, my breath, my touch, the tone in my voice connected to my words, and u r left confused then its my responsibility to make myself more clear, especially here.......if i care and i do.....cuz whats the point if u cant understand me and i u. How d we grow? And alot of times when im asking questions im asking them to myself...if that makes sense?

last night i was describing how God made a bird and gave him the gift of flight.

Its would b so sad to see a bird that u know has all it needs to fly but doesnt know or believe he can. U just want to yell "fly bird fly! Why dont u fly? who told u u cant fly! Just fly!!!!"

When i see u (dreamfirstborn) - what u have been willing to share - I see an individual who is gifted and is allowing his gifts to grow. For one u r "open" which is a gift. When i say 'U fly' i mean u do more than spread ur wings but u actually jump off the ledge of life and fly (allowing ur gifts to grow and flourish) I dont mean fly away....people need u. How do i know this? Because u have opened urself up here and i see it. U r gifted. Theres nothing more cool than watching someone grow in a gift. Its not easy and takes courage, patience, perserverence, dedication and most importantly people who love and care and support the dream(s) that was placed inside of u. And i have a feeling someone has stuck real close to u in doing just that! Someone or many who love and care about ur growth.

Anyway......i get started and its hard to stop!

Peace

blessings

and love 2 U always!

I feel naked. In a good way. Thank you.

lets continue our communications.

Back on track...

DreamFirstBorn, Jew your assignment is to make a 3 minute documentry on what happen to the occpuyiers on government plaze in Minneapolis.

this can be either subject or objective.

request. Make it balance.

I look forward to seeing what is complete.

Until then,

ANDROGYNINE Continues...

dreamfirstborn said:

he put this on my dest top.

ANDROGYNINE Continues...

ANDROGYNINE said:

he put this on my dest top.

ANDROGYNINE Continues...

ANDROGYNINE - If i may...... i would like to speak on silence.

I have a friend who in a intimate close discusion, let me into a space within herself.

U see through our relationship we became to be more and more transparent with

each other. Through only what time could tell and determine, we formed a trust.

We both knew we were in a safe place with each other.

Anyway.........we found ourselves in a "open" place one day within r conversation.

She with heart felt tears began to release to me a place in her past only a select few

knew. She told me she had been abused by her father when she was 6. It lasted a yr.

during the time her mother was leaving her Father. Since it only lasted a yr. she in her

child like mind developed a coping mechanism, which was.....it never happened!

Her parents divorced and she saw her Father every other weekend. Since it "never happened" she was able to develope a relationship with her Father. He favered her. From his guilt and shame and

because she had a beauty....he favered her.

Though finally, for whatever reason, at the age of 22 she confronted her Father. He immediantly aknowledged what happened. He told her what made him stop and never touch her again was her

tears. Tears from a tiny 6yr. old little girl who wouldnt stop crying.

All this to say......Silence is the victims protecter. My friend loved her father and for some reaon,which

only God knows, she was able to extend grace to him. She saw him for what he was.

U SEE SILENCE IS ALL CHILDREN HAVE. ITS A FORM OF PROTECTION OF WHICH THE MIND HAS BUILT TO COPE..............AND KEEP GOING..........NO MATTER HOW IT MANIFESTS ITSELF.

God showed favor in my friend though....and showed himself to her at a very young age. He allowed her to SEE life and the spirit world for what it is. His blessing was upon her.

SILENCE IS A LIE...............ONLY THE TRUTH CAN SET U FREE!!!!!!! And for my friend only time could allow her to SEE.

DREAMFIRSTBORN:

i had the preveledge tonight to see HOPE through LOVE!!!!

Through

ASANTE childrens choir:

they r a childrens choir from east africa orphans.Nearly all the children in the choir

r orphened but now receive a free education and medical care through the work

of the choir.

.....I had the preveledge and blessing to see them perform tonight at a old church in the middle of an old neighborhood

whithin my city.

And let me just tell ya......These childrens hearts sang louder than there voice ever could! And believe U Me there

voices r strong......!!!!!This is a manifestaton of Hope and Love that i had the blessing to see that i wanted to share

with u.

Ohhh,,,and interestiing enuff,when i left i grabbed a broshure they had printed and

wouldnt u know what the front of it said......

THE SOUND OF HOPE. ASANTE CHILDRENS CHOIR.

it took me long enuff just to post the video so im not gonna bother correcting my

spelling errors. Im to tired and so ill just say goodnight.

Peace and love always!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Painted this weekend.

DreamFirstBorn, Jew

within this loveletter

DreamFirstBorn, Jew it is time to make a change. I am arranging for you to move out of the Mansion and closer to the Institute.

2.1.2012 The New Beginning makes was for something else.

You will be place in a situation to where you will be living alone on your own.

It has only just begun as,

ANDROGYNINE Continues...

Hey Lenny,

while your in Miinneapolis, can we talk?

DreamFirstBorn, Jew

within this loveletter.

DreamFirstBorn, Jew where is that piece on the Occupy movement Minneasota. 2 minutes, balanced, someone from both sides and objective.

your deadline is wednesday 5pm.

ANDROGYNINE Continues...

Today was an interesting day.

it started off with a class in Sound Design. I took a quiz and got a 15 out of 25 points. I didn't study. 2 questions i missed were Define quantization and the other was, what is it called when the voice or the instrument is to close to the microphone. The answer was the proximity effect.

afterwards i hung out in the library and worked for a couple of hours. I stopped off over at The Electric Dragon and picked up a kit. My eyes and ears where on 24 hour check out. From there i head down to the plaza and had a discussion with a government official. She was cool. She let me record it on camera and it went well. I was kinda nervous, it was my first interview. i went in character. Her assistant was super cool, fine, and engaging. She had beautiful eyes. For a split second i her my thoughts saying wow i bet she is one of prince's girls and i felt so silly. LOL.

side track. It's really cool living in minneapolis some times being a Prince fan. Like one time... I was hanging a friend and i had to pick up some memory from another friends house. So we ride over to his crib. We hang out. I got my cards and you know wanted to get back home. So they give me a number. I call it up.... 15 minutes later a car pulls up. I am like Wanda, I'm ret ta go. My host and I, we piece out. Now i am in the car on cruise control. I am sitting in the back looking out the window thinking about things. I was kinda worried about some things off in my own thoughts and just when i start to get a bit sad. She says something to me and pulls me out of my trance. Thats when i noticed wow my driver is a girl. a chick, a woman. So i had to get all cool. LOL. You know, Hey what's going on?

She had just started her shift. I was her first ride. I though wow, I am going all the way to the other side of town. Dinky Town to Near North. It's a ride.

I said to her... What your name?

She said Bambi.

instantly i hear... BAMBI CANT U UNDERSTAND IT'S BETTER WITH A MAN my internal monolouge was saning.. a prince song. LOL

i chuckle at my retardation outloud and she asked. what's so funny?

I said sorry im just being wierdly funny right now..

she said where you from? you ain't from around here.

i said how do you know?

she looked back at me via her review mirror. i could see her eyes rise up like the morning sunshine.

she said that hat. lol

i lauphed and said what you mean?

No one around here can rock at hat like that she said as if it were nothing more than an obervation.

I thought to my self she Must be one of Prince's girls!

it' s moments like those the PRINCE fan in me goes... YEAHH! Minneapolis!

ANDROGYNINE said:

DreamFirstBorn, Jew where is that piece on the Occupy movement Minneasota. 2 minutes, balanced, someone from both sides and objective.

your deadline is wednesday 5pm.

ANDROGYNINE Continues...

this is just a preview.... there is so much to put in it that 2 minutes is like a blink of an eye.

sorry it's posted late. I'm packing up my things at The Mansion.

where are you ANDROGYNINE?

-DreamFirstBorn, Jew

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Something mute

can be something cute

but when it speaks

deep underneath

there is the truth.

in order to understand the new beginning, you must let go of the old.

what are you letting go of today?

ANDROGYNINE Continues...

things are awfully quite something must be up....

still,

ANDROGYNINE Continues...

ANDROGYNINE said:

things are awfully quite something must be up....

still,

ANDROGYNINE Continues...

that is to say the least....

ANDROGYNINE had me do an assignment. Photography Lenny's Show.

Conditions: i couldn't buy a ticket and i had to go through the proper channels to get permission.

the show was yesterday.

-DreamFirstBorn, Jew

dreamfirstborn said:

ANDROGYNINE said:

things are awfully quite something must be up....

still,

ANDROGYNINE Continues...

that is to say the least....

ANDROGYNINE had me do an assignment. Photography Lenny's Show.

Conditions: i couldn't buy a ticket and i had to go through the proper channels to get permission.

the show was yesterday.

-DreamFirstBorn, Jew

These are the images submitted to me

Taken by DreamFirstBorn, Jew for this assignment....

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now taken everything he has, i now want him to make a 3 minute piece on it..

ANDROGYNINE Continues...

Nippy.

everything is changing.

I am becoming something new.

in the silence

i ponder.

the silence holds the answer to many mysteries. when you listen to the silence, what do you hear?

ANDROGYNINE i am curious....

-DreamFirstBorn, Jew

ok. enough with the silence and back to work.

I know this has been an sad past week and all. But it's time to move on.

3 projects done by the end of the week.

ANDROGYNINE Continues...

ANDROGYNINE here is the first assignment for sound design

i did the entire sound design for this clip.

what do you think?

-DreamFirstBorn, Jew

ANDROGYNINE here is what happened..

in a nutshell. a professor and i had a disagreement the other day and out of frustration i excused my self from the class room and went to the bathroom and punched a towel dispencer breaking my hand. when i went back to class to ask the professor if i should go and get it taken care of he told me he was to busy and to sit down because we were about to take a quiz and me, not wanting to fail the quiz i sat down and proceeded to take the quiz.

after i finished taking the i asked him if i could go take care of my hand because by then the bone was sticking up and my hand was swollen. he told me that he wanted to talk to me outside of the class and we went outside. He asked me if i broke any of the school property in the bathroom, i said i don't know and asked to follow me to the bathroom to find out. we went in and there was no destruction to the towel dispenser.

afterwards back out in the hall he told me that if i were to ever do that again not to come back to his class and if i didn't like it i could drop his class and that i could do that up until the 11th week. i said fine. he then told me togo talk to colleen, the dean of my program, because he had sent her an email and she probably wanted to talk to me. which i did, directly after wards. she sent me to the hospital.

at the hospital i was told i had to have surgery because the bone had broken the skin and it needed to be reset with pins to keep it in place. i had the surgery they kept me in there for 24 hours and released me after which i went directly back to school as i had another class to attend.

the most interesting part of this ANDROGYNINE is this...

when i had the surgery, when they put me out
it was like i blinked
and in that time period
don't laugh
u promise...

i had died.. it was like i had given up..and during this time i was talking to Whitney Houston..

and she was telling me that i had to go back, i needed to go back, because it wasn't my time. i was sad and lonely.
she started singing to me "i will always love you"
and i started to open my eyes, she was fading away.
i was crying and i was calling out to her
where is whitney. and i was crying so hard.

i could hear the dr and nurses saying that everyone takes it differently, every one has a different reaction. i was crying so hard i couldn't stop
the nurse was wiping the tears in of my eyes
away and telling me i would be ok. i just laid there sobbing going in and out of consciousness.. she stayed there with me the whole time.
and i just cried until i went back to sleep.
the next time i woke up they were taking me from the intensive care unit to my room, i was so sad realizing she was gone. i just cried in my room all alone until i went back to sleep.

i wa so sad, it reminded me of when my dad passed away. the pain i was feeling inside. it was horrible. thinking back on it, it makes my heart feel for Bobby Christine because i felt as if i was her when they took her to the hospital. if i felt like that not knowing Ms. Houston personally how must she have felt being her daughter.

the staff at HCMC were so nice to me and my doctor was so kind , warm and caring. i felt safe when he was around. he came back at 6 am to check on me and told me what they had done and told me that i would be ok. he was so incrediblely humane to me.

just thought you should know...

-DreamFirstBorn, Jew

ANDROGYNINE....

today i had a class with the professor for the first time since the other day. at one point during class he said he wanted to talk to me and during the brak he took me into the sound room away from the others and offered me a deal. he said i could take the test again and turn in the projected that was past due for a grade lower, i.e. instead of an A for a B. i asked him if i could think about it and he said no, that i had to take it then and there that was the deal. i was hesitant and he said what was the problem, i said i was willing to take my punishment for it being late which ment getting a zero on the project. he got upset and told me that it would be best if i took that deal because it wasnt gonna come again. i told him i had to think about it. he got upset and said that he didnt care about me, my grades, or my broken arm. he then said that i would have future classes with him and he was on the board of my 9th level review and it would be better if he and i got alone. i said to him what did that have to do with anything, i asked him if i didnt take the deal would that mean we couldn't get along. he got appologetic and said that wasn't the case and he didnt mean to say that. he told me to take the deal again it would be better for my grade either way he didn't care. i told him i would pass on his deal because it wasn't in my best interest. he got pissed off and left the room. i went back into the class room and he acked as if the conversation didn't happen. i went upstairs to the dean of my program and told her exactly what happen and she seemed confused because they talked about something different before hand and that wasn't it. she asked me if i was ok, i said no i wasn't but i that i was ok. she asked me what did i want her to do about it.

i told her that i just wanted her to listen to be because i couldn't hold all this in because it was eating me up inside. then i went back down to class and it was business as usual. but the whole time i was having panick attacks. i told ty, because he asked if i was ok.

what am i to do. i don't want to run away... i can't not this time.

-DreamFirstBorn, Jew.

DreamFirstBorn, Jew

don't be afraid, remain focused on your studies and i will handle it.

ANDOGYNINE Continues...

ANDROGYNINE

here is an a peiece that i shot and edited for Ms. Whiting.

this is one of two segements with this photographer.

also it needs color corrections and audio adjusting in parts, along with titles. this is just a ruff edit.

i sent that letter i was advised to, had rehearsals with the film i am D.P. for. i also shot the final b shots for the peace corp piece, and read the scripts for "Absurdities" and "Affter Effect".

Eric got his glasses and Jasime left for 5 days. I am cat sitting for her.

those pills make me tired.

-DreamFirstBorn, Jew

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ANDROGYNINE,

Here is a rough cut of the Peace Corp. piece. LOL, that's Funny.

I have a list of things i want to touch up on this. it's not done.

Red came over today.

-DreamFirstBorn, Jew

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^^ Where's the crack pipe you're obviously smoking when you write these threads to yourself?

Spinlight said:

^^ Where's the crack pipe you're obviously smoking when you write these threads to yourself?

that's not fair.

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Dr. Yoon,

within this loveletter.

I have informed him of a scholorship that is availabe and instructed him to write a letter giving the commitee an idea of who he is and how he views his experience at the institute. he has until monday to provide this.

ANDROGYNINE Continues...