I lie with you

Knowing that you

Betray me with another

Though you think

That I don't know

I have known

For all too long.

I lie with you knowing

It might be the final time

I make love to you

Because for you and I

It is all too wrong

You just don't know

Where you belong

And, because of that,

Neither do I anymore.

It has become a chore

This intimacy between us

At one time we were

Best friends...

Then life changed us

Into occasional lovers.

You hold secrets to your heart

You never can reveal

So can we even begin to heal

If you won't tell your oldest friend

That you never desired me

In the first place

For you, life is a race

To the next secret assignation

To the next set of denials

Lined up to keep your facade

Of straight-minded respectability.

But I acknowledge what

You think the world cannot

You hold the unspeakable desire

An undeniable fire

For your secret lovers.

This, I cannot change

And though it causes me grief

I can't comprehend

It is long past the time

You and I need to speak,

My lifelong friend.