Time to go, no place to hide,

The collector finds the number every time,

In a winding maze of eucalyptus steam,

I’m made to pay for all my crimes,

Given the gate, as you blokes would say,

Self-centered me-centric victimization galore!

Crashing hard into the juxtaposition,

Of grandiose claims of a love unrivaled by all before,

Of nauseating taunts of proclaimed euphoria,

A conch blown like the clarion call of spiritual whim,

Unfulfilled of course…undeliverable promises,

The fire of pomp & circumstance grew more intense while the love

It boasted of grew dim….so dim.

Time to go, no place to hide,

The reaper asks for all I’ve sewn,

And exposes me to my ill preparation,

Shining white hot beams on the fortunes that I’ve blown,

Tis not avarice my friend that got me here,

Tis not greed, nor desperation, nor even ambition,

But that one sin I abhor beyond all others….sloth!

And sloth reduced me to a creature beyond recognition.

Ingesting chemicals and stimulants,

Fattened by laziness, lonely by design.

Addicted to abstract relationships,

Staring down the shotgun barrel of his eyes..him staring in mine,

The reaper always gets his,

And I must be content to allow the rape,

And the darkened hall of shadowy figures,

The coronal ridge beneath my devil’s towel takes shape,

I suck it, I must pay.

I fuck it, I must pay.

I drink the blood from the vat,

Of dreams on life-support,

I suck it, I must pay,

I fuck it, I must pay

I have nothing but a knack,

For stinging, hurtful rhetort.

Blaming you for everything!

If I were you, would I have even liked that which I became?

Surely not, and with damned good reason,

A vain, tedious, unremarkable self-agrandizing man looking for

Someone else to blame!

So god always finds a way to humble me,

To strip away every paper thin layer of my façade,

And now I am nothing but the Eucalyptus vapor,

Mixed with dewdrop beads of sweat on those who sin against god!

Time to go, no place to hide,

I accept my sentence, and wish you the best,

And am sorry that I hurt you,

I think you know the rest.

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[Edited 7/31/10 11:40am]