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As I Slumbered I Was Never Awaken 2 C The Truth I Do Now Please understand it took me a lot 2 speak this forth cuz I like 2 hide in my shell I built of privacy n protection
U asked me 2 dream of u, The fact is that’s always what I do I 2 have seen u If only in my dreams When I was 7 I danced 2 ur kiss it seems I had seizures up till when Until an Angel came 2 me then Under the kitchen table we would meet When I cried from being beat I know closets all 2 well I would hide sometimes while u allowed me the comfort 2 tell My imaginary friend my story While u sang n danced our path 2 glory The moon's name is what I became Luna I was 1nce Since I was 16 and realized who u were I found a kindred and friend who did cure An abused and abandoned child 1 without a mother and father who never smiled Since I was 8 I was on my own A family and love I never had known Vulnerable after the molestations and rape At 17 I was in the club stripping 2 escape I never seemed 2 fit in Game of the paper chase I never could win I woke up n saw I was dancing so I had some control I could never make the bank ROLL Perpetual pain ensued yet it was the only place I felt safe Yet it left my life in chaos and worry only left me unsafe Making $ so I could run away I slept in my car while I pray 2 get away from the Emotional n physical abuse The foundations of my floor were built on me not having a use Taught I was worthless and taken for granted I gave my future away Every 1 I had been with in hopes could understand lead them 2 betray Like Aphrodite my heart’s purity craved 2 be made love 2 but it never felt that way No 1 could go where I am for my journey was 2 much 2 bare They never where able 2 relate or treat me with much care For the cross I had 2 bare so I would know just how Sacred I am A women’s worth is the Creators heavenly gift as it gives new life So afraid of what I never felt I could be as someone’s wife Even so vulnerable 2 say I don’t want 2 be rejected for telling the truth Of the heart-wrenching walk I took in my youth In front of the whole world 2see Will u still love me? With u all of my past is coming up I thought I let go But when love is this pure inside truth it becomes the show Can I hold my head above water like u spoke of? Now I understand the flood I’m drowning in ur love Baby some1 did put me down Real bad many times some how I will admit them all 2 u now I was 1nce 2 cool 2 say I was taught 2 do this by myself Run shut down within oneself But with u I wanna give in I trying so hard 2 stay without a battle 2 win Being open n bare I feel so fragile 2 the core all the while I don’t want 2 have 2 heal anymore What is beyond everything that’s came before The future comes 2 the shore I stick my toe in I don’t think I’m worthy for more So much shame was planted inside It’s so much easier 2 hide But I know for me 2 arrive I have 2 come out n bare it 2 be the Queen of my hive My life is about 2 change I know I am learning 2 go with ur flow Trusting the ride U n I In an empty room with no lights the candles burn 2 show every inch of a love between us that does yearn I’m scared 2 in so many ways I don’t know if I can stay But I know I will never heal again after we lay Upon the foundations of spiritual bliss Found when we decide play with our first kiss | |
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There is beauty in being bare. And they were naked and not ashamed. Now enjoy the freedom from the pain and set in motion the healing of many with the same. Nothing like being pure in honesty it drips from one like sweet honey. Comb away the years of pain set forth by those who only wanted u 2 hide inside of the pain. I know the cuts u suffered were so deep now that u have opened them up for all 2 see the light can come in and heal your broken heart indeed. This is where love longs 2 go the places u kept from many now they know and can understand who u are today a woman of passion with a purpose for the masses coming in the holy one's name.  I sit and smile now seeing u.....this is what we spoke of so long ago. There's no need 2 worry no need 2 fear u should just feel at home.  Proverbs 23:9 | |
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mayrain said: There is beauty in being bare. And they were naked and not ashamed. Now enjoy the freedom from the pain and set in motion the healing of many with the same. Nothing like being pure in honesty it drips from one like sweet honey. Comb away the years of pain set forth by those who only wanted u 2 hide inside of the pain. I know the cuts u suffered were so deep now that u have opened them up for all 2 see the light can come in and heal your broken heart indeed. This is where love longs 2 go the places u kept from many now they know and can understand who u are today a woman of passion with a purpose for the masses coming in the holy one's name.
I sit and smile now seeing u.....this is what we spoke of so long ago. There's no need 2 worry no need 2 fear u should just feel at home. LOL not at home I feel a bit sick from my nerves wheres that can at?? 
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mayrain said: I feel at home now...  I just needed 2 rest in LoVe's comfort | |
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NeferAsetTiti said: Please understand it took me a lot 2 speak this forth cuz I like 2 hide in my shell I built of privacy n protection
U asked me 2 dream of u, The fact is that’s always what I do I 2 have seen u If only in my dreams When I was 7 I danced 2 ur kiss it seems I had seizures up till when Until an Angel came 2 me then Under the kitchen table we would meet When I cried from being beat I know closets all 2 well I would hide sometimes while u allowed me the comfort 2 tell My imaginary friend my story While u sang n danced our path 2 glory The moon's name is what I became Luna I was 1nce Since I was 16 and realized who u were I found a kindred and friend who did cure An abused and abandoned child 1 without a mother and father who never smiled Since I was 8 I was on my own A family and love I never had known Vulnerable after the molestations and rape At 17 I was in the club stripping 2 escape I never seemed 2 fit in Game of the paper chase I never could win I woke up n saw I was dancing so I had some control I could never make the bank ROLL Perpetual pain ensued yet it was the only place I felt safe Yet it left my life in chaos and worry only left me unsafe Making $ so I could run away I slept in my car while I pray 2 get away from the Emotional n physical abuse The foundations of my floor were built on me not having a use Taught I was worthless and taken for granted I gave my future away Every 1 I had been with in hopes could understand lead them 2 betray Like Aphrodite my heart’s purity craved 2 be made love 2 but it never felt that way No 1 could go where I am for my journey was 2 much 2 bare They never where able 2 relate or treat me with much care For the cross I had 2 bare so I would know just how Sacred I am A women’s worth is the Creators heavenly gift as it gives new life So afraid of what I never felt I could be as someone’s wife Even so vulnerable 2 say I don’t want 2 be rejected for telling the truth Of the heart-wrenching walk I took in my youth In front of the whole world 2see Will u still love me? With u all of my past is coming up I thought I let go But when love is this pure inside truth it becomes the show Can I hold my head above water like u spoke of? Now I understand the flood I’m drowning in ur love Baby some1 did put me down Real bad many times some how I will admit them all 2 u now I was 1nce 2 cool 2 say I was taught 2 do this by myself Run shut down within oneself But with u I wanna give in I trying so hard 2 stay without a battle 2 win Being open n bare I feel so fragile 2 the core all the while I don’t want 2 have 2 heal anymore What is beyond everything that’s came before The future comes 2 the shore I stick my toe in I don’t think I’m worthy for more So much shame was planted inside It’s so much easier 2 hide But I know for me 2 arrive I have 2 come out n bare it 2 be the Queen of my hive My life is about 2 change I know I am learning 2 go with ur flow Trusting the ride U n I In an empty room with no lights the candles burn 2 show every inch of a love between us that does yearn I’m scared 2 in so many ways I don’t know if I can stay But I know I will never heal again after we lay Upon the foundations of spiritual bliss Found when we decide play with our first kiss Beautiful, flowing verse, thank U for showing us Ur NeferAsetTiti [Edited 2/3/10 9:55am] | |
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colorblu said: NeferAsetTiti said: Please understand it took me a lot 2 speak this forth cuz I like 2 hide in my shell I built of privacy n protection
U asked me 2 dream of u, The fact is that’s always what I do I 2 have seen u If only in my dreams When I was 7 I danced 2 ur kiss it seems I had seizures up till when Until an Angel came 2 me then Under the kitchen table we would meet When I cried from being beat I know closets all 2 well I would hide sometimes while u allowed me the comfort 2 tell My imaginary friend my story While u sang n danced our path 2 glory The moon's name is what I became Luna I was 1nce Since I was 16 and realized who u were I found a kindred and friend who did cure An abused and abandoned child 1 without a mother and father who never smiled Since I was 8 I was on my own A family and love I never had known Vulnerable after the molestations and rape At 17 I was in the club stripping 2 escape I never seemed 2 fit in Game of the paper chase I never could win I woke up n saw I was dancing so I had some control I could never make the bank ROLL Perpetual pain ensued yet it was the only place I felt safe Yet it left my life in chaos and worry only left me unsafe Making $ so I could run away I slept in my car while I pray 2 get away from the Emotional n physical abuse The foundations of my floor were built on me not having a use Taught I was worthless and taken for granted I gave my future away Every 1 I had been with in hopes could understand lead them 2 betray Like Aphrodite my heart’s purity craved 2 be made love 2 but it never felt that way No 1 could go where I am for my journey was 2 much 2 bare They never where able 2 relate or treat me with much care For the cross I had 2 bare so I would know just how Sacred I am A women’s worth is the Creators heavenly gift as it gives new life So afraid of what I never felt I could be as someone’s wife Even so vulnerable 2 say I don’t want 2 be rejected for telling the truth Of the heart-wrenching walk I took in my youth In front of the whole world 2see Will u still love me? With u all of my past is coming up I thought I let go But when love is this pure inside truth it becomes the show Can I hold my head above water like u spoke of? Now I understand the flood I’m drowning in ur love Baby some1 did put me down Real bad many times some how I will admit them all 2 u now I was 1nce 2 cool 2 say I was taught 2 do this by myself Run shut down within oneself But with u I wanna give in I trying so hard 2 stay without a battle 2 win Being open n bare I feel so fragile 2 the core all the while I don’t want 2 have 2 heal anymore What is beyond everything that’s came before The future comes 2 the shore I stick my toe in I don’t think I’m worthy for more So much shame was planted inside It’s so much easier 2 hide But I know for me 2 arrive I have 2 come out n bare it 2 be the Queen of my hive My life is about 2 change I know I am learning 2 go with ur flow Trusting the ride U n I In an empty room with no lights the candles burn 2 show every inch of a love between us that does yearn I’m scared 2 in so many ways I don’t know if I can stay But I know I will never heal again after we lay Upon the foundations of spiritual bliss Found when we decide play with our first kiss Beautiful, flowing verse, thank U for showing us Ur NeferAsetTiti
[Edited 2/3/10 9:55am] Aw shucks... Thanks so much B!!!! | |
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NeferAsetTiti said: Please understand it took me a lot 2 speak this forth cuz I like 2 hide in my shell I built of privacy n protection
U asked me 2 dream of u, The fact is that’s always what I do I 2 have seen u If only in my dreams When I was 7 I danced 2 ur kiss it seems I had seizures up till when Until an Angel came 2 me then Under the kitchen table we would meet When I cried from being beat I know closets all 2 well I would hide sometimes while u allowed me the comfort 2 tell My imaginary friend my story While u sang n danced our path 2 glory The moon's name is what I became Luna I was 1nce Since I was 16 and realized who u were I found a kindred and friend who did cure An abused and abandoned child 1 without a mother and father who never smiled Since I was 8 I was on my own A family and love I never had known Vulnerable after the molestations and rape At 17 I was in the club stripping 2 escape I never seemed 2 fit in Game of the paper chase I never could win I woke up n saw I was dancing so I had some control I could never make the bank ROLL Perpetual pain ensued yet it was the only place I felt safe Yet it left my life in chaos and worry only left me unsafe Making $ so I could run away I slept in my car while I pray 2 get away from the Emotional n physical abuse The foundations of my floor were built on me not having a use Taught I was worthless and taken for granted I gave my future away Every 1 I had been with in hopes could understand lead them 2 betray Like Aphrodite my heart’s purity craved 2 be made love 2 but it never felt that way No 1 could go where I am for my journey was 2 much 2 bare They never where able 2 relate or treat me with much care For the cross I had 2 bare so I would know just how Sacred I am A women’s worth is the Creators heavenly gift as it gives new life So afraid of what I never felt I could be as someone’s wife Even so vulnerable 2 say I don’t want 2 be rejected for telling the truth Of the heart-wrenching walk I took in my youth In front of the whole world 2see Will u still love me? With u all of my past is coming up I thought I let go But when love is this pure inside truth it becomes the show Can I hold my head above water like u spoke of? Now I understand the flood I’m drowning in ur love Baby some1 did put me down Real bad many times some how I will admit them all 2 u now I was 1nce 2 cool 2 say I was taught 2 do this by myself Run shut down within oneself But with u I wanna give in I trying so hard 2 stay without a battle 2 win Being open n bare I feel so fragile 2 the core all the while I don’t want 2 have 2 heal anymore What is beyond everything that’s came before The future comes 2 the shore I stick my toe in I don’t think I’m worthy for more So much shame was planted inside It’s so much easier 2 hide But I know for me 2 arrive I have 2 come out n bare it 2 be the Queen of my hive My life is about 2 change I know I am learning 2 go with ur flow Trusting the ride U n I In an empty room with no lights the candles burn 2 show every inch of a love between us that does yearn I’m scared 2 in so many ways I don’t know if I can stay But I know I will never heal again after we lay Upon the foundations of spiritual bliss Found when we decide play with our first kiss
u knw how funny this is..... its seems like we both have been put down very badly indeed from our man like you l have been put down very bad too.....lve been hurts so many times my hearts has been broken so many times over took a long time for me to heal..... it strange to know how did he know ??? tht is one thing l love to know..... but with tht GOD has made me strong again.....he knows what lve been put thru and now l have this light to find my truelove and to bring him back to me in my heart tht who l truly missed so much ....l just wished he knows this...how much love l have for him and how much l missed him..... but someone has broke my connection.....and now l am sad and feel so alone.....  | |
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piccolo7 said: NeferAsetTiti said: Please understand it took me a lot 2 speak this forth cuz I like 2 hide in my shell I built of privacy n protection
U asked me 2 dream of u, The fact is that’s always what I do I 2 have seen u If only in my dreams When I was 7 I danced 2 ur kiss it seems I had seizures up till when Until an Angel came 2 me then Under the kitchen table we would meet When I cried from being beat I know closets all 2 well I would hide sometimes while u allowed me the comfort 2 tell My imaginary friend my story While u sang n danced our path 2 glory The moon's name is what I became Luna I was 1nce Since I was 16 and realized who u were I found a kindred and friend who did cure An abused and abandoned child 1 without a mother and father who never smiled Since I was 8 I was on my own A family and love I never had known Vulnerable after the molestations and rape At 17 I was in the club stripping 2 escape I never seemed 2 fit in Game of the paper chase I never could win I woke up n saw I was dancing so I had some control I could never make the bank ROLL Perpetual pain ensued yet it was the only place I felt safe Yet it left my life in chaos and worry only left me unsafe Making $ so I could run away I slept in my car while I pray 2 get away from the Emotional n physical abuse The foundations of my floor were built on me not having a use Taught I was worthless and taken for granted I gave my future away Every 1 I had been with in hopes could understand lead them 2 betray Like Aphrodite my heart’s purity craved 2 be made love 2 but it never felt that way No 1 could go where I am for my journey was 2 much 2 bare They never where able 2 relate or treat me with much care For the cross I had 2 bare so I would know just how Sacred I am A women’s worth is the Creators heavenly gift as it gives new life So afraid of what I never felt I could be as someone’s wife Even so vulnerable 2 say I don’t want 2 be rejected for telling the truth Of the heart-wrenching walk I took in my youth In front of the whole world 2see Will u still love me? With u all of my past is coming up I thought I let go But when love is this pure inside truth it becomes the show Can I hold my head above water like u spoke of? Now I understand the flood I’m drowning in ur love Baby some1 did put me down Real bad many times some how I will admit them all 2 u now I was 1nce 2 cool 2 say I was taught 2 do this by myself Run shut down within oneself But with u I wanna give in I trying so hard 2 stay without a battle 2 win Being open n bare I feel so fragile 2 the core all the while I don’t want 2 have 2 heal anymore What is beyond everything that’s came before The future comes 2 the shore I stick my toe in I don’t think I’m worthy for more So much shame was planted inside It’s so much easier 2 hide But I know for me 2 arrive I have 2 come out n bare it 2 be the Queen of my hive My life is about 2 change I know I am learning 2 go with ur flow Trusting the ride U n I In an empty room with no lights the candles burn 2 show every inch of a love between us that does yearn I’m scared 2 in so many ways I don’t know if I can stay But I know I will never heal again after we lay Upon the foundations of spiritual bliss Found when we decide play with our first kiss
u knw how funny this is..... its seems like we both have been put down very badly indeed from our man like you l have been put down very bad too.....lve been hurts so many times my hearts has been broken so many times over took a long time for me to heal..... it strange to know how did he know ??? tht is one thing l love to know..... but with tht GOD has made me strong again.....he knows what lve been put thru and now l have this light to find my truelove and to bring him back to me in my heart tht who l truly missed so much ....l just wished he knows this...how much love l have for him and how much l missed him..... but someone has broke my connection.....and now l am sad and feel so alone..... Come here girlfriend
U r loved eternaly by the Most High Honor that love b/c u r beautiful If u feel alone find ur heart beat and know ur never left behind for that beat is the truth u can never be alone when love beats there and that comes from the 1 up high. when u never loose that connection u will never feel alone or be sad again!! Lets dance 2 gether n smile cuz u got so much love 2 give and when ur shinning babe u will find the 1 Just remember 2 let go of expectations or desicions on how and who it is LOVE will find u when u let go of control... I love ya chicka!!
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NeferAsetTiti said: piccolo7 said:
u knw how funny this is..... its seems like we both have been put down very badly indeed from our man like you l have been put down very bad too.....lve been hurts so many times my hearts has been broken so many times over took a long time for me to heal..... it strange to know how did he know ??? tht is one thing l love to know..... but with tht GOD has made me strong again.....he knows what lve been put thru and now l have this light to find my truelove and to bring him back to me in my heart tht who l truly missed so much ....l just wished he knows this...how much love l have for him and how much l missed him..... but someone has broke my connection.....and now l am sad and feel so alone..... Come here girlfriend
U r loved eternaly by the Most High Honor that love b/c u r beautiful If u feel alone find ur heart beat and know ur never left behind for that beat is the truth u can never be alone when love beats there and that comes from the 1 up high. when u never loose that connection u will never feel alone or be sad again!! Lets dance 2 gether n smile cuz u got so much love 2 give and when ur shinning babe u will find the 1 Just remember 2 let go of expectations or desicions on how and who it is LOVE will find u when u let go of control... I love ya chicka!!
  thanks just what l needed right now mmmmm
l knw l am loved by the most high as my level with GOD is high...
awww thanks for sayin lm beautiful too
so are you my darling.....as we are all beautiful in every way inside.. ok lets us dance 2gether and smile 2gether under the pale moonlight..OF LOVE..which will bring the smile back upon my face .
for you knowing l got so so much love in my heart to give only you know..(wink).
ok  here l am shinning right now full of cheer since lve been streaming tears down my face.....
ok..l will let the most high do the rest and for me letting go of my control which u will see...
hopefully LOVE will soon find me,,,,, somewhere here on earth...
 l love you too
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You guys are so sweet I am so inspired and feeling the beauty in this worlds so easy to see it now, Thank u for being so loving, I am hoping you and everyone will find their True Love Heart even in the Dark, I am always embarrassed to express myself, now I know it's a good thing to share with lovers who also love loving | |
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RakelRosalita729 said: You guys are so sweet I am so inspired and feeling the beauty in this worlds so easy to see it now, Thank u for being so loving, I am hoping you and everyone will find their True Love Heart even in the Dark, I am always embarrassed to express myself, now I know it's a good thing to share with lovers who also love loving
LET IT FLOW!!! That is when true love finds u sweet 1.. it will find u 4ever. UR 2 BEAUTIFUL 2 keep ur feelings bottled up, u only fear urself, really u can inspire teach and grow2 when u let go... Ur welcome 2 share I would love 2 see ur heart I know its amazing allready!!! | |
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piccolo7 said: NeferAsetTiti said: Come here girlfriend
U r loved eternaly by the Most High Honor that love b/c u r beautiful If u feel alone find ur heart beat and know ur never left behind for that beat is the truth u can never be alone when love beats there and that comes from the 1 up high. when u never loose that connection u will never feel alone or be sad again!! Lets dance 2 gether n smile cuz u got so much love 2 give and when ur shinning babe u will find the 1 Just remember 2 let go of expectations or desicions on how and who it is LOVE will find u when u let go of control... I love ya chicka!!
thanks just what l needed right now mmmmm
l knw l am loved by the most high as my level with GOD is high...
awww thanks for sayin lm beautiful too
so are you my darling.....as we are all beautiful in every way inside.. ok lets us dance 2gether and smile 2gether under the pale moonlight..OF LOVE..which will bring the smile back upon my face .
for you knowing l got so so much love in my heart to give only you know..(wink).
ok here l am shinning right now full of cheer since lve been streaming tears down my face.....
ok..l will let the most high do the rest and for me letting go of my control which u will see...
hopefully LOVE will soon find me,,,,, somewhere here on earth...
l love you too
[Edited 2/6/10 13:12pm] [Edited 2/6/10 13:13pm] I'm falling asleep lol I pulled an all nighter with LoVe ill get back 2 u soon xoxoxo | |
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piccolo7 said: NeferAsetTiti said: Come here girlfriend
U r loved eternaly by the Most High Honor that love b/c u r beautiful If u feel alone find ur heart beat and know ur never left behind for that beat is the truth u can never be alone when love beats there and that comes from the 1 up high. when u never loose that connection u will never feel alone or be sad again!! Lets dance 2 gether n smile cuz u got so much love 2 give and when ur shinning babe u will find the 1 Just remember 2 let go of expectations or desicions on how and who it is LOVE will find u when u let go of control... I love ya chicka!!
thanks just what l needed right now mmmmm
l knw l am loved by the most high as my level with GOD is high...
awww thanks for sayin lm beautiful too
so are you my darling.....as we are all beautiful in every way inside.. ok lets us dance 2gether and smile 2gether under the pale moonlight..OF LOVE..which will bring the smile back upon my face .
for you knowing l got so so much love in my heart to give only you know..(wink).
ok here l am shinning right now full of cheer since lve been streaming tears down my face.....
ok..l will let the most high do the rest and for me letting go of my control which u will see...
hopefully LOVE will soon find me,,,,, somewhere here on earth...
l love you too
[Edited 2/6/10 13:12pm] [Edited 2/6/10 13:13pm]
Oh u r worth it Love let it be U will find ur 2gether u n me For all eternity U just have 2 believe Let God do that work then u will c 1nce u find it surrender!!!! AHHHH its 2 juicy! Ur sooo Welcome u are amazing trust it!!! | |
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NeferAsetTiti said: Please understand it took me a lot 2 speak this forth cuz I like 2 hide in my shell I built of privacy n protection
U asked me 2 dream of u, The fact is that’s always what I do I 2 have seen u If only in my dreams When I was 7 I danced 2 ur kiss it seems I had seizures up till when Until an Angel came 2 me then Under the kitchen table we would meet When I cried from being beat I know closets all 2 well I would hide sometimes while u allowed me the comfort 2 tell My imaginary friend my story While u sang n danced our path 2 glory The moon's name is what I became Luna I was 1nce Since I was 16 and realized who u were I found a kindred and friend who did cure An abused and abandoned child 1 without a mother and father who never smiled Since I was 8 I was on my own A family and love I never had known Vulnerable after the molestations and rape At 17 I was in the club stripping 2 escape I never seemed 2 fit in Game of the paper chase I never could win I woke up n saw I was dancing so I had some control I could never make the bank ROLL Perpetual pain ensued yet it was the only place I felt safe Yet it left my life in chaos and worry only left me unsafe Making $ so I could run away I slept in my car while I pray 2 get away from the Emotional n physical abuse The foundations of my floor were built on me not having a use Taught I was worthless and taken for granted I gave my future away Every 1 I had been with in hopes could understand lead them 2 betray Like Aphrodite my heart’s purity craved 2 be made love 2 but it never felt that way No 1 could go where I am for my journey was 2 much 2 bare They never where able 2 relate or treat me with much care For the cross I had 2 bare so I would know just how Sacred I am A women’s worth is the Creators heavenly gift as it gives new life So afraid of what I never felt I could be as someone’s wife Even so vulnerable 2 say I don’t want 2 be rejected for telling the truth Of the heart-wrenching walk I took in my youth In front of the whole world 2see Will u still love me? With u all of my past is coming up I thought I let go But when love is this pure inside truth it becomes the show Can I hold my head above water like u spoke of? Now I understand the flood I’m drowning in ur love Baby some1 did put me down Real bad many times some how I will admit them all 2 u now I was 1nce 2 cool 2 say I was taught 2 do this by myself Run shut down within oneself But with u I wanna give in I trying so hard 2 stay without a battle 2 win Being open n bare I feel so fragile 2 the core all the while I don’t want 2 have 2 heal anymore What is beyond everything that’s came before The future comes 2 the shore I stick my toe in I don’t think I’m worthy for more So much shame was planted inside It’s so much easier 2 hide But I know for me 2 arrive I have 2 come out n bare it 2 be the Queen of my hive My life is about 2 change I know I am learning 2 go with ur flow Trusting the ride U n I In an empty room with no lights the candles burn 2 show every inch of a love between us that does yearn I’m scared 2 in so many ways I don’t know if I can stay But I know I will never heal again after we lay Upon the foundations of spiritual bliss Found when we decide play with our first kiss bit depressing | |
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NeferAsetTiti said: Please understand it took me a lot 2 speak this forth cuz I like 2 hide in my shell I built of privacy n protection
U asked me 2 dream of u, The fact is that’s always what I do I 2 have seen u If only in my dreams When I was 7 I danced 2 ur kiss it seems I had seizures up till when Until an Angel came 2 me then Under the kitchen table we would meet When I cried from being beat I know closets all 2 well I would hide sometimes while u allowed me the comfort 2 tell My imaginary friend my story While u sang n danced our path 2 glory The moon's name is what I became Luna I was 1nce Since I was 16 and realized who u were I found a kindred and friend who did cure An abused and abandoned child 1 without a mother and father who never smiled Since I was 8 I was on my own A family and love I never had known Vulnerable after the molestations and rape At 17 I was in the club stripping 2 escape I never seemed 2 fit in Game of the paper chase I never could win I woke up n saw I was dancing so I had some control I could never make the bank ROLL Perpetual pain ensued yet it was the only place I felt safe Yet it left my life in chaos and worry only left me unsafe Making $ so I could run away I slept in my car while I pray 2 get away from the Emotional n physical abuse The foundations of my floor were built on me not having a use Taught I was worthless and taken for granted I gave my future away Every 1 I had been with in hopes could understand lead them 2 betray Like Aphrodite my heart’s purity craved 2 be made love 2 but it never felt that way No 1 could go where I am for my journey was 2 much 2 bare They never where able 2 relate or treat me with much care For the cross I had 2 bare so I would know just how Sacred I am A women’s worth is the Creators heavenly gift as it gives new life So afraid of what I never felt I could be as someone’s wife Even so vulnerable 2 say I don’t want 2 be rejected for telling the truth Of the heart-wrenching walk I took in my youth In front of the whole world 2see Will u still love me? With u all of my past is coming up I thought I let go But when love is this pure inside truth it becomes the show Can I hold my head above water like u spoke of? Now I understand the flood I’m drowning in ur love Baby some1 did put me down Real bad many times some how I will admit them all 2 u now I was 1nce 2 cool 2 say I was taught 2 do this by myself Run shut down within oneself But with u I wanna give in I trying so hard 2 stay without a battle 2 win Being open n bare I feel so fragile 2 the core all the while I don’t want 2 have 2 heal anymore What is beyond everything that’s came before The future comes 2 the shore I stick my toe in I don’t think I’m worthy for more So much shame was planted inside It’s so much easier 2 hide But I know for me 2 arrive I have 2 come out n bare it 2 be the Queen of my hive My life is about 2 change I know I am learning 2 go with ur flow Trusting the ride U n I In an empty room with no lights the candles burn 2 show every inch of a love between us that does yearn I’m scared 2 in so many ways I don’t know if I can stay But I know I will never heal again after we lay Upon the foundations of spiritual bliss Found when we decide play with our first kiss simply beautiful... what's that sound...its the sound of chains falling to the ground. | |
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sweething said: NeferAsetTiti said: Please understand it took me a lot 2 speak this forth cuz I like 2 hide in my shell I built of privacy n protection
U asked me 2 dream of u, The fact is that’s always what I do I 2 have seen u If only in my dreams When I was 7 I danced 2 ur kiss it seems I had seizures up till when Until an Angel came 2 me then Under the kitchen table we would meet When I cried from being beat I know closets all 2 well I would hide sometimes while u allowed me the comfort 2 tell My imaginary friend my story While u sang n danced our path 2 glory The moon's name is what I became Luna I was 1nce Since I was 16 and realized who u were I found a kindred and friend who did cure An abused and abandoned child 1 without a mother and father who never smiled Since I was 8 I was on my own A family and love I never had known Vulnerable after the molestations and rape At 17 I was in the club stripping 2 escape I never seemed 2 fit in Game of the paper chase I never could win I woke up n saw I was dancing so I had some control I could never make the bank ROLL Perpetual pain ensued yet it was the only place I felt safe Yet it left my life in chaos and worry only left me unsafe Making $ so I could run away I slept in my car while I pray 2 get away from the Emotional n physical abuse The foundations of my floor were built on me not having a use Taught I was worthless and taken for granted I gave my future away Every 1 I had been with in hopes could understand lead them 2 betray Like Aphrodite my heart’s purity craved 2 be made love 2 but it never felt that way No 1 could go where I am for my journey was 2 much 2 bare They never where able 2 relate or treat me with much care For the cross I had 2 bare so I would know just how Sacred I am A women’s worth is the Creators heavenly gift as it gives new life So afraid of what I never felt I could be as someone’s wife Even so vulnerable 2 say I don’t want 2 be rejected for telling the truth Of the heart-wrenching walk I took in my youth In front of the whole world 2see Will u still love me? With u all of my past is coming up I thought I let go But when love is this pure inside truth it becomes the show Can I hold my head above water like u spoke of? Now I understand the flood I’m drowning in ur love Baby some1 did put me down Real bad many times some how I will admit them all 2 u now I was 1nce 2 cool 2 say I was taught 2 do this by myself Run shut down within oneself But with u I wanna give in I trying so hard 2 stay without a battle 2 win Being open n bare I feel so fragile 2 the core all the while I don’t want 2 have 2 heal anymore What is beyond everything that’s came before The future comes 2 the shore I stick my toe in I don’t think I’m worthy for more So much shame was planted inside It’s so much easier 2 hide But I know for me 2 arrive I have 2 come out n bare it 2 be the Queen of my hive My life is about 2 change I know I am learning 2 go with ur flow Trusting the ride U n I In an empty room with no lights the candles burn 2 show every inch of a love between us that does yearn I’m scared 2 in so many ways I don’t know if I can stay But I know I will never heal again after we lay Upon the foundations of spiritual bliss Found when we decide play with our first kiss simply beautiful... what's that sound...its the sound of chains falling to the ground. Yes they have been falling for a century it seems.. Thank u for peeping in sweetie It is the works of the 1 | |
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NeferAsetTiti said: piccolo7 said: thanks just what l needed right now mmmmm
l knw l am loved by the most high as my level with GOD is high...
awww thanks for sayin lm beautiful too
so are you my darling.....as we are all beautiful in every way inside.. ok lets us dance 2gether and smile 2gether under the pale moonlight..OF LOVE..which will bring the smile back upon my face .
for you knowing l got so so much love in my heart to give only you know..(wink).
ok here l am shinning right now full of cheer since lve been streaming tears down my face.....
ok..l will let the most high do the rest and for me letting go of my control which u will see...
hopefully LOVE will soon find me,,,,, somewhere here on earth...
l love you too
[Edited 2/6/10 13:12pm] [Edited 2/6/10 13:13pm]
Oh u r worth it Love let it be U will find ur 2gether u n me For all eternity U just have 2 believe Let God do that work then u will c 1nce u find it surrender!!!! AHHHH its 2 juicy! Ur sooo Welcome u are amazing trust it!!!  | |
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NeferAsetTiti said: Please understand it took me a lot 2 speak this forth cuz I like 2 hide in my shell I built of privacy n protection
U asked me 2 dream of u, The fact is that’s always what I do I 2 have seen u If only in my dreams When I was 7 I danced 2 ur kiss it seems I had seizures up till when Until an Angel came 2 me then Under the kitchen table we would meet When I cried from being beat I know closets all 2 well I would hide sometimes while u allowed me the comfort 2 tell My imaginary friend my story While u sang n danced our path 2 glory The moon's name is what I became Luna I was 1nce Since I was 16 and realized who u were I found a kindred and friend who did cure An abused and abandoned child 1 without a mother and father who never smiled Since I was 8 I was on my own A family and love I never had known Vulnerable after the molestations and rape At 17 I was in the club stripping 2 escape I never seemed 2 fit in Game of the paper chase I never could win I woke up n saw I was dancing so I had some control I could never make the bank ROLL Perpetual pain ensued yet it was the only place I felt safe Yet it left my life in chaos and worry only left me unsafe Making $ so I could run away I slept in my car while I pray 2 get away from the Emotional n physical abuse The foundations of my floor were built on me not having a use Taught I was worthless and taken for granted I gave my future away Every 1 I had been with in hopes could understand lead them 2 betray Like Aphrodite my heart’s purity craved 2 be made love 2 but it never felt that way No 1 could go where I am for my journey was 2 much 2 bare They never where able 2 relate or treat me with much care For the cross I had 2 bare so I would know just how Sacred I am A women’s worth is the Creators heavenly gift as it gives new life So afraid of what I never felt I could be as someone’s wife Even so vulnerable 2 say I don’t want 2 be rejected for telling the truth Of the heart-wrenching walk I took in my youth In front of the whole world 2see Will u still love me? With u all of my past is coming up I thought I let go But when love is this pure inside truth it becomes the show Can I hold my head above water like u spoke of? Now I understand the flood I’m drowning in ur love Baby some1 did put me down Real bad many times some how I will admit them all 2 u now I was 1nce 2 cool 2 say I was taught 2 do this by myself Run shut down within oneself But with u I wanna give in I trying so hard 2 stay without a battle 2 win Being open n bare I feel so fragile 2 the core all the while I don’t want 2 have 2 heal anymore What is beyond everything that’s came before The future comes 2 the shore I stick my toe in I don’t think I’m worthy for more So much shame was planted inside It’s so much easier 2 hide But I know for me 2 arrive I have 2 come out n bare it 2 be the Queen of my hive My life is about 2 change I know I am learning 2 go with ur flow Trusting the ride U n I In an empty room with no lights the candles burn 2 show every inch of a love between us that does yearn I’m scared 2 in so many ways I don’t know if I can stay But I know I will never heal again after we lay Upon the foundations of spiritual bliss Found when we decide play with our first kiss NeferAsitTiti, your "free writing" personal poem really touched me in so many ways...reminded me of my own youth in too many ways. I hope that so many things have improved for you in your life and your spiritual journey...I didn't listen to Prince's music for many years and then I started to recently and I find it both inspiring and spiritually illuminating for me...I hope the same for you and pray that your life is going well... Thumbs Up!  | |
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NeferAsetTiti said: Please understand it took me a lot 2 speak this forth cuz I like 2 hide in my shell I built of privacy n protection
U asked me 2 dream of u, The fact is that’s always what I do I 2 have seen u If only in my dreams When I was 7 I danced 2 ur kiss it seems I had seizures up till when Until an Angel came 2 me then Under the kitchen table we would meet When I cried from being beat I know closets all 2 well I would hide sometimes while u allowed me the comfort 2 tell My imaginary friend my story While u sang n danced our path 2 glory The moon's name is what I became Luna I was 1nce Since I was 16 and realized who u were I found a kindred and friend who did cure An abused and abandoned child 1 without a mother and father who never smiled Since I was 8 I was on my own A family and love I never had known Vulnerable after the molestations and rape At 17 I was in the club stripping 2 escape I never seemed 2 fit in Game of the paper chase I never could win I woke up n saw I was dancing so I had some control I could never make the bank ROLL Perpetual pain ensued yet it was the only place I felt safe Yet it left my life in chaos and worry only left me unsafe Making $ so I could run away I slept in my car while I pray 2 get away from the Emotional n physical abuse The foundations of my floor were built on me not having a use Taught I was worthless and taken for granted I gave my future away Every 1 I had been with in hopes could understand lead them 2 betray Like Aphrodite my heart’s purity craved 2 be made love 2 but it never felt that way No 1 could go where I am for my journey was 2 much 2 bare They never where able 2 relate or treat me with much care For the cross I had 2 bare so I would know just how Sacred I am A women’s worth is the Creators heavenly gift as it gives new life So afraid of what I never felt I could be as someone’s wife Even so vulnerable 2 say I don’t want 2 be rejected for telling the truth Of the heart-wrenching walk I took in my youth In front of the whole world 2see Will u still love me? With u all of my past is coming up I thought I let go But when love is this pure inside truth it becomes the show Can I hold my head above water like u spoke of? Now I understand the flood I’m drowning in ur love Baby some1 did put me down Real bad many times some how I will admit them all 2 u now I was 1nce 2 cool 2 say I was taught 2 do this by myself Run shut down within oneself But with u I wanna give in I trying so hard 2 stay without a battle 2 win Being open n bare I feel so fragile 2 the core all the while I don’t want 2 have 2 heal anymore What is beyond everything that’s came before The future comes 2 the shore I stick my toe in I don’t think I’m worthy for more So much shame was planted inside It’s so much easier 2 hide But I know for me 2 arrive I have 2 come out n bare it 2 be the Queen of my hive My life is about 2 change I know I am learning 2 go with ur flow Trusting the ride U n I In an empty room with no lights the candles burn 2 show every inch of a love between us that does yearn I’m scared 2 in so many ways I don’t know if I can stay But I know I will never heal again after we lay Upon the foundations of spiritual bliss Found when we decide play with our first kiss   ♥ Feeling Purple Rain...Don't hold on 2 the pain, hold on 2 the memories ♥
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NeferAsetTiti said: Please understand it took me a lot 2 speak this forth cuz I like 2 hide in my shell I built of privacy n protection
U asked me 2 dream of u, The fact is that’s always what I do I 2 have seen u If only in my dreams When I was 7 I danced 2 ur kiss it seems I had seizures up till when Until an Angel came 2 me then Under the kitchen table we would meet When I cried from being beat I know closets all 2 well I would hide sometimes while u allowed me the comfort 2 tell My imaginary friend my story While u sang n danced our path 2 glory The moon's name is what I became Luna I was 1nce Since I was 16 and realized who u were I found a kindred and friend who did cure An abused and abandoned child 1 without a mother and father who never smiled Since I was 8 I was on my own A family and love I never had known Vulnerable after the molestations and rape At 17 I was in the club stripping 2 escape I never seemed 2 fit in Game of the paper chase I never could win I woke up n saw I was dancing so I had some control I could never make the bank ROLL Perpetual pain ensued yet it was the only place I felt safe Yet it left my life in chaos and worry only left me unsafe Making $ so I could run away I slept in my car while I pray 2 get away from the Emotional n physical abuse The foundations of my floor were built on me not having a use Taught I was worthless and taken for granted I gave my future away Every 1 I had been with in hopes could understand lead them 2 betray Like Aphrodite my heart’s purity craved 2 be made love 2 but it never felt that way No 1 could go where I am for my journey was 2 much 2 bare They never where able 2 relate or treat me with much care For the cross I had 2 bare so I would know just how Sacred I am A women’s worth is the Creators heavenly gift as it gives new life So afraid of what I never felt I could be as someone’s wife Even so vulnerable 2 say I don’t want 2 be rejected for telling the truth Of the heart-wrenching walk I took in my youth In front of the whole world 2see Will u still love me? With u all of my past is coming up I thought I let go But when love is this pure inside truth it becomes the show Can I hold my head above water like u spoke of? Now I understand the flood I’m drowning in ur love Baby some1 did put me down Real bad many times some how I will admit them all 2 u now I was 1nce 2 cool 2 say I was taught 2 do this by myself Run shut down within oneself But with u I wanna give in I trying so hard 2 stay without a battle 2 win Being open n bare I feel so fragile 2 the core all the while I don’t want 2 have 2 heal anymore What is beyond everything that’s came before The future comes 2 the shore I stick my toe in I don’t think I’m worthy for more So much shame was planted inside It’s so much easier 2 hide But I know for me 2 arrive I have 2 come out n bare it 2 be the Queen of my hive My life is about 2 change I know I am learning 2 go with ur flow Trusting the ride U n I In an empty room with no lights the candles burn 2 show every inch of a love between us that does yearn I’m scared 2 in so many ways I don’t know if I can stay But I know I will never heal again after we lay Upon the foundations of spiritual bliss Found when we decide play with our first kiss I understand your pain...reading this made me cry because I live with the same pain inside.When you are hurt as a child it never leaves you....Loving Prince and M.J has nothing 2 do with idol worship...they were the only 2 men that I felt that wouldn't hurt me and it wouldn't hurt me 2 love them.It has been my way 2 escape my pain....People judge you but they don't know why you feel the way that you feel because they haven't walked in your shoes...Only JEHOVAH is the judge because he knows our heart and what we have been through....My of healing and escaping is trusting in Jehovah,loving everyone even my enemies and being with my family and friends,writing and my music....NEFERASETTITI I love you :Don't be afraid with Jehovah's help the both of us will heal.You can always count on me as a friend 2 the end  Pray 4 me and I'll pray 4 you.  :luv you...keep you head up.    ♥ Feeling Purple Rain...Don't hold on 2 the pain, hold on 2 the memories ♥
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piccolo7 said: NeferAsetTiti said: Please understand it took me a lot 2 speak this forth cuz I like 2 hide in my shell I built of privacy n protection
U asked me 2 dream of u, The fact is that’s always what I do I 2 have seen u If only in my dreams When I was 7 I danced 2 ur kiss it seems I had seizures up till when Until an Angel came 2 me then Under the kitchen table we would meet When I cried from being beat I know closets all 2 well I would hide sometimes while u allowed me the comfort 2 tell My imaginary friend my story While u sang n danced our path 2 glory The moon's name is what I became Luna I was 1nce Since I was 16 and realized who u were I found a kindred and friend who did cure An abused and abandoned child 1 without a mother and father who never smiled Since I was 8 I was on my own A family and love I never had known Vulnerable after the molestations and rape At 17 I was in the club stripping 2 escape I never seemed 2 fit in Game of the paper chase I never could win I woke up n saw I was dancing so I had some control I could never make the bank ROLL Perpetual pain ensued yet it was the only place I felt safe Yet it left my life in chaos and worry only left me unsafe Making $ so I could run away I slept in my car while I pray 2 get away from the Emotional n physical abuse The foundations of my floor were built on me not having a use Taught I was worthless and taken for granted I gave my future away Every 1 I had been with in hopes could understand lead them 2 betray Like Aphrodite my heart’s purity craved 2 be made love 2 but it never felt that way No 1 could go where I am for my journey was 2 much 2 bare They never where able 2 relate or treat me with much care For the cross I had 2 bare so I would know just how Sacred I am A women’s worth is the Creators heavenly gift as it gives new life So afraid of what I never felt I could be as someone’s wife Even so vulnerable 2 say I don’t want 2 be rejected for telling the truth Of the heart-wrenching walk I took in my youth In front of the whole world 2see Will u still love me? With u all of my past is coming up I thought I let go But when love is this pure inside truth it becomes the show Can I hold my head above water like u spoke of? Now I understand the flood I’m drowning in ur love Baby some1 did put me down Real bad many times some how I will admit them all 2 u now I was 1nce 2 cool 2 say I was taught 2 do this by myself Run shut down within oneself But with u I wanna give in I trying so hard 2 stay without a battle 2 win Being open n bare I feel so fragile 2 the core all the while I don’t want 2 have 2 heal anymore What is beyond everything that’s came before The future comes 2 the shore I stick my toe in I don’t think I’m worthy for more So much shame was planted inside It’s so much easier 2 hide But I know for me 2 arrive I have 2 come out n bare it 2 be the Queen of my hive My life is about 2 change I know I am learning 2 go with ur flow Trusting the ride U n I In an empty room with no lights the candles burn 2 show every inch of a love between us that does yearn I’m scared 2 in so many ways I don’t know if I can stay But I know I will never heal again after we lay Upon the foundations of spiritual bliss Found when we decide play with our first kiss
u knw how funny this is..... its seems like we both have been put down very badly indeed from our man like you l have been put down very bad too.....lve been hurts so many times my hearts has been broken so many times over took a long time for me to heal..... it strange to know how did he know ??? tht is one thing l love to know..... but with tht GOD has made me strong again.....he knows what lve been put thru and now l have this light to find my truelove and to bring him back to me in my heart tht who l truly missed so much ....l just wished he knows this...how much love l have for him and how much l missed him..... but someone has broke my connection.....and now l am sad and feel so alone..... YOU ARE NOT ALONE.YOU HAVE ME... ♥ Feeling Purple Rain...Don't hold on 2 the pain, hold on 2 the memories ♥
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NeferAsetTiti said: colorblu said: Beautiful, flowing verse, thank U for showing us Ur NeferAsetTiti
[Edited 2/3/10 9:55am] Aw shucks... Thanks so much B!!!! I KNEW YOU WOULD'T BE SAD 4 LONG.YOU ARE SO CRAZY  YOU ARE MAKING ME LAUGH AGAIN  ♥ Feeling Purple Rain...Don't hold on 2 the pain, hold on 2 the memories ♥
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NeferAsetTiti said: piccolo7 said:
u knw how funny this is..... its seems like we both have been put down very badly indeed from our man like you l have been put down very bad too.....lve been hurts so many times my hearts has been broken so many times over took a long time for me to heal..... it strange to know how did he know ??? tht is one thing l love to know..... but with tht GOD has made me strong again.....he knows what lve been put thru and now l have this light to find my truelove and to bring him back to me in my heart tht who l truly missed so much ....l just wished he knows this...how much love l have for him and how much l missed him..... but someone has broke my connection.....and now l am sad and feel so alone..... Come here girlfriend
U r loved eternaly by the Most High Honor that love b/c u r beautiful If u feel alone find ur heart beat and know ur never left behind for that beat is the truth u can never be alone when love beats there and that comes from the 1 up high. when u never loose that connection u will never feel alone or be sad again!! Lets dance 2 gether n smile cuz u got so much love 2 give and when ur shinning babe u will find the 1 Just remember 2 let go of expectations or desicions on how and who it is LOVE will find u when u let go of control... I love ya chicka!!
SAVE SOME HUGS 4 ME   ♥ Feeling Purple Rain...Don't hold on 2 the pain, hold on 2 the memories ♥
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piccolo7 said: NeferAsetTiti said: Come here girlfriend
U r loved eternaly by the Most High Honor that love b/c u r beautiful If u feel alone find ur heart beat and know ur never left behind for that beat is the truth u can never be alone when love beats there and that comes from the 1 up high. when u never loose that connection u will never feel alone or be sad again!! Lets dance 2 gether n smile cuz u got so much love 2 give and when ur shinning babe u will find the 1 Just remember 2 let go of expectations or desicions on how and who it is LOVE will find u when u let go of control... I love ya chicka!!
thanks just what l needed right now mmmmm
l knw l am loved by the most high as my level with GOD is high...
awww thanks for sayin lm beautiful too
so are you my darling.....as we are all beautiful in every way inside.. ok lets us dance 2gether and smile 2gether under the pale moonlight..OF LOVE..which will bring the smile back upon my face .
for you knowing l got so so much love in my heart to give only you know..(wink).
ok here l am shinning right now full of cheer since lve been streaming tears down my face.....
ok..l will let the most high do the rest and for me letting go of my control which u will see...
hopefully LOVE will soon find me,,,,, somewhere here on earth...
l love you too
[Edited 2/6/10 13:12pm] [Edited 2/6/10 13:13pm] YES WHEN WE ARE NOT LOOKING 4 IT LOVE WILL COME I'LL WAY...I HOPE   ♥ Feeling Purple Rain...Don't hold on 2 the pain, hold on 2 the memories ♥
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poetcorner61 said: NeferAsetTiti said: Please understand it took me a lot 2 speak this forth cuz I like 2 hide in my shell I built of privacy n protection
U asked me 2 dream of u, The fact is that’s always what I do I 2 have seen u If only in my dreams When I was 7 I danced 2 ur kiss it seems I had seizures up till when Until an Angel came 2 me then Under the kitchen table we would meet When I cried from being beat I know closets all 2 well I would hide sometimes while u allowed me the comfort 2 tell My imaginary friend my story While u sang n danced our path 2 glory The moon's name is what I became Luna I was 1nce Since I was 16 and realized who u were I found a kindred and friend who did cure An abused and abandoned child 1 without a mother and father who never smiled Since I was 8 I was on my own A family and love I never had known Vulnerable after the molestations and rape At 17 I was in the club stripping 2 escape I never seemed 2 fit in Game of the paper chase I never could win I woke up n saw I was dancing so I had some control I could never make the bank ROLL Perpetual pain ensued yet it was the only place I felt safe Yet it left my life in chaos and worry only left me unsafe Making $ so I could run away I slept in my car while I pray 2 get away from the Emotional n physical abuse The foundations of my floor were built on me not having a use Taught I was worthless and taken for granted I gave my future away Every 1 I had been with in hopes could understand lead them 2 betray Like Aphrodite my heart’s purity craved 2 be made love 2 but it never felt that way No 1 could go where I am for my journey was 2 much 2 bare They never where able 2 relate or treat me with much care For the cross I had 2 bare so I would know just how Sacred I am A women’s worth is the Creators heavenly gift as it gives new life So afraid of what I never felt I could be as someone’s wife Even so vulnerable 2 say I don’t want 2 be rejected for telling the truth Of the heart-wrenching walk I took in my youth In front of the whole world 2see Will u still love me? With u all of my past is coming up I thought I let go But when love is this pure inside truth it becomes the show Can I hold my head above water like u spoke of? Now I understand the flood I’m drowning in ur love Baby some1 did put me down Real bad many times some how I will admit them all 2 u now I was 1nce 2 cool 2 say I was taught 2 do this by myself Run shut down within oneself But with u I wanna give in I trying so hard 2 stay without a battle 2 win Being open n bare I feel so fragile 2 the core all the while I don’t want 2 have 2 heal anymore What is beyond everything that’s came before The future comes 2 the shore I stick my toe in I don’t think I’m worthy for more So much shame was planted inside It’s so much easier 2 hide But I know for me 2 arrive I have 2 come out n bare it 2 be the Queen of my hive My life is about 2 change I know I am learning 2 go with ur flow Trusting the ride U n I In an empty room with no lights the candles burn 2 show every inch of a love between us that does yearn I’m scared 2 in so many ways I don’t know if I can stay But I know I will never heal again after we lay Upon the foundations of spiritual bliss Found when we decide play with our first kiss NeferAsitTiti, your "free writing" personal poem really touched me in so many ways...reminded me of my own youth in too many ways. I hope that so many things have improved for you in your life and your spiritual journey...I didn't listen to Prince's music for many years and then I started to recently and I find it both inspiring and spiritually illuminating for me...I hope the same for you and pray that your life is going well... Thumbs Up!  ♥ Feeling Purple Rain...Don't hold on 2 the pain, hold on 2 the memories ♥
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NeferAsetTiti said: Please understand it took me a lot 2 speak this forth cuz I like 2 hide in my shell I built of privacy n protection
U asked me 2 dream of u, The fact is that’s always what I do I 2 have seen u If only in my dreams When I was 7 I danced 2 ur kiss it seems I had seizures up till when Until an Angel came 2 me then Under the kitchen table we would meet When I cried from being beat I know closets all 2 well I would hide sometimes while u allowed me the comfort 2 tell My imaginary friend my story While u sang n danced our path 2 glory The moon's name is what I became Luna I was 1nce Since I was 16 and realized who u were I found a kindred and friend who did cure An abused and abandoned child 1 without a mother and father who never smiled Since I was 8 I was on my own A family and love I never had known Vulnerable after the molestations and rape At 17 I was in the club stripping 2 escape I never seemed 2 fit in Game of the paper chase I never could win I woke up n saw I was dancing so I had some control I could never make the bank ROLL Perpetual pain ensued yet it was the only place I felt safe Yet it left my life in chaos and worry only left me unsafe Making $ so I could run away I slept in my car while I pray 2 get away from the Emotional n physical abuse The foundations of my floor were built on me not having a use Taught I was worthless and taken for granted I gave my future away Every 1 I had been with in hopes could understand lead them 2 betray Like Aphrodite my heart’s purity craved 2 be made love 2 but it never felt that way No 1 could go where I am for my journey was 2 much 2 bare They never where able 2 relate or treat me with much care For the cross I had 2 bare so I would know just how Sacred I am A women’s worth is the Creators heavenly gift as it gives new life So afraid of what I never felt I could be as someone’s wife Even so vulnerable 2 say I don’t want 2 be rejected for telling the truth Of the heart-wrenching walk I took in my youth In front of the whole world 2see Will u still love me? With u all of my past is coming up I thought I let go But when love is this pure inside truth it becomes the show Can I hold my head above water like u spoke of? Now I understand the flood I’m drowning in ur love Baby some1 did put me down Real bad many times some how I will admit them all 2 u now I was 1nce 2 cool 2 say I was taught 2 do this by myself Run shut down within oneself But with u I wanna give in I trying so hard 2 stay without a battle 2 win Being open n bare I feel so fragile 2 the core all the while I don’t want 2 have 2 heal anymore What is beyond everything that’s came before The future comes 2 the shore I stick my toe in I don’t think I’m worthy for more So much shame was planted inside It’s so much easier 2 hide But I know for me 2 arrive I have 2 come out n bare it 2 be the Queen of my hive My life is about 2 change I know I am learning 2 go with ur flow Trusting the ride U n I In an empty room with no lights the candles burn 2 show every inch of a love between us that does yearn I’m scared 2 in so many ways I don’t know if I can stay But I know I will never heal again after we lay Upon the foundations of spiritual bliss Found when we decide play with our first kiss We are long before we are convinced that happiness is never to be found, and each believes it possessed by others, to keep alive the hope of obtaining it for ourselves. I Love You Friend.. See you soon | |
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