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[Edited 9/13/09 22:23pm]

Who is she?

PANDURITO said:

>the woman with the most beautiful legs than some time I had!
>the only to who I truly surrendered, for besides my ex-woman

So I take she left you AFTER you painted her portrait?

PANDURITO said:

PANDURITO said:

>no !

>i don't have to count this history, but I think also no longer I have anything to lose if i count; it will be a type of public redemption of my guilty conscience, and in that sense, ORG now is the psychiatrist's chain, the priest and the small local community where me alive.
>and you Pandurito, you will be the spring that will make me to become more transparent, clearer and for that, I thank your question; and for that, every time more i know how to be better in ORG, and to use the virtual friends as alteregos.


>it was with this portrait (3.00x 1.50)that we became lovers
>she didn't leave me.... she continues in my heart!
>i had to choose between to be with her or to say wiht my ex-wife
>my newer son had 5 years and the oldest 10; they were still children, and for them, I left the love of my life.
>i am not sorry, but it was always the sorrow of a choice that was not what Pedro wanted; he was the father that I am that chose: the responsibility of helping to grow and to educate.
>on that time, i counted to my wife that i had a serious relationship with other woman; she lasted two years ago (I was doing the master's degree in Lisbon and vineyard to home in weekends); my wife reacted frigidly and i thought that i will lose the children.
>she was always a cold woman... almost frigid I say! As all of the women, she wanted to have children to feel woman; on that time I lived with her since 83 (we went course friends in Lisbon and we lived many years together before we marry); when I decided to count the truth i understood her reaction (if it went to the opposite I don't know how i would react...);but she accepted a new opportunity; but the rift was there, and the things were never again the same ones; I was more dependent and she knew how to do to feel me guilty during the remaining years that we were married.
>after 6 years, we got divorced; and today I don't get to know if i should have told the truth, or missing with her in the red car that my love offered me when i gave her the portrait.
>therefore my car is so important for me; now it's worn-out and old... and i think that i won't get to have other relationship with other woman. I tried but I don't get; I will probably only get impassion again for a man; but no any cook(ahhhah!).I don't know if it will be like this; for already my heart lives restless divided among the memoirs (of what could have been my life) and what will be after the traumas with the women.
>but a thing is right: my feminine love will always be Tereza!

>Do you find this history a classic? I find; I that always wanted to be modern, or better, contemporary, and after all, i don't pass of a classic and basic human being

(do you get to notice my terrible English better? if it a shit that nobody gets to understand, please: translation )
[Edited 9/14/09 18:29pm]

I wish I could understand you more of the time but I like that painting.
[Edited 9/14/09 23:24pm]

That's not a story. That's a movie.
Oscar for the Best Script

I'm sorry things haven't been easy but that's life, making decisions.

You have moved me deeply with your story and the painting looks excellent, really.

Now you just have to improve your English so someone apart from Charlotte can understand you

life sucks sometimes

ZombieKitten said:

>but if i didn't have life.... she had lack of her (the life, I say...)
>the life is good, same when it seems very bad! We tolerated a lot of thing, and we learned how to tolerate more because we have the memoirs of the good moments that catch us
>the memoirs are not puppets or ornamental objects that we changed when it is better
>it's necessary care, because they have autonomy in the system
>Tereza is lives (still here in the chest) and that seems well,ace times, type when she sleeps





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