My studio is pretty out of commission until august, need some new equipment, but i have recorded vocals for my other songs but i aint showing them to nobody until
The first album is done which is now called The Suicide Handbook

heres the setlist for it so far im gonna put a status of whether its recorded,composed or only just written

1. Learn 2 Love U - Recorded
2. Forget - Recorded
3. I'm Lonely - Recorded
4. Fallen Tears - Recorded
5. Canyon City Blues - Recorded
6. Cry Of Love - Recorded
7. The Suicide Handbook - Recorded
8. Gotham City - Composed
9. This House Is Not For Sale - Recorded
10. Sometimes - Composed
11. Here Comes The Flood - Recorded
12. Ghost in the Machine - Recorded
13. When It's Over - Recorded
14. The Rum Diary - Recorded
15. Pretty Flowers - Recorded
16. Delilah - Recorded

I'll post the lyrics, some will be repost with somee revisions,
but just tell me if your feeling the words, and the melody will hopefully follow
I predict i should be done September...
im gonna use this thread to post demos etc and get some critiques etc...
I'll post some lyrics in a min

Edit: Broken Heart Boulevard has Been Changed with Gotham City, To make the album Rock a Little More
[Edited 7/20/07 15:20pm]
Second edit
Exchanged This House Is Not For Sale for Painted Roses
[Edited 7/21/07 17:22pm]
third Edit Pretty Flowers has been recorded, along wirg Cry of Love
four more songs left and its complete
[Edited 7/31/07 1:08am]
Alright Strawberry Wine was Exchanged for Here Comes The Flood
[Edited 8/19/07 3:21am]

Learn 2 Love You

Verse 1
We docked on the shore of emotion
bridge of love at our side
Built on those rocky foundations
that never survived

Verse 2
this flame of honey fades so slowly
at night when your feeling cold
come, lay your head on my shoulder
as the final wind begins to blow

hook
But i could never ever learn to love you
the way that you want me
I could never ever learn to touch you
the way that you need me
My own fashion will never satisfy
Just wasted passion bringing tears to your eyes
Tears to your eyes...
And i could never learn to love you....
and I'm tired of trying...

Verse 3
Tonight It's just me and this pencil
under that floating drift of sky
Where you'll be watching and waiting
just wondering why

Verse 4
Only words i write on these pages
can ease the pound of my weary heart
you'll always wish to be the paper
where my feelings are always carved

Hook
But i could never ever learn to love you
the way that you want me
I could never ever learn to touch you
the way that you need me
My own fashion will never satisfy
Just wasted passion bringing tears to your eyes
Tears to your eyes...
And i could never learn to love you....
and I'm tired of trying...
But i could never ever learn to love you
the way that you want me
I could never ever learn to touch you
the way that you need me
i could never ever learn kiss you
the way that you see me
I could never ever learn to fuck you
The way you need me
I could never ever learn to love you...
the way you want me
And I'm tired of trying...

Ghost In The Machine

Verse 1
Stumbled into the bedroom like a ghost into the fog,
One night of passion just ends in a morning sob.
Acid thoughts of past lovers burning through my head,
The dew of last nights heat still lurks upon my bed.

Verse 2
Back here in the wayward stumble of my disarray,
Hidden behind yesterdays pleasure, away from all the pain.
Was a ghost lurking 'round the edge of a broken mirror,
Showing me the image of a parallel universe.

Verse 3
I look into that mirror, in pieces shattered on the floor.
7 years of bad luck, haunted by the image it had shown.
Watching courtships present, past and below.
Saw history's cycle unravel and unfold.

Verse 4
One step towards the unknown the other towards common sense.
Each step taken has been seized in pretense,
'Cause the skin that wraps around me was never my own,
It belonged to the ghost, breathing within my bones.

Verse 5
Blue lights from the city and I'm transparent like the rain,
Still the ghost follows me like an angel seeking fame.
On the rooftop i faced east, Taunted by the west wind.
I felt the king lurking from within...

Verse 6
The wind blew me into a puddle, naked on the floor,
Thats when the ghost leaped in for my soul.
Gave me the wings that i've longed to embraced,
And under the ghost's shadow, emerged my fathers face.

Ghost in the Machine...

Cry of Love

Verse 1
Baby do you remember that evening
when i said your lips tasted like home
Under soft woven melodies,darlin
i made you scream, i made you moan

Verse 2
Back when I was that prototype,
of what you needed in a man, child
But all thats gone now girl
And i hope you understand

Chorus
I'm sick and tired of all those lies
coming from the shadows of your face
watching all those tears of fire
burn me , when you cried my name
I'm tired of these letters
you've written carelessly
I'm tired of this desolate bed
So many times where i made you scream

Verse 3
Remember when i first saw you, baby
Dancing under seeps of moonlight
In that humid heat of june,
You were the spider and i was the fly

Verse 4
Gently luring me inside
your web of insanity
Another heart you've stolen, girl
'Nother victim of you're inhumanity,

Verse 5
Now this guitar is weepin, Baby
With a cry of love,
Only sound that comforts me
only sound i think of
the only sound that makes
me feel wanted again
Close your eyes girl
It'll wash away your sin
Here me

Chorus

Pretty Flowers

Hook 1
All the pretty flowers,
All the pretty flowers,
Live in New York,
In New York.

Hook 2
They flaunt cotton dresses,
And their long golden tresses,
All In New York,
New York.

Verse 1
Blue eyes flying high,
Within the wilds of the city,
They bloom under streetlights,
Walk around oh so pretty.

Verse 2
'Neath this garden of flowers,
Lie poisoned memories,
Where fathers lay with their daughters,
And Mothers lie with amphetemines.

Hook 1
Yes, All the pretty flowers,
All the pretty flowers,
Live in New York,
In New York.

Hook 3
If you pick a flower,
Your heart will be devoured,
All in New York,
In New York.

Verse 3
A kingdom of painted souls,
With painted smiles, painted faces.
Together they sleep alone,
Under the whim of God's grace's.

Verse 4
Behind each smile lies a frown,
And a story to be told.
Oh, just look how they walk around!
Sold their soul to the god of material.

(all three hooks repeated)


All abandoned flowers...
Live in New York.

Delilah

Verse 1
Little Delilah
Why are you running away?
Away through those empty streets
Pelted by the swollen rain
Pelted by the swollen rain

Verse 2
Gently flowing
As winter turns to spring
Cocaine fields and whiskey dreams
Sifting through the memories
Sifting through the memories

Verse 3
Dreaming slowly
Dream that it's snowing in heaven
That Angels from montgomery
Cry from the lives they've led
Cry from the lives they've led

Verse 4
Little Delilah
You ran away from me
Born on a field of Dandelions
Died under a poppy tree
Died under a poppy tree

\When It's Over

Verse 1
I left your photograph
by a glass of miss lynch
on a silver table
Wine spilt all over your face
as they utter your name
like a forgotten fable

Pre-chorus
I never learnt how to love
for that i'm sorry
for the sorrow i made you dream of
For that im sorry

Hook
and it burns with the thaw of summer
Froze stone cold with the frost of winter
In my bed i wait,
for that gentle embrace
that comes from you and not another
But the walls in this room know that its over
the sketches you drew weep that its over
When its over...

Verse 2
Walked down through strawberry fields
to hear the night birds sing
The sweetest melodies
The ones that i use to sing
So obliviously
saying i was sorry

pre chorus
You thought you could teach me to love
do you feel sorry?
For the time that was so ill spent
was that your folly?

Hook 2
And it burns with the thaw of summer
froze stone cold with the frost of winter
when the light falls dead
through the curtains to the bed
that still has your warmth left over
turning cold cause it knows its over
By that glass where my wine spilt over
when it's over...

Outro
I watch the window and listen for the sound of cars
I can't remember the last time that it was yours
I taught you how to feel, why do you feel numb
They taught us how to feel, but we just feel numb

She falls apart in the avalanche
Fades out like a dance
Crawls back into bed
When it's over
When it's over
When it's over
When it's over

I'm Lonely

Verse 1
Well the sun has fallen
I give myself to the pouring rain
With it wild in my mind like a deserts pyre
in my heart you still remain
And all the while i reminisce
Of the dewy sweetness of your kiss
still i sit back and say i'll see you again...

Verse 2
could some one help me rise above
this flood in my heart
Cause now I'm drowning
from the weeks we've spent apart
The roof is falling from above my bed
and I'm trapped with your image under my head
Dying of a collision from where our roads part


Hook
And I'm still lonely
with your scent stained on my coat
I'm still lonely
As i wait beside the phone
I'm still lonely
Trapped in this prison i can't fight
I'm lonely
thinking of you tonight

Verse 3
Now I'm 19 walking alone
Under the bridge at midnight
listening to the thunder moan
an agony only my soul defines
And i spent the night on Faithless Street
beside the bed where our two roads meet
The city groans with the notes of your beautiful sigh

Hook
And I'm still lonely
with your scent stained on my coat
I'm still lonely
As i wait beside the phone
I'm still lonely
Trapped in this prison i can't fight
I'm lonely
thinking of you tonight

Bridge
and all the lies that i've serenaded
are under this bridge which ties the pain
of two welted hearts in the heat of the insane
In rags i walk where god is sleeping
in frission city where all are weeping
yet the tidings burnt in my heart still bear your name

Verse 4
The night has fallen
I give myself to the pouring rain
with it wild in my mind like my spirits pyre
In my heart you still remain
Still the roof is falling from above my head
My blood has spilt upon the bed
but i still still sit back and say i'll see you again

Hook

Fallen Tears

Verse 1
Woke up this morning from an evenings slumber
and i all i can hear is your name
shadowed whispers spoken through my bedroom
I shiver like a ghost alone in the rain

I never wanted anything more than a life
inflamed by you
I never wanted anything more than a love
Inflamed by you

Chorus
After the tears have fallen
i feel Im right by your side
Seven days of bad dreams calling me
and still i long for your smiles
Now that your heart is broken
and mines is mending your stain
i shall wait for another hurricane
to spin me up and again
spin me up again

Verse 2
There are two roads in this path before me
and i feel i can never see you again
My heart froze when i saw you holding him
Thats when the ink flew from this pen

II never wanted anything more than a life
inflamed by you
I never wanted anything more than a love
Inflamed by you

Chorus
After the tears have fallen
i feel Im still right by your side
Seven days of bad dreams calling me
and still i weep for your eyes
Now that your heart is broken
and mines is mending your stain
i'll wait for another hurricane
to spin me up and again
spin me up again

Verse 3
Its 5 A.M. sunday, i feel my agony in the rain
Each drop sublets my inner feelings
of how i think of you time and again
I still swing on pendulums of your torment
I still sway in the ocean of your scent
circumvent...
Every image graced by your beautiful face
But as i write this final adieu
i feel your haunting embrace
Do i have to tell the story
of a thousand rainy days since we first met
(after the tears have fallen)
It's a big enough umbrella
but its always me that ends up getting wet...
(after the tears have fallen down)
(Repeat until fade)

The Suicide Handbook

(Verse 1)
Running deep in the rabbit hole
i see its hard to find myself
trying to keep a grip of my soul
I reach for the memories on my shelf

(Verse 2)
Take a needle then inject a vein
start to feel my pupils dissolve
into the waves of the spanish main
where the visions of you revolve


(Pre- chorus)
Born from the words of change
that you bathed me in day and night
yes I know that people are strange
but you girl are a parasite

(Chorus)
Given 7 loves, 7 Dreams, 7 Lives
I'll write a suicide handbook
for the lovers that breathed in your lies
i write this suicide handbook

(Verse 3)
The overflow of this glass of wine
is spilt on the coaster of your lips
showing wasted tears through a drunks eyes
But still craving that deceitful kiss

(Verse 4)
Let the tongue of the blade lick my wrist
and watch your sorries spill on the table
My body numb, watch it turn and twist
writing you this suicide handbook

(Pre--chorus 2)
Born from your selfish flame
that burnt the writings on this page
i could never play your game
so what other incentive remains?

(Chorus 2)
given 7 loves, 7 dreams 7 lives
i write this suicide handbook
one for your lovers, who soon will cry
I'll write this suicide handbook

Sometimes

Verse 1
Stop sign, indecision
your stuck in the middle of an empty highway
you see the star-shine, all around
your revving the engine as you begin to fade away
Into the distance, controlled happiness
you free the pill and think "how could this be bliss"

Verse 2
Grey skies, Vibrations
of a familiar evening, that never seems to go away
eyes of neptune, temptation
of shattered feelings from when i told you i couldn't stay
to mend that broken heartbeat within your chest
to kiss those weary shoulders, i wish to caress

(hook 1)
and Sometimes
I hear the demons that still cry
sometimes
i feel my spirit begin to die
Sometimes
just at the mercy of the wind
in your currents i will spin
forever between love...


Verse 3
Son of ares , blue morning
confused emotions as i ease myself from bed
tender looks from the mirror
just a mirage in the corner haunting my weary head
why did i leave, why did you stay?
Why did i act with such dismay?

(hook 2)
Sometimes
i feel my eyes begin to drown
sometimes
i feel im lost, when your found
sometimes
no matter what has been done
forever ever i will run
Forever between love

(hook 1 reprise)

verse 4
road shops in the distance
you stop into see the weird exchange
just a subject, in a freak world
"thank you sir, here's your change"
I hear the lullaby, down on seventh street
and its saying where do i go from here
where do you go when your lonely
Perhaps i'll follow you there...

The Rum Diary

Verse 1
The cuffs were on me
Had the inscribings of misery
Tattooed on my wayward tongue
As i was pushed into the scene

Verse 2
My eyes are glazed over
They're splitting into double vision
Twin demons give me nightmares
While im locked in this prison

Hook
And then you will read...
A chapter of this diary
sitting here drunk in a cell
hearing your voice taunting me
And then you will see
The dewy eyed misery
Linked to all your lovers here...
In this rum diary

Verse 3
For days you fed me honey
To try to sweeten my blackheart
For weeks you called me a liar
stole my soul, then tore it apart

Verse 4
I made you a bridge of roses
But you wouldn't pantomime
Knocked it down like an avalanche
It hurt me so bad,think i died

Hook 2
And then you will read
a chapter of this diary
Sitting drunk in the middle of nowhere
i hear your voice taunting me
And then you will see
That bitter sweet misery
You will cower in fear
reading this rum diary

I want to be free...
From the rum diary
I wan't to be free...
from your misery...
i wan't to be free

Canyon City Blues

Verse 1
Woke up this morning
there was i calm i can’t explain
Not a star along the horizon
a sight i just can't contain

verse 2
Next stop Canyon City
The place where i was born
7 years upon this day
still Can't find what im searching for

Hook
you can walk away from a sunday afternoon
and rise to the fall of a melancholy moon
2 tears a pick, an empty bottle of her perfume
Strumming along with these canyon city blues
Canyon city blues

Tell me...

Canyon City Blues

verse 3
7 years have passed now
since my wandering affair
a child should live with his mother
and a father should live in solitaire


verse 4
Now Im look into the distance
as choose a star for my daughter
that guides all my fallen kisses
like a rose flowing through water


chorus

verse 5
Driving down an empty throughway
with my johnny walker black
watching memories in my mirror
strapped with a tombstone on my back

verse 6
turned my back to this city
ran a thousand miles away
but each and every moment
i find myself back in this place

Bridge
Don't wanna waste no time...
don't wanna shed no tears
all these mountains i climb
and this is the collison of all my fears
tell me is it a crime?
for a man to be so unclear
burnt by the face of time
in this collision of the year


verse 7
so i here i am at the crossroads
and there i see my wife
new husband and new daughter
no tears, no fears, in her way of life

verse 8
upon this cloudy morning
the sun brings golden skies
a weapy eyed boy in a cell of confusion
haunted by tainted memories of his life

Canyon city...
oh oh m canyon city blues

Forget

Verse 1
I was somewhere at the edge of town
watching the Hudson flow to the Sound
Thats where i saw her.
Picking lilac up from the ground
Then 8 Monthes fell down a well of misery
With my joy perched on the horizon
Just sitting there mocking me
knowing i'll never find her

But I'll never forget her...
I won't forget her....

(Verse 2)
I bought her a ring, then made her a tear
and left her here all alone
Was it my ego or was it my fear
That lead me away from my home
Walking through these shadowed lands
of this sky blue Mannahatta
Left A beautiful girl, A beautiful plan
and i still haven't found what i'm after

(Breakdown)
and i saw her at the edge of town
where we made love by that Sound
Where the hudson was slowly flowing
Where my memories will be going
(repeat)

I can't forget her
Forgetting is not the answer,,,

i'll post the wrest later, but yah
isn't this gonna be a sad bastard album lol

I remember some of these....it really is what "you said".... lol

I've missed your music....nice to see you're still workin' on it...
[Edited 7/16/07 20:21pm]

Yah it is essentially a Suicide Handbook,
I'll be honest, the whole album is a take off of Ryan Adams double LP Love IS Hell, Which is probably the saddest bastard album on the planet,
I love it though, and its great for rainy days and i wante dthis one to reflect that.

The music leans towards alternative, lightly kisses country and rocks when needed...
Including a bit of all my influences From Prince, Sting to Ryan
And a tinge of Counting Crows specially on learn 2 Love U,
As soon as im done recording, and the copyright goes through, i'll start posting songs
For free of course,
but if ya wanna give a brotha a dolla, i'll take it
And if you're in New York you can probably catch me giggin round startin September.

I haven't heard all of Ryan's album, only bits and pieces...
it's not usually my type of music...but then again, a sad,
brooding album sometimes fits my moods, so it's not like
I never appreciate songs like that....good for a "rainy day"
like you say...

I'll be looking forward to hearing your songs, and as far as
New York goes, I don't live anywhere close, and I've only
visited once so far...good to hear that you'll be giggin' though.

obsessed said:

Check that album out
hell i'll give ya the mp3s if ya want
if you don't love him after that album, you got no soul
Its' raining in NY and im listening to it now

shame your not near, maybe sometime... sometimes

EmbattledWarrior said:

OK, I'll take a closer listen...
No need to send it to me....but thanks, I appreciate the offer.
If I don't like him however, you have to promise me that you
won't accuse me of not having a soul.... lol

It may be a while before I get back to you on that...I'm
out of here for a few days..

Funny, it's raining here too....

obsessed said:

Y O U H A V E N O S O U L ! ! ! ! ! ! !
...
JK lol
its cool

Hey its cool, differen't strokes rule the world, i'm not one of those pretentious turds that likes to force music onto people ...
Ok maybe i am...
but i won't do that to you. lol

its depressing

"This House Is Not For Sale"(cover)

Tell 'em that the house is not for sale
We're still livin' here, how come nobody can tell
They're takin' all the furniture, movin' our things
Come on little honey, put your head on my knee
Tell 'em that the house is not for sale
And calm down, calm down, calm down
Calm down, calm down, calm down

Do you remember when we even bought this thing?
I danced you across the wooden floor and you signed the lease
What happened in the car that night?
What happened in the car that night?
Tell 'em that the house is not for sale
And calm down, calm down, calm down
Calm down, calm down, calm down
Calm down

Tell 'em that the house is not for sale
We could grab a couple sheets, yeah, give 'em quite a scare
I remember lyin' on the bedroom floor
You were holding me, little honey, kissin' my soul
Tell 'em that the house is not for sale
And calm down, calm down, calm down
Calm down, calm down, calm down
Calm down
Calm down

LittleLostStar said:

That's the point

EmbattledWarrior said:

Well, you didn't force it on me.... lol

I told you I would listen didn't I? And I usually keep my word.... lol

Actually, I'm really liking this album.....would shedding some tears
qualify as "having a soul"?

Seriously, I really like this....his voice....I really love his voice...

The music, the lyrics....beautiful, haunting, sad, and yes, depressing,
at times.... and sometimes it's all those things at once.....

obsessed said:

Told ya ...
If you get my stuff,
it's almost impossible for you not to get his, or at least that one album.

So glad you liked it

EmbattledWarrior said:

I don't quite know why, but I'm getting a chuckle out of your "Told ya..." lol

Anyway,I won't even pretend to understand yours, his, or anyones music completely..
because I always think the artist him/herself has more going on in his mind.

But I do comprehend it enough to appreciate it....

Right now I'm listening to track 11, and it definitely brings tears to my eyes...

obsessed said:

Yah *please do not let me go*
one of my favs

you're gonna get a surprise when you hit 16 lol
[Edited 7/23/07 14:22pm]

EmbattledWarrior said:

"Hotel Chelsea Nights"...another definite tear-jerker...

Love that guitar about mid-way in the song....

Mmmmm, just saw the new bit you added to your sig...

Enough already.... lol