Frustrated Blue 15/7/07

I dont know how to proceed
How i am to satisfy this need
This yearning inside
From myself i can seldom hide

Tempted into knee jerk responses to my situation
Further enforcing my disintegration
Trapped within this feeling
There seems to be no ceiling

Hearing yet unable to believe
Its myself its hardest to deceive
I reach for more toxicity
In this life without electricity

With a body wracked with concern
What to do i m unable to discern
Destruction riotous within
Lost without knowing where to begin

No one to confide to
Deep continuous frustrating blue
Alone in this vortex
My only friend now enemy sex