My World

If And Would 19/02/07

If the sky was purple
And U believed in God
Would U stay a while
If i cried from when i did n't believe
And all i had was pain
Would U think i had style

If the tears are real and they wont stop
And the dove will never return
Would it touch your heart
If i could never learn 2 love
And all i wanted was U
Would U have the sense 2 depart

If i said i was reborn
And God knew it was so
Would U believe in me
If i was a blessed man who lived success
And i had the world at my feet
Would that be all you'd see

If we fell in love
And cherubs danced in our Souls
Would U remember the world was still there
If it told U your foolish
And it wont last
Would U have the strength 2 not care

If U asked me 2 explain but i could n't
And this filled U with doubt
Would U turn away
If i said it comes in Gods time
And U did n't understand
Would u still stay
-----

Glass 2 Flesh Soul 2 Death 19/02/07

The transparent shard from the floor
Felt good 2 her opaque core
Her adolescence was confusing
A legacy of undiagnosed bruising

Glass 2 flesh soothing relief
An action born from distorted belief
Emotions coiled tight around unknowing
But the scars are surely growing

What makes her do these things
A broken Soul sings
I wish she 'd hold herself tight
Love herself 2 the get it right

2 the world i say...

Can a childs heart heal
When an adolescents life is 2 hard 2 feel
And adulthood comes so fast
Never having time 2 deal with the past

So i 'll say this prayer 4 her
That 4 U i care
2 carry so much pain is unfair
So your burden i will share

_____

Pretty Girl 19/02/07

She can be a strange girl
The kind U want 2 hold
She aint weird or unusual
She's just believed what the world told

She makes choices born from her past
When things did n't go her way
But she's so pretty and nice
Love will come and it 'll stay

Her diffidence belies what she has
A stranger see s beauty inside and out
When she see s this 4 herself
She'll be free from self doubt

So if U get 2 hold this girl make her your own
She has all that U need
Take care of her, cherish her
And know love comes 2 those that believe

Hey pretty girl
Its not always good 2 use humour
Sometimes U go 2 taste bitter
2 truly appreciate the sweet

_____

Swerve And Run 19/02/07

He 's running around the estates
Looking 2 score his dates
From the boys he used 2 scorn
Now calling them mates

The estate attitude
All about misplaced gratitude
The street instinct keeping him on his feet
Cruel brutal survival,sweet

He's lived the life of crime
Habituated 2 doing the time
He cant go straight all he knows is 2 swerve
Telling himself they get what they deserve

He knows 2 play the game
Deny pain deny shame, exact the blame
Whats the world ever done 4 him
Surely its God that's committed the sin

He'll live with distorted feelings
In a culture of double dealings
He'll live and die this way
It's just the way it'll play

_____

Imagine 19/02/07

Imagine the most beautiful rainbow
Set in the most colourful garden
With a mother holding her new born child
It's how i feel when i hold U

Imagine if U was Gods favourite
And angels surrounded U with love
As the world gave U all U wanted
It's how i feel when i hold U

Imagine your wildest fantasies
When your free 2 be anything U want 2 be
And U know something beyond thought
It's how i feel when i hold U

Imagine U can cure all the worlds ills
Your smile can make a lame man stand
Your words can stop the grief of a broken heart
It's how i feel when i hold U

She's strawberries and cream
The best i ever seen
She's hot chocolate fudge cake
It's her i want 2 bake
She's the food of my life
And it's her i want 2 make my wife

_____

Heading Home 19/02/07

Everyday that i breathe, that i dont believe
Am i heading home
Or am i foolishly blind, in a confused mind
Feeling alone

Where lies the answer 2 my question
Maybe with a beautiful girls affection
Maybe in an as yet undiscovered embrace
Maybe being top dog in the rat race

4 me i don't know
Is it i just reap what i sow
2 much spun, 2 much undone
Maybe better days are mine 2 come

4 now i have 2 survive
Struggling 2 find a way 2 find alive
Whats inside will direct the way
Personality getting me through the day

I'll try 2 foster pride and esteem
Each day fighting 4 my dream
2 know that i have grown
That i'm truly heading home

_____

Words Of My Heart 19/02/07

Baby can't U see he's clipped your wings
U could be the queen of all things
Beauty has touched your Soul and skin
But U live from the darkness trapped within

It's said we all live under the same sky
Yet your blessed with the ability 2 fly
But brutality has corrupt your reality
Distortion created your denial

Maybe my words are wrong but my intentions are right
I just want U 2 find the courage 4 your fight

Lisa he wont release ya
U gotta up and leave
No matter what, no going back
In yourself U gotta believe

I know he's my friend 2
But right now i'm thinking of U
Fear has kept U 2 together 4 so long
Perpetuating on both sides whats wrong

It's gone 2 far, U cant heal together
Yet U don't have the strength 2 be apart
U both need 2 let go, make the break
These are the words of my heart

_____

Them Fools 19/02/07

Them fools don't care
Them fools don't dare
They'll mock another
Whilst pretending their his brother

You'll see them every day
Them fools need another way
They'll mock a man 4 coming undone in a world so cruel
Tell me who's the fool

So why we let them fools in power
Trading their hate
Fatalistic fools believing it's fate
Apathy awake, it's not 2 late

Where's my leader at
A leader with a pure heart
With integrity that will never depart

Why so many wanna be the mans bitch
Anyone wanna stand up and say fuck U
Come on say fuck U
With your shit i discontinue

Together we can stand strong
Them fools had the power 2 long
We'll send the man with his fate and his hate
Back 2 the darkness where they relate

_____

The Nevada Hustle 19/02/07

She was thirteen when she begun
One of seventy percent on the run
One of the gaming girls in the bars
On the Nevada hustle living her scars

Nevada blues where girls wear big shoes
Where the pimp dates the pro s
And sing karaoke
And that's the way it goes

Partying 4 twelve hours a time
The bell rings and she'll come stand in line
She's making money and committing no crime
So she'll tell you she's doing fine

Nevada blues where girls wear big shoes
Where the pimp dates the pro s
And they sing karaoke
And thats the way it goes

She still provides 4 a family that did n't care
Her old man on the couch saying it's not fair
Mum saying nothing, she dont dare
While she'll carry on with a Soul stripped bare

Nevada blues where girls wear big shoes
Where the pimp dates the pro s
And they sing karaoke
And thats the way it goes

Nevada blues can be so cruel
But she'll be no 1 elses fool

_____

Unrequited 19/02/07

How do i keep U from my mind
Cos whenever i close my eyes it's U i find
Deep and shallow your there
You 're my dream and my nightmare

I long 4 what we never had
And yeah i know U think me sad
And yeah i know U think me old
But on U i'm sold

I wanted U as my lover
U wanted me as a surrogate brother
And now i sit here thinking of U
Knowing i've been broke in 2

It's hard 2 picture your face
Without missing your embrace
U think me strange as we spent so little time together
But it went deep, i'd waited 4 U forever

So now i have 2 move on beyond this song
Knowing i'll be thinking of U before long
Its life, i could'nt handle being your friend
So i'll heal trying not 2 offend

_____

Music And Tears 19/02/07

If i had secrets from the life i used 2 lead
Would U still say it was i that U need
Come with me we'll move with our heart
Then stay with me my forever tart

Close your eyes and fill your senses with me
Have the courage 2 see what i need U 2 be
Beauty and depth beyond regret
2 the world U have no debt

Do U know love my keeper of trust
Can U forsake rogue lust
Words and thoughts i'll give 2 U
Stop stop stop
Demonic devil U make me 2

Understand belief leaves me 2 stand cold
Removed from what the fools are sold
I am nature they are art
Things of difference rarely start

Music and tears release fears
Freeing my mind of the years

_____

The Past 2 Present 19/02/07

I kept everything locked in tight so long
Unable 2 acknowledge where i went wrong
Going round in circles unsure
Aware something was wrong needing a cure

It's my sensitive side i tried 2 hide
It was misplaced pride
So many times i just lied
Got angry when i should have cried

U know all my life everyone up and left
So much taken pure theft
But worse than that i failed 2 see
2 misinterpret what the world was showing me

U have 2 be strong 2 get ahead
Fight the world fight yourself till your dead
Yet take time 2 let go
Just be careful who U show

2 those that should have been there i say 2 U
Where was U when i was broke in 2
When i most needed someone 2 care
When i needed someone 2 guide me from despair

_____

Disconnection 19/02/07

Disconnected from all
Yet i'm polite
I'm lost
What do i do with this insight

All i meet know who i am
I wish i could see that man
People judge me thinking themselves wise
Them fools i despise

My depth is my liability
But 2 deny what i am is stupidity
My time has died
But its legacy is how i'm identified

I keep asking 4 something within
Hoping change will begin
But all i have are tears and regret
And a past i cant forget

I talked so much
Fuck it became my crutch
Constantly venting my spleen
Somnambulating through my dream

Dam i cant give this song a happy end
Say 2 the world i'm on the mend
So i'll say something random
Like 1 day we'll be in tandem

_____

Lost Out 19/02/07

U think me disturbed
I think i'm perturbed
Why cant we see it the same way
I just want U 2 stay

Everytime i say it's what U do
U say it's because of U
So how we gonna make it right
Losing this desire 2 fight

I've loved U 4 so long
It does n't seem right it's gone wrong
Each time U up and leave
I find it harder 2 believe

I'll write but u wont read
How am i supposed 2 plant this seed
It's me i want U 2 need
But i cant get U 2 take heed

So is it the end
U wont be my lover i cant be your friend
How do i let go when i dont want 2
Even though it's all i need 2 do

_____

How 19/02/07

How do i know what 2 do
How do i know 2 trust in U
If it's only my past i see
How am i ever gonna believe in me

I suggest you'll start playing the game
4 your life it'll be me U blame
With consistence U chose the road of least resistance
So why am i responsible 4 your existence

The truth can seem so cold
And courage can be so hard 2 hold
But dont take this the wrong way
It's with U i want 2 stay

I want us 2 foster strength together
Learning 2 live clever
Putting down blame putting down shame putting down pain
Until only authenticity remain, the true game

Me and my optimistic spirituality
Shame it aint the same as reality
Internal and external will always be 2
Leaving me empty, how bout U

_____

Christopher 19/02/07

He thinks in the abstract
He aint white and he aint black
He's just got Soul
That needs 2 achieve its goal

He'll sing a song
About being right when he's wrong
But dont misjudge or misplace
The importance of this man in the human race

He knows the colours Purple and Cream
He knows it aint always the way it seems

He believes in a Higher Power
He knows the value of a flower
Listen 2 this man through his microphone
Dont look back you've just grown

Do i think 2 much of this man
A mesmerised groupie a foolish fan
Or does he represent 2 me
Loving showing what i fail 2 see

He knows the colours Purple and Cream
He knows it aint always the way it seems
_____

AOL Love 7/3/07

I just want your heart
But anxiety has me not knowing where 2 start
And i know i dont even know U yet
Now i wonder if these words i'll regret

I'm shit and a fool
And i see U looking so cool
Your so beautiful yet so far away
Not just location but in every way

U got me feeling inferior
Thinking i'll never meet the criteria
I always look 2 the top it's where i want 2 be
Anything else i fail 2 see

So now i need 2 know how 2 proceed
Keep my distance or follow this need
I hope this dont embarrass myself or U
But i'm consumed i dont know what 2 do

So do U think U inspire me
Tell me what it is that U see
A psycho getting attached 2 quick
Or a romantic fool love sick
_____

Wihes 19/3/07

Blow my brain with emotion
One day i'll meet devotion
She'll come my way and make me cry
And when i'm restless she'll be my lullaby

But now i'm feeling sad
Knowing i'm missing what i never had
And this emotion is pre-pubescent
But i could'nt show this heart when adolescent

I write these words 2 show this girl
That i need her 4 my life 2 unfurl
But 4 now i'll be in touch from a distance
Praying soon there s no more resistance

Maybe i've met the girl, maybe its U
The first girl i've shown this 2
I wrote 4 U once before
A reaction 2 U touching my core

Teardrops with emotion are mine
Its how my life meets the Divine
I can sense beauty everywhere
Moments with U i long 2 share

_____

Me 19/3/07

Me and my dad
Me and my mum, me and my son
Me and my brother
Me and my lover

It makes me sad when i think of what i never had
Mine was gone

Words fall from a heaven that dont exist
I'm being drawn 2 a God i cant resist
My desire necessitates the delusion
Alone in my world of self seclusion

The depth of despair
The place i dont care
Division within, spawned from sin
Day 2 day not knowing where 2 begin

Its not sin, its not Him
Its what i was told that did unfold
Confused and bemused, born from abused
Nothing new, always used

Shayne

Ya lost me a bit in some places as
i dont really read so much in one sitting....
so this is a real wordy workout for me...

Excellent pool of thought i thought...

leaving me with only one thing left to say:

..and what happened the next day?

and just wondering....
Do you belong to a writers club of sorts, i've seen a
few on the internet or is this you enjoy passing your time... ?

Hey...i slept 4 a bit the next day!! I dont belong 2 writers clubs or anything like , i just done some writing spontaneously!!
Thanks 4 taking the time 2 read, n 2 comment, its appreciated..
Have a good 1...

groovyiau said:

Actually, you've done some nice work here.....hope your dream
comes true about working with a musician....maybe you should take
a look at this thread.....I think JDobson is looking for artists of
every kind for his project, poets included.


http://www.prince.org/msg...0097?&pg=1

Sounds like you're definitely working out some emotions...hope the
poetry is helping with that.

Hey...thanks 4 taking the time 2 read my writing , and 4 the link..have a good 1

obsessed said:

What beautiful writing - WOW!
Enjoyed reading all your pieces
Really loved My World & Imagine
- ur writing is a gift!

Hey...i thank U 4 taking the time 2 read my writing and 4 your generous comment..have a good 1

269 said: