Just kinda poured out of me this morning...
couldn't stop my eyes from swellling while writing it
hope u like it

Dear Daddy

(Verse 1)
Mid indian summer, 1999
You were searching for something,
You'd never ever find,
Leaving behind a wife and child,
For your peace of mind,
No letters , no phone calls
Just a wedding band left behind.
They say you were sick,
Or were you just confined?
To a life you never wanted,
Did you see that in my eyes?

(Breakdown 1)
But you always tried,
To teach me right from wrong,
When i wanted to die,
You'd tell me boy live on,
But then your here one minute
Then in another your gone
Please Daddy
Come Home...

(Chorus)
Daddy do you love me?
Lord, Why are you gone?
in the night do you wish,
That condom never broke?
was i a mistake?
you'd have to live on?
Dear Daddy, Come home...

(Verse 2)
Every christmas morning,
you use to come by,
make a snowman with me,
the you would apologize,
were they just lies?
to keep me from crying?
a solemn disguise,
Daddy theirs no denying
that your my bed of roses.
left out in the cold,
the thorns running wild,
prick me when i try to get close,
Sometimes i wish,
you were something more than a ghost,
Dear daddy Come home.

(Breakdown 2)
You always make me cry,
When you leave at dawn,
Didn't even say goodbye,
Just left with memories foregone
What's your price for love?
Daddy how much does it cost?
must i sell my soul?
to receive the love i want?
please daddy, come home

(Chorus)
Dear Daddy, Do you love me
why are you gone?
in the night do you wish
that condom never broke
was i a mistake?
Can you hear this song?
If I'm a good boy?
will you come back home?
Dear daddy...
why you leave me alone?

do u play an istrument babe?

he plays keyboards....man that is deep. the one thing I know is that when u live longer and go through some things yourself, a lot of things u did not understand about your dad will make more sense later on in life.

Some days our feelings rush from us and we can't contain them any longer.
I feel your pain.

i thought he played guitar, because i remember him posting tips on my guitar site. great post btw.

i apologize though, after having seen you post tips on my threads for me, i always thought you were female

I play the keys and guitar, and no im not a female, but i get that alot... i'm very feminem on the net lol
But i'm prolly gonna leave this song for acoustic setupt, keys and guitars, minimal percussion,
wrote while listening to Ryan Adams "Dear John, feat Norah Johns...
and i dunno i just thought of my father while listening to it, had it on the loop
started bawling and writing.
i never fullt written an acoustic peice before, i think since this is an emotional piece im gonna take the time to tweak this one, until im fully satisfied with it.
so don't expect an instrumental anytime soon,
but thanks all for your comments,
and Tal i know what u mean, and sometimes i do understand...
but other times i don't
its like being torn from my two selves, The Child and The Man...
oddest feeling in the world

Hmmm, I can feel your pain, it must be very hard having a dad like that. Hope you'll be able to get around it one day, or even better, come to terms with him and be able to build a true relation with your dad! Wishing you all the best...