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"Jussie Smollett wanted to become the Rosa Parks of Gay Black Men, but instead he became the Rosie Ruiz."
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PennyPurple said: 37 years ago today, I lost my beautiful, loving, 62 year grandma to suicide by gun.
Jesus Penny, I'm so sorry for these losses. I can't even imagine what you've been through. "Like books and BLACK LIVES, Albums still MATTER."
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I'm lucky I've never lost anyone to suicide. There was a family friend but I was too young back then. But there was one case in my hometown this year that was really shocking. I mean, everyone in town knew about it. Because a 26 year old man stood on a construction crane. But he didn't jump right away, he was up there for 11 hours. What shocked me the most was that some people went there on purpose just to see the man up there. Like, why the fuck would you want to see that? Jesus, some people. The man died but no one knows if he jumped or if he fell, since people who were there said the Crain started to move and then he "fell". The saddest part was that his sister was there, trying to get him down. I've got two siblings and just the thought of losing one of them in such a way makes me sick to the stomach. So my thoughts about suicide are that it's not a solution (I'm not talking about people with cancer or something) I know some would argue that emotional pain can be as bad as physical pain, but depression is not like cancer. Yes it's bad but therapy can help. Look, I've got nerve damage for almost three years now and I've yet to find a therapy. Sometimes I lay in bed all day cause it's so bad. And I suffer from panic attacks and this summer was hell cause my doctor wanted me to take a higher dosage of the pills I had. This made my panic attacks way worse to a point were I could not eat or drink, it felt like my body was shutting down. It was the lowest I've ever been. But I got through it, yeah there was a point were I wanted to smash my head on the wall but I got through it. And sometimes people think they can't do that, but it can work, it really can. I know exactly how mental illness can affect a person, and I know a whole lot about chronic pain too. But there's always more ways to go than just one. Suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem. I know I won't suffer from the panic attacks forever, I'm working on it daily, hell I've got a therapist and a coach, I'll fight with everything I've got to never experience the shit I've been through this summer. I know I can go back to the point were I didn't have these attacks. I wasn't born with this, they been triggert by a trauma. Another story was a girl I knew from FB, she was my age, lost her mom to a stroke. A few days after that, she said goodbye to all of us on FB. The post was over an hour ago when I first saw it and I though it was too late, but then I got my shit together and asked another friend of her if she knows anything. We both found her Boyfriend and told him what happened. He called the cops and they found her in her room. She lived and she was so thankful. Honestly I thought she'd be pissed. But she was grateful. She found a job as a babysitter a few months later and was very happy. "Like books and BLACK LIVES, Albums still MATTER."
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"Jussie Smollett wanted to become the Rosa Parks of Gay Black Men, but instead he became the Rosie Ruiz."
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. So glad you survived the childhood sexual abuse and survived and are moving on from the impacts of dealing with this. . The higher suicide rates of people sexually abused as children is lifelong and the barriers we learned to put up as children can make it hard to be open enough to those that love us to help us. Decades after the abuse the court case and Royal Commission on the institutional responses to childhood sexual abuse that I was involved with opened old wounds. | |
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. I know it is Australian but their is good information on suicide prevention from the lifeline site: . | |
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Thanks Ian - actually it was quite reassuring that we are doing many of the things listed in the site already. We are all okay, as long as "we" are the ones living on top of the empire of eternal war. - Jaawwnn | |
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. The court case was successful and he is in gaol for what he did to 19 children through his voluntary roles in the Anglican Church and orphanage. He was further charged for what he did to more children, including those through the Baptist Church. Unfortunately the Priest who was the paediphile ring leader and recruited the person who abused me died before he could face justice (at least on Earth). Other than reliving this through the police investigation, court preparation and the court hearing, the worst part of this was to find out that my childhood best friend was also a survivor - showing how effective abusers can be in isolating their victims even from each other and why it can be hard to help survivors if they become suicidal. . The Bishop who covered up the abuse of me and others lied to the Royal Commission and was called on this in the Commission's finding. He is yet to face any charges. The next Bishop was on a path to be a candidate to be put to the Queen to be Archbishop of Canterbury but a member of our local Synod at his time in our diocese was later on General Synod when this Bishop's name came up. This Bishop had covered up the abuse of that Synod member's daughter, so he was quietly removed from consideration. Following the Royal Commission, this Bishop was removed from his role as an Archbishop. He is also yet to face any charges. The key enabler of the local Anglican ring, the Dean of the local cathedral has been charged for the abuse he personally did, but not for protecting and encouraging the paediphile ring. | |
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Thank you Penny [Edited 12/5/19 23:12pm] We are all okay, as long as "we" are the ones living on top of the empire of eternal war. - Jaawwnn | |
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Thank you Benni - as with Ian, it's a relief that we are doing many of these things already, especially talking about suicide, which I'm sure helps. I don't want to give out too much information on here about the details (gosh I'm paranoid - as if anyone I know reads Prince.org P&R), but I will take on board all of your points to make sure we continue to do the best we can. We are all okay, as long as "we" are the ones living on top of the empire of eternal war. - Jaawwnn | |
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