In a sense, we all are.. but im talking about those people who got hit with it quickly.. no matter what ure problem is.. big or small, its all how we percieve it.. the smallest thing can be very upsetting to one person, but light to the next.. vice versa..
I'm trying to get through college, and having to shift people and different atmosphere's i wasnt use to.. its very challenging, uplifting and stressfull all at the same time. I cant complain, just express that things change all the time..


Much Love
[This message was edited Mon May 31 18:32:17 2004 by Sdldawn]

i think i'm going through tons of positive change this year. i don't know how much of it is noticeable, but i'm finally making good on a lot of promises i made myself over the years but have been too lazy or unmotivated or depressed or whatEVER to carry through. i've done four specific things this year that have moved my life forward, and i spent some time at the beginning of the year letting myself be sad about things and people i'd have to let go of in order to make things better, and i also spent that time figuring out exactly what i was gonna do to turn everything around.

the crazy thing is, all the things i told myself i'd do...i'm DOING. for the first time in my life, i'm going to a gym regularly. i'm taking an improv class at second city. i finally broke down and bought scriptwriting software and i'm working on my ideas every day. i'm changing where my creative energies are focused and i've actually been successful in so doing. i've become more receptive to where i live and the people i'm meeting, and i'm finding that i love where i live and i'm making really kick-ass friends.

for the first time in a really long time, i feel way deep down like i'm kinda kicking some butt with my life. i think i had to spend some time detoxing from events that had occurred in the year or two previous, which kinda had me knocked out for a while. but when i came out the other side of my little emily dickenson in a dark closet phase, holy crap...things are so much better.

it's a good time to be me right now. gotta remind myself of that sometimes, but it's just true.

it's strange how the smallest of situations can throw off a postive course: outside influence is the key to failure

a question is how do you avoid it

YES... Just in the past year, I've dealt with a huge breakup and the effect it had on my daughter, upping my hours at school to full time, moving back with my parents, leaving a job i had for 5 years and starting a new one, dealing with the heartache of realizing my baby's not a baby anymore , stuck by a friend with having a baby after her husband died, put my cat to sleep 2 weeks ago because he had terminal brain cancer.....
may sound like whining, but i'm just totally relating to you..... I've gone through major change and though it's good sometime, sometimes it SUCKS.

definitely a changing growth experience

mrbungle said:

hmmmmm

good question.

all i know right now is just being up front about what bullshit i won't put up with, not just in terms of telling other people but also in terms of reminding myself.

Anxiety said:

good insight. it's easy to lose sight of how strong we are on the inside with negative outside influence.

mrbungle said:

That's a very good question, but unfortunately I think the answer is that you can't avoid it - it all depends on how you deal with it.

Funny this should come up, because I'm dealing with something akin to this right this very moment - it's not a traumatic or horrific thing, but it was a little deflating. I recently received a promotion after 2 1/2 years of working 12 hour days and weekends in a grueling, demanding position. It was a great move and a big step up for me career-wise.

But then, last week, I got into a rather ugly row with a woman who works for me. I'm absolutely positive that I'm in the right, and I'm certainly not going to back down, but...I need this woman. She's an expert at what she does, and I'm in no position to replace her. All of a sudden, the wind's out of my sails, and going into work is now GOING INTO WORK, if you know what I mean. Due to one quick flare-up, I've gone from elation and feeling great about where I'm at to being riddled with anxiety about my job.

It was bound to happen in one way or another - when things are going well, something is inevitably going to bring you down to earth. You just have to put your head down and work your way through it. That's not a profound thought, I suppose, but it is a truth.

flipwilson said:

Last week my house caught fire. It didnt burn down but the entire house is damaged and has to be gutted and redone. Tuesday my car got impounded for an unpaid ticket. Wednesday my mom got into a car accident with my neice in the car. Saturday I ran into my ex who I was with for 9 years and have 2 kids and who I havent seen or heard from in over a year. I was with my boyfriend and he and I got into a huge fight Sunday because of it, even though he says he doesnt know why he was mad. Then last night he didnt come home and I still dont know where he is.
My week sucked!!! But everyone is ok, we all made it out of the house, we had insurance so no problems there, I got my car back, my mom and neice are fine (except that she's terrified to get back into my mom's car) Both my ex and my current boyfriends are losers anyway so I'm not worried about them (he will get reamed for not coming home though!!!) This week will be better!

I am. Most definitely!

yep...but I have vented it enough lol...and gettin better thanks to a good friend orger to him i owe my sanity

I don't know what you'd call what I'm going through, but I wish it'd stop. If I grow from all that is going on around me, well, then it better be a helluva lot of growing.

Does anyone want to apply to become my personal decision maker? The pay isn't very good, but you could control your own person.

Yes, a big ol' growth experience. Moving to another city to pursue a lifelong dream after a string of disappointments in other arenas. Without a job. With only a few (albeit, growing) friends and after putting my dog to sleep. Oh yeah. Going through.

*in preacha voice* "But I'm here to let ya know ... HA! ... that I stand here as evidence ... HA! ... that GOD can get you .... HA! ... I said GOD can get you! ... HA! ... through anything! ... Ha! ... Touch your neighbor and say: "ANYTHING!"

Lately I feel as if I'm not growing or changing at all and it's beginning to bother me. I need to do something about that. I'm generally a constantly changing/growing entity.

I don't know what it is with me lately, but damn I wish it'd stop already this roller coaster's bigger than any I've ever been on!!!!

CarrieMpls said:

Iffin' ya want, I'd be more than happy to pass over some of my wonderfully-horrid, growth changing experiences. Just, if you get through it all smoothly, I want lessons.





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[This message was edited Tue Jun 1 16:31:58 2004 by AzureStarr]

I have large breasts.

AzureStarr said:

awwwww. If I could help ya by doing that, I'd take at least part of it on for you.

INSATIABLE said:

That's one part of me that never grew.

CarrieMpls said:

You are a sweetheart...

INSATIABLE said:

Me too I have just ordered some bras from overseas that are 34K. My boobs are ruining my life, they keep getting bigger although the rest of me stays the same. I'd love to go swimming and do aerobics, running etc, but these goddamn things are always in the way. I am planning on getting a reduction but have to complete my family first which might take a few more years.

i swear my penis grew an extra 1/2 an inch over the last couple years....


i talked to a friend and he said the same thing happened to him around the same age....

who'd of thunk?

hmmmmm changes....I don't think understand the question

Does this count:


Jan 2004 Lost Job


Feb 2004 Mom passed


May 2004 my daughters father comes back from whereever he's been for 13 years (not necessary a bad thing but a change)

May 2004 my dad diagnosed with Hep B and having serious problems with his liver



and I still have June - Dec to get through.....


But things like this test your faith and your inner strength.....and GROWS you up....

so I say.....BRING IT.....i'm ready for this longgggg ass storm I'm in....I have my life jacket....i'm good.....remember Jesus was sleeping through the storm so I'm about to take my nap.....

me too.....
it seems like ah about 1x a year I have to redifine things in my life.....as i get older it seems that some of the values I have held I have learned are just learned behaviors and not necessarialy "MY values" but what I was taught and do not apply to how I see LIFE.

with children.... man U learn to appreciate what your parents gave up etc... as well as have a clearer pic of emotional influences on your children that our parents did not yet fully understand...a;ways new ground. and i have learned that my daughter seems to be 10 years ahead of where i was at her age...HELP!!! lol

The dating world..... after being married for 12 years- wow! I'm learnin to roll with the punches and not get all jaded etc...

And I am learnin to take time for me. but rolling iy all 2gether yeah- I am currently in re-definition of life and where i want it to go and what I will and will no longer tolerate.

Love, light & blessing's to all currently in re-definition state. I am a firm believer that god does not give U what U cannot handle.

BlueEyedAngel said:

Damn. I don't know you, but...

Anxiety said:

That's AWESOME!!! You rock!

Chico319 said:

Me too.

I'm in transition and not ready to post anything in a public forum. Thank God for great friends like you, Jedimaster and many other friends I have that don't post here.

Gosh, I hope I continue to grow, everyday until the end of my days.

I'm perfect already.

J0eyC0c0 said: