...I guess it's over with my online buddy. He used to be my online lover. I pissed him off and now he's not talking to me. Hasn't said a thing since Tuesday and that was to tell me good bye. I'm very sad about it. I tried to win him back, but I'm through trying.
I've come to realize that no one wants to be my friend or lover. All I wanted was to be loved/liked and accepted . But no one really wants to do that for me. So I guess I'm left with the task of being my own best friend and lover (no sex toy jokes please). But I've always been trying to get love and friendship from others and now I realize I'm not getting it and have nothing to lose by trying to get it from myself. How do I fall in love with myself (but not too much)?

BTW, I hold my gut in and exhale like I was told to do with I do cruches and there's a bit of improvement in my abs already. I tend to only be able to put up wit myself when I'm improving or advancing at something.

LaCoyta said:

By stopping the constant negative self-reinforcement you have a habit of first.

I have this feeling I know who you really are.

althom said:

You don't I've never been anywhere near Australia

LaCoyta said:

No! Here on the org...and you know what I'm talking about too.

althom said:

bkw said:

I always find it funny when people think they know but they really don't.....

althom said:

Althom is in love with you.

Supernova said:

Supernova said:

Supernova said:

He...he!

althom said:

Really now??

I tend to view myself as a failure (I'm a janitor who needs a makeover and can't lose weight, for crying out loud!). But I feel that this online guy I was with (let's call hom "Bob") views me as a failure because I'm not wearing lots of makeup and sexy clothes and running a successful business. It's bad enough I have high expectations of myself, but to be feeling like I need to live up to Bob's (to show him what he missed) is more than I can handle. This is why I really need to fall in love with myself.

althom said:

Digital Lisa???

MostBeautifulGrlNTheWorld said:

ARDEO !!! I'm positive this time!!

I've decided to totally improve myself:looks, time management, personality, everything! If I'm not good enough for a loser like Bob-what hope is there for me! Losers don't even want me. Will I fall in love w/ myself if I praise myself (silently of course) for every little thing?

LaCoyta said:

You'll be okay sweetheart if its any consolation I feel equally as shit and I can't talk to my best friend about it cos he'll disown my and my other best friend cos she'll start war-mongering.

Don't think that 'losers' don't even want you. Its whoevers own fault if they can't love you for who you are. Love knows no boundaries, it doesn't matter what you look like, what your occupation is or even what your personalitys like. Your personality might be wrong for some type of people but good for another, theres always a match out there somewhere for everyone, you'll find it soon enough. Though I do realise that even that little fact won't help you at the moment.

JaneyX

LaCoyta said:

Why do it silently?

I hope I find someone someday. That fact is a little comforting,actually.


Because no one wants to me cheering myself on about small things. Like, everyone in my house is weight challenged so they wouldn't want to hear me cheer about losing half an inch.
[This message was edited Sun Apr 18 9:57:14 2004 by LaCoyta]

I'm not being funny, but are you being serious about all of this?

I've never heard someone so negative bout themselves

Is that you in your picture?

JaneyPoos said:

I just wanted to tell you that from all your posts that I've read I think you a real sweetheart.

PrimordialOoze said:

Awww... thank you

I think you rock!

sermwanderer said:

yes

yes
[This message was edited Sun Apr 18 16:44:26 2004 by LaCoyta]

LaCoyta said:

I'm sure it would be encouraging to them also, an incentive maybe. but I know what you mean.
Good luck LaCoyta.

JaneyPoos said:

You're welcome, and thank you.

Bob drinks and smokes. He thought I should do that too. Even after I told him how easily my family gets addticted to things like that. What an asshole.

LaCoyta said:

Then you are very good looking. But, and I know its a cliche, you need to find inside yourself what is good. And learn that first and foremost you must make yourself happy. When you start living up to other peoples expectations, you are in trouble

I wish I had more answers for ya, but I dont