And why not?

"But I may find someone I love."

Okay. You have a self-borne personal perspective of the world 'love'. You stumble upon perfect bliss with someone with a similar clouded idealistic mindset. Forty years of drinking God's jism. Yellow days. Then they die on you. They'll probably suffer. You'll watch. They disappear on you. You bury the body. And, if your heart allows you, your emotions too. Closed until death takes you also.

"But I might 'go' first."

If it was true love, you would pray every second of every day that your soul idol 'goes' first to spare them the black pain of being apart from the person they love. You. Yes, they were scared to go. Yes, you saw it in their eyes as they went. No, they didn't know the answers either. They were terified too. And now they are gone. Forever. You'll never see them smile or cry again.

"But at least we found happiness for a fleeting time within this mortal coil."

Your perception of it, yes, maybe. To what purpose? To procreate? To create little diluted versions of yourself to one day grow up and despise you when you embarrass them by becoming as helpless as a child yourself? They won't tell you of course. They may even laugh and smile to tolerate your pitiful burden. But they hate you. They don't mean to, but they do. The truth is always buried. You become an embarrasment and painful to look at. You'll remind them of their own mortality.

"But maybe the soul goes on forever."

Please, detach your prolobal conciousness from your rational self.


So tell me, why not?
Kill yourselves.
Why not?

Shadows and pain are coming to you.
But fleeting glimpes of happiness too.

Is life to suffer so that we are spiritually and physically emancipated by God's unquantumnable unestimatible light upon release from this flesh and blood vehicle? A lesson? Life as a dry dream?

Pleeease.
And if so.
Show yourself you sick bastard.

Jesus, do you need a hug or sumfin?

you scare me, but I like ya!

hmmm, and an ending from a monologue in Angels In America...

:O

bluesbaby said:

Uh?

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sosgemini said:

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[This message was edited Tue Jan 27 15:56:43 PST 2004 by Number23]

Because you never know what life brings. You could both die together in an instant. You may be fully healthy until you death. Yes we know where we physically end up(death), but the journey in between can be something we keep with us even into death. I figure, i'm here i gonna ride this train till the wheels fall off. Take it all in. The good and the bad and enjoy.

CtheUncanny said:

And when the wheels fall off, keep coastin along with the sparks on the road!

CtheUncanny said:

So 'C' doesn't stand for cynical after all.

Wow! Not one edit.

Number23 said:

Naw, sometimes it stands for Crazy :LOL:

sinisterpentatonic said:

:LOL: :LOL:

sinisterpentatonic said:

Number23 said:

Girls, play nice :LOL:

I have to admit, I've had very similar thoughts to these during some very dark times. I think it's relatively normal...

And yet, luckily, I've found that there are just as many rays of light--more, actually--and reasons to not kill oneself.

Number23 said:

sinisterpentatonic said:

AnotherLoverToo said:

You better stop with this kind of talk or you are gonna kick the bucket for real when I come up there and hug you to death!!!



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[This message was edited Tue Jan 27 16:05:08 PST 2004 by SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy]

oh dear!

i have to admit, i've had similar thoughts. but life is just so worth living that it's hard for them to stick. Number23, you need a hug

Number23 said:

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godalmighty said:

:LOL: Yall some evil, sick... :LOL:

godalmighty said:

If you had physical form, I'd fight until my body died on me.

Why?














Why not?

INSATIABLE said:

Both questions.
All the above.

Number23 said:

Number23 said:

When I have thoughts like this, I begin to appreciate and enjoy life again. It gives me a bird's eye view of my life and the future.