well,
with all due respect, youre so young...(times on yer side)
as time goes on youll realize that whats "outside" of a person can attract you to them initially but whats truely in the heart of person is inside...what we experience "now" has no permanency, in other words, we all change eventually...so dont be so hard on yerself, im positive youll drive some man "crazy" one day (ina good way!)