Do you ever feel like something is missing from your life and you can not pinpoint what it is? Then the more you think about it the more it drives you fucking insane? And it drives you so insane that you feel fucking lifeless sometimes and just go through your days in a haze waiting form some inspiration to bring you back to life and reality.

It's important that we have that hunger. Whatever it is, to keep looking for it... striving to become better always and having a reason to be alive. Otherwise, what would be the point? Being satisfied... hell no. We're all insatiable
[This message was edited Mon Oct 6 22:31:49 PDT 2003 by INSATIABLE]

Off the grog Jess?

Is someone having a bad day?

althom said:

I am being serious dear

Paisley said:

More like a bad life lately.

MostBeautifulGrlNTheWorld said:

Oh!

Or is it that I am just bored with day to day shit that I need something different. Its like I got all this artistic shit in my head and I can not figure out how to release it...Or maybe it is just the opposite...I can not find the inspiration to for what I want to do.

MostBeautifulGrlNTheWorld said:

Most likely, you're shedding your skin. A major turn of events will probably be taking place soon and you're more than ready... and the ball's in your court. Deep down, you know what it is... even if you don't think you do.

What I've always found amazing is that we've got all the answers inside of us all along.

dont u know straight hair aint got no curl? yeah I know what ya mean

I'm scurred

Life it aint that funky unless it's got that POP!

MostBeautifulGrlNTheWorld said:

I know what you're talking about sweety.
I think you need a holiday or a break from the work. Go out and do what you want and see if you can get that inspiration.

Paisley said:

Mine ain't got no pop its more like a fizzle on them damn alkaseltzer commercials...ya know pop...pop...fizzz

life is cyclical, we change as do the seasons. take the time you need to identify what the issues are and then move forward with a clear plan of action. sometimes we just need a space to re-evaluate things, to check our priorities, goals, and movement through life.

often what your feeling is a good sign that you are ready to make changes. embrace the moment and look deeply within.

you are talented, intelligent and clearly a good soul. i wish you much luck and success on your journey.

If it's an artistic struggle I can relate completely.

Sometimes the more you agonize about it, the worse it gets.

I've found that inspiration and creativity can't be forced. Just let it develop naturally.

althom said:

Not possible..its the holiday season I can not take a vacation until Jan cause my company is stupid I guess I will wander through life for the next 3 months aimlessly like my people wandered through the desert for 40 years.

MostBeautifulGrlNTheWorld said:

Except for it's not a relief huh?

Paisley said:

No relief in sight

MostBeautifulGrlNTheWorld said:

I know this is hard to do, but instead of worrying about it, why don't you start getting excited about it? After all, an independent girl like yourself seems buff as hell to take on new challenges and changes. It sounds like growing pains. We're blazing a trail in life... one with no map, no directions. Of course it's lonely, confusing, and we feel lost. but in reality, all we have is the present- and why not feel positive about that gift?

INSATIABLE said:

Damn girl that was deep!

These lyrics describe it perfectly. I feel like I need to be brought back to life. Its weird and I just can not shake it.



Evanessence - Bring Me To Life"


how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

Yeah, i do

I'm missing a good thing. A very good one. But hell, i don't know what it is!

One definition of humanity is that we are restless.

Searching.

If we FIND what we are looking for we will wither.

Into oblivion.

Also. Media will try to put you in a box. Never let yourself be forced into a shell by others.

I found out that my restlessness was created by the media; how all television tries to force an unrealistic view into your system.

I said goodbye to the written media 8 years ago and became a better person becuz of it.

And two years ago I sad bye bye to cable television. Now THAT was a great idea! It forces you to get in touch with YOURSELF and others.

Not a bad place to be in...if it leads to discovery of that
"something" that is missing.
For me it was...well... spiritual hunger.
It led me to a search that brought me complete happiness and inner peace.
But I would not have gotten here if I had not been feeling the way you described.

Melody

Live you life to the fullest. The things that you miss were meant to be missed. All in your reach is yours and you shall have. Every day is a new oppertunity to get in touch with the deeper you.

SensualMelody said:

"Spiritual Hunger," I like that. A friend of mine told me that I have a God shaped hole in my heart...





Yeah, I'm at that place too...the uncomfortable feeling that something is, indeed, missing...