Have you ever found yourself feeling "empty"??...almost as if some part inside of you just evaporated? I've been feeling that way for the last few days now...*sigh*...and I have no idea why.

This morning, at around 3:00am or so, I was just laying there, wide awake and feeling practically nothing inside...I came here on P.org and posted a few times...didn't really help. I layed back down, and sent a text message off to Freespirit's cell phone (didn't want to wake her up...I just wanted to voice how I was feeling to someone)...I'm not sure that really helped, either...

This morning is pretty much a continuation of the same type of feeling...(although talking to CarrieCee on Yahoo Messenger was a brief pleasure...*smile*...thanks, dahlink )...I'm hoping it doesn't last.

So, if you've ever felt like this before, what have you done to get back to normal??...Or, do you just live with the empty feeling and ride it out?...Any suggestions?

I think it's a good idea to connect with things that bring you comfort...like watching a favorite movie/tv show...or talking with friends on the phone...reading a good book...torturing someone who can't send anymore Orgnotes
I hope you're feeling better soon, sweetie. I think we all go through this once in a while.

It sounds like the onset of depression.

Has something bad happened to you recently, something you maybe didn't acknowledge was bothering you?

teller said:

Hmmm...could be, Teller.

Byron said:

i do and im sorry for your feelings
i understand you

Oh my! Yes, I have felt that way and abundantly! For me I needed to make some changes! It took work but oh I am so glad I did! So very glad! I have found that for me Byron, when I get to caught on this side and not enough in the Spiritual side I go into these modes. ...and in some way it likely is God calling me to recenter myself.

I adore you! Do remember, it's only for a time!

i give you 5 for your honesty and your openness

Listening to music always helps me draw out and connect with my emotions. I don't necessarilly mean listening to happy music, just any music that taps into that part of you, the part that's soft and pure. I often find that I need to release through tears, and listening to music that hits me right in the center always helps to snap me out of it.

I've had this feeling before and usually if I dig deep I can figure out why. Sometimes it's an easy fix and many times it's something that will require me to stay strong and ride it out.

Whatever it is, I hope you feel better than you do. This void sucks.

Yes, I've felt like that often. It amazes me though, when I think I'm alone and the only one going through it, that someone else will say they're experiencing similar feelings.

We're never alone, we're always connected to one another. For me, the "empty" feeling occurs when I have lost that connection in some way. I wish I knew the secret to getting it back ..

xxx

Ya know what, I'm going to make a suggestion, and it's going to sound smart alecky but it's really not my intention in the least.

If you drink a lot of caffeine (soda, coffee, etc.), cut back on it. I mean REALLY cut back on it.

I've cut way down on my caffeine intake over the past month, and I'm able to slow down and focus and enjoy things like conversations, music, books - I'm not so worried about the next moment or the moment before, and I can settle down and enjoy the NOW.

And I sleep like a baby


This may not be the source of your problem, but it's certainly something to keep in consideration.

Anxiety said:

Funny that you mention that. A friend of mine was having anger issues and the doctor asked him how much coffee, chocolate and soda he consumed. It turns out that my friend was consuming a lot of caffeine and he stopped cold turky and totally noticed that the anger subsided...

yes, I think it's odd too ... I don't usually drink coffee but this past couple of months I've been drinking loads - I wonder if that really is the cause in my case.

Thanks Anxiety - I'm gonna try it out

Just so you guys know in the future, when I tell someone to "switch to decaf", I really mean it.

Anxiety said:

applekisses said:

Not the Decaf!

Awww Byron I glad that I could briefly help...

I feel like this a lot...most of the time when I'm lonely though. And then usually when I'm with my friends they make me feel so much better. You work an awful lot, maybe you need to take some Bryon time and do something that you enjoy. Or perhaps you're just not drinking enough coke?

You know anytime you need me I'm here...and most likely online! 's to you...I hope you feel better soon. *MUAH*

CarrieLee said:

You're a sweetie, Carrie

applekisses said:

Co-sign!

I feel like that almost everyday Byron. I know it sucks. It makes me feel better when I do something nice for someone or when I take pride in my work or something I have written or drawn. Mostly I pray, what else can you really do?

Funny, last weekend I was feeling really empty. I had little desire to turn to the usual things I turn to... music, movies, internet. I thought it was some kind of withdrawl due to the fact that we are moving and many things will take over my life in the next month. My focus has to shift in order to get it all done.

What I did was excercise, which I don't do enough of anyway. It brought me in touch with myself, my body. In other words, I went "within" in a way. And I felt better, stronger, (mentally and physically). The soda/coffee/chocolate thing is a real issue with me as well.

Not sure what your situation is, so I can't say what would help you personally. Just try to find something that re-affirms who you are. Maybe light some candles and incense and meditate.

VinaBlue said:

Reaffirmation is the key! That's what happens when I listen to music that I know will move me. It is a spoon that stirs my soul within.

Thank you each for giving your input, and especially your encouragement... *smile* I do sincerely appreciate your thoughts and words.

I think almost everything mentioned by everyone on here applies to me in one way or another...

I'm very good at putting on a good front while keeping things inside me "hidden" from view...I'm trying, however, to keep from doing that within my life. Possibly, writing this thread was one way of doing just that...I dunno...

Byron said:

I think it's a good step

I love you, Byron...please let me know if you need to talk...(though, I can't respond right now because I'm out of orgnotes... ) It will pass.

applekisses said:

Yes, many of us really love you, Byron, the butterfly that was born from the cocoon of Wellbeyond.

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[This message was edited Mon Oct 6 15:39:27 PDT 2003 by SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy]

A lot of people come and go on this site. Many people stay and become jaded to it all. Many people lose focus on their lives. At one point you left to regain the focus you felt you were losing. We have been friends for years and when you left, I felt the loss. And when you returned I felt happy that my (org's) loss was no more.

You contribute so many words, ideas and concepts, many of which take root and anchor onto the souls of people who are here. A couple weeks ago I created a thread dealing with aksing why people are so horrible to animals. You can read it here:

http://www.prince.org/msg...sg_1047983

and in the thread, Anotherlovertoo directed me to the story you told on your site about the dead dog and it just hit home so hard and made me realize how much I really value you as a friend and fellow orger.

Remembering, or realizing (I know you realize but I'm reitterating), your worth outside your little bubble you call your world can help one know they have a place in life. I know you know this but just wanted you to know that many people really really do love the person Byron.

!

Byron said:

I hear you there! I do that myself all too often!

I have nothing left to say that others haven't (cos I'm running on empty myself) but maybe this will help...

I really wanted to post here... But I couldn't find the words that would matter to you Byron.

Just remember this: Peace, happiness beyond dreams, are sparkling and dancing within your soul...

I love you Byron... no matter what the future holds, that will never dissipate.

Continue down the path you are on... talk to family (as much as you can) and continue with being open with every life moment that is presented to you.

I know I haven't been here/there for you lately, at least not as much as I had been this past year . Just know that no matter "time"... my love and wishes are true. I love you very much.

You know very well the things you love most about "life", take that coast drive you have been wanting to take. Fly back to visit your mother with the buddy pass I sent you, visit your niece, sister... and spend that "quality time" with Tany's. (Family is everything, when time proves most vunerable, I know too well) You have much beauty (happiness) in your life... I am watching you succeed at this very moment with the steps you are taking. It's beautiful Byron.

You are not alone. (you know what I mean)