Issues emotional baggage, whatever you want to call it, here's a thread dedicated to them. Take a deep breath and put yours down. Post your internal problems those mental hang-ups that keep you up at night. Exorcise those demons my friends. Wash your mind clean in the org's Holy River. Let your pain out, then take a long hot bath and know you are not alone.

I hurt so much.

My fiance lives with my cousin (girl) and her best friend (boy). They are so stinkin' lazy. I never knew that a roommate situation could go this badly...dirty dishes (gnats too), smelly clothes, etc.

My fiance and I are the only ones who clean up and I don't even live there.

My problems are moot next to some other Orgers...but that's what's going on in my life right now.

Oh yeah, and my job BLOWS!

I don't really like myself and it's hard for me to believe when other people do. I don't think I deserve love and because of this I am constantly placing myself in situations where I will not get any. I don't have close friends. I hold my family at an arm's length, I ALWAYS choose the wrong men. The only love I can accept is love from children and animals. You guys hear me bitch about my boyfriend a lot, but many of our problems are based on the fact that I do not let him love me.

I'm not looking for anyone to tell me I'm pretty or tell me they love me, I'm just stating facts.


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2the9s said:

I'm being serious!

Sweeny79 said:

Baby, you are only 16! C'mere

summerdawn said:

That sucks! make the s clean up! Don't you do it they are taking advantage of you and your fiance!

sag10 said:

I'm 24!

but thanks for the hug


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sag10 said:

Umm 16 is her exit off the Jersey Turnpike. She's 24.

Sweeny79 said:

I totally feel that. I'm the same way, its like you're describing me...I don't have any friends; only acquaintances. I've been like that since high school. Sometimes I just feel like I'm a loner and that's the way it is. Which, actually, is cool with me. I like my privacy.

2the9s said:

It's 16e thank you Comeon sweetie share your pain with us.

Sweeny79 said:

My apologies! The still stands.

summerdawn said:

It's not privacy, for me it's emotional aviodance. It's about time I admitt that.

Sometimes I don't feel pretty.

I don't want to do homework.
I don't want to do homework.
I don't want to do homework.


~~~

Sweeny (on a serious note) sorry, I truly admire your choice in occupation. I am not trying to make you feel good, just stating a personal fact. To be in position to teach and affect so many beautiful lives just beginning (so fragile and new), is a beautiful opportunity/gift that should never be overlooked nor underestimated.

I know and believe that loving children and animals are true sources of acceptance, the honesty they both contain are overwhelming.

Although if closeness is what you aspire to achieve, as well the intuition to trust outside certain boundries, here is not the best place to do it. Beautiful people do exist... but relating to the people within arms reach is where the support should begin, provided they are positive/healthy (in a sense). No one needs negativity when at our lowest moments, no one.

Anxiety said:

Oh, but you are.

Freespirit said:

Thanks you are right. I know you are, but I can't say these things to ":real" people only to you and the others sitting at their pc's far way and almost invisable. Thank you for your kind words. I think i need to go now. I'm really upset.

I'm a perfectionist when it comes to myself. I'm constantly second guessing my actions and thinking "I should've done more" or "I should've done better"

Also, the social worker in me rules too much of my life, so I sometimes take way more BS than I should from my friends cos I'm trying to "help them." It also causes me to get so caught up in the baggage of others that I ignore my own stuff...

so, yeah, those are my big issues

:hugs: :hugs::hugs::hugs: Sweeny:hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs: :hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs: :hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs: :hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs: :hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs: :hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs: :hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs: :hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs:

Hi my name is Muse and I am new to emoticons here at the Org!

Sweeny


Play it again Sam!

What city do you live in? I'm originally from Paterson myself.

TRON said:

Awww shucks.

endorphin74 said:

We have the same issues.

minneapolisgenius said:

shut-up!


maybe we can fix each other then?

endorphin74 said:

Yeah.

Or we could just go out and get trashed and bitch about how fucked up everyone ELSE is.

Sweeny79 said:

You got issues, bless you.

I have a drinking problem...can't get enough to drink.

ok here we go...
1. I get pissed easily, not when it comes to people but tools: ill be diggin a hole an hit a rock and throw the damn shovel in2 the next millenium.
2. I take too much shit
3. I'm "crazy" as some of my friends would say
4. Due to my crazieness i dont give a fuck anymore
5. I feel lonly because im single

thats all for now

Sweeny79 said:

enemas help too