today was the most embarrasing day i have had in a while ,
i am sick and tired of having 2 justify myself 2 people, heres the story:
Im in my history class and you can tell when some1 talking about you but they were out of ear shot and i didnt really think anything of it...little did i know i had become a big debate in my history class.
The next day/lesson i realised people were still talking about me..but then out of the blue the most egotisic and "funny man(in his dreams)" shouts the question across the class , the question what every1 has been debating about for the last couple of days , "M r you gay??" he made sure he said it loud enough for every1 2 hear...silence overcome the room , i felt angry and upset but i was not going 2 sit there and lie about my sexuality but then again why should i justify myself to these people , how is me being gay going 2 effect the people in this class , why should it matter ??? anyway after i had gone a dark shade of purple i tried 2 say "yes" with the most confidence i had left in me ,i felt so embarresed not that i had 2 justify myself but also because i treated this as such a big deal , some reason i do care what people think about me ...anyway i just needed to realse some frustration , thanks ,

M xxx

p.s sorry about spelling errors

CandyPerfumeBoy said:

You know what? Who cares about those ppl? You're there to learn and maybe make some friends along the way. My cousin struggled with the same things before he came out. He knows ppl still look at him sideways, but that's only because its still 'different' to a lot of folks. If you feel uncomfortable in the class, maybe you could speak to your professor/teacher...? Hang in there.

If you are proud of what you are, then you need not hide it. Worse things have happened, These are the "best of Times" for you, so don't just callow, "memories of today will last a lifetime"...

Moxy said:

completely off-topic, but "candyperfumeboy" used to be one of my usernames in the chatroom, pre-2.0

People who say they "don't care what people think about them" are lying.

Trick is to accept you can't/won't be liked by everyone and learning to deal with it.

Or so I've been told, I'm universally popular!

also, i'm glad that you had the courage to say yes.

You're right, of course. You shouldn't have to justify yourself to anyone who wants to know your business, especially if you are minding your own. But, like Aaron says, it's really cool you had the courage to say yes. ... Now I wanna give you another hug, just for doing that

Ignorance (born/learned/developed ignorance), definitely a part of our society. No, we can't please everyone... although self-love can (for the most part) prevail all adverities, mainly within (where it counts the most).

Remain true.

Hooray for you!

Perhaps this was a learning experience for you.. Take it and run with it. Next time you will be even more confident.

I think you were very brave.

But when you said "yes," what happened then?

No reactions? No comments? No difference in behaviour? Now that the cat is out of the bag, surely they've got no reason to continue whispering behind your back.

I would've said .. "Why? Are you asking me out on a date?"

Chico319 said:

Alway's trying to pick up.

althom said:

I learned it from you Althom!

tnakyou for all your support ,

M x