Sometimes I feel like I want a new life.
To start it all over, at the begining. And maybe turn out different than I am today.
To start on a fresh, untouched ground - do U every feel like it.
Start new relationships, new points of views, think in a whole new perspective?



[color=blue:31a272fc1a:c247451484:1c6d87e9fa]A NEW LIFE?
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Remember, sometimes the grass is always greener on the other side.

I kind of look at each day like that. In whatever way I screwed up yesterday, that's the past. I have a chance to do better today. I can't rest on my past achievements as well so I try to start each day with a clean slate.

every day

I wish I could go back to a time before the weight of the world crushed my hopes and dreams.

IceNine said:

Me too...

No, life has been hard but it hasn't harmed me.
But there are absolutely a few periods in my life I wouldn't like to live again even if all things surounding me would be different !!

Well maybe the spelling lessons but that's all !!

B.t.w. I think you're doing just fine !!
Why want it different ?

Nah. The bad patches in life are temporary, and you need them in order to get to the next good patch. It's funny, when things are going well in my life, I look back and realize that I couldn't have gotten to where I am without having to go through the crappy stuff.

Hang in there - it all happens for a reason.

Fhunkin said:

Fhunkin!? You can't just say that and then not spill...

Tell Scififilmnerd. Tell Scififilmnerd ALL!

HerRoyalBadness said:

I used to feel that way, and I set about to make a change. It took years and happened gradually, because change requires time to settle in - you don't just change your life from one moment to the next. It takes time to build new relationships, to change the way you've automatically been thinking to some new kind of automatic thinking.
You don't need to start over from scratch or dump everything that's gone before - it's a fluent process. You have good qualities that you want to bring along, so it's a lot of soulsearching and it takes awhile - maybe it's neverending? It's really very much part and parcel of your other question on the Org today - to strive to be the best that you can be.
In my experience, it's worthwhile. The people who know you now won't maybe understand the change, but that's alright, as long as you do what you feel is right for you.

I'm rambling... Hope this makes any sense to you?

I don't understand this thought process.

Change is happening everyday, all around you. The world will always be changing, in effect, starting new regularly.

If it's about your mind, then change your perspective, learn something new. Perspective is the name of the game.

NovaAngel said:

This is what I'm talking about. It starts in your mind.

Each new day gives rise to an infinite set of new possibilities. How I view life is... we learn to value all that has occur, take from all the diverse moments and mold our life as it is today. Forgiveness is a big component. Learning/living to not regret is critical for love and peace with self, once reaching this point through conscious awareness/efforts and a lot of time... you can live each day with the awareness of new hope. Our future lays in our hands (to a certain extent) and our minds and strong heart can get us to the point we wish to be. I believe.

I'm am not saying it is an easy process (know this), although I directly know what it took me to get to this beautiful point in my life today. Everyday it's a conscious effort and I put forth the work, determination and belief of how I wanted my life to be... and where I want my life to go. It would take a lot of more writing to perhaps get my point across... *sigh* The power of choice remains constant.

~Best wishes...

Never! I am the person I am because of lifes trivialities... Some good, some bad.

HerRoyalBadness said:

me 3

but..i try to keep in perspective..that i have the power to change anything about my life that i want to...not saying that i do always...but i have that power...

and so do you !!

my life is my life, and i can't do anythign but learn from it

It just feels like there's not much to live for...
i wanna die!!!


(and be reborn... )

HerRoyalBadness said:

Like a Phoenix from the ashes?

Then start by reinventing yourself - change your appearence somehow, your clothing style, your hairstyle or both. That's always a good starting point because then you feel a notable difference right away.
And a new appearence might attract different kinds of people that you've attracted so far.

ABSOLUTELY NO REGRETS!

Anxiety said:

what he said, right on the nose.

scififilmnerd said:

I keep changing myself every single day. One day I can look like the worst pop-satanist, the other I can be as cute as Britney in her early days.
No limits, but I don't wanna live like that. It's not the outside, it's the inside that needs a fix.

HerRoyalBadness said:

Then stop changing yourself every day and settle for something that you're pleased with.
I do believe outside appearence is a reflection of the inner state. And it sounds like yours is too.
A set "style/image" in your appearence might help you gain focus for the inside to follow.

Anyway, it's just a suggestion, but it worked for me. that doesn't mean it will for you, but, I mean... It could be worth a try. Keep a certain style for a few months - see what happens, if anything - maybe in your self-perception at least.
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HerRoyalBadness said:

Never.

Every step taken thus far creates the totality of you now. The nice thing about being alive is that every moment can be an opportunity to create a the things you want. Those new relationships, new points of view and new perspectives are always available to you.


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