Hey Emma

Wishing you and your family all the best in Japan. Loved talking to you about super hero stuff over the years. Take care Kpowers

Did she leave/quit the Org?

FragileUndertow said:

Did she leave/quit the Org?

She still has an account until she actually leaves for Japan, around the very middle of the month. Then she'll be deleting her account.

I don't think she's had a great time all the time here, although I don't presume to speak for her. I have talked to her in private. It seems she has some great and fun opportunities in Japan, so she will eating all that up with her family.

Hopefully she'll drop in to say goodbye. If not, we wish her all the best.

Good luck Emma

@ TrivialPursuit
Gotcha 👍

Thank you so much guys. I can't tell you how much your messages mean to me.

The last few years have been a rollercoaster for me, emotionally. So many ups (my children, my husband, seeing my little brother and sister grow up to become brilliant human beings and some fantastic work opportunities). Unfortunately, there's been a lot of downs too (not making peace with my mother before she passed, not even being on speaking terms with my older sister, some work stuff that didn't pan out like I hoped it would and the loss of my son which will never not be on my mind).

I never intended on joining the org. This account was set up for me, without my knowledge, by my ex boyfriend who at one point, was a semi-active member of the org. I was just starting to listen to Prince's music and still very much in mourning for my son. My daughter had just come into my life and alleviated a lot of my issues but I needed something else in my life that therapy just couldn't give me. I guess my ex's intentions were to provide me with something to take my mind off reality and hopefully I'd make some friends along the way. And it definitely did both. I've made some great friends here. A lot of them are gone now. A lot of you are still here. And I want to thank each and every one of you for helping me through some difficult times. Whether you knew it or not, you have all made a big, positive difference in my life.

Unfortunately, over the last couple of months or so some of those bad feelings and thoughts have returned. And I find that the org doesn't help me deal with it the same way it did before. You're all still great, don't get me wrong. The problem isn't with you. It's with me. My brain. How I think of things. Depression is a dangerous fucking animal. I hate using the "D" word. But it is what it is. I have tried to hide it. But I know I'm not good at keeping my emotions in check. And I know that over the last few months I have come across as argumentative and just plain bitchy at times. And I'm sorry for that. I try not to be but sometimes I can't help but to lash out at the ones closest to me. That's why I'm leaving the org. I don't know if I'll ever be back. I'd like to say I will but I can't guarantee it so I'm treating this as goodbye but also hoping that it's just "bye for now". I'm also hoping that moving to Tokyo, a new country, a new job and a new lifestyle will be beneficial. And hopefully in a few months time I'll be in a position, mentally, to re-engage with the org.

But for now, I'm just going to concentrate on what's immediately in front of me. My super-understanding husband, who's moving halfway round the world just to keep me happy. My wonderful children who have done more to save me than anything. And my new job(s) in Tokyo. And of course, getting my head back together.

Thank you everyone, once again. For making me feel welcome in this community. For being there when I needed you. If I never make it back to the org I want you guys to know how grateful I am and just how fucking cool I think you are. Seriously, you're the best.


Goodbye (for now)


Emma

XXX

I enjoyed her post as well.

Best wishes

2freaky said:

Batman, she's married..lol

So am I

Thank you for being here and giving me advice.

I'm not here as often as before, so when I got back a few days ago, I was naturally looking for you... I couldn't find you, so I did a quick search and found out you'd be gone.

I guess I'm late, but in case you'll manage to read this, good luck in Japan (I'm a bit envious, lol) and if you want, you can always hit me up.