Since I am a biologist, I tend to think about stuff like this, so pardon if this wierds you out a little bit. I got one of those ancestry DNA kits for Christmas this past year and did it and sent it off. According to my family, we were supposed to be part Cherokee. I found out there was 0%, at least in me. Although I did make some new cousin contacts I was kinda dissapointed I didn't have any Native American in me, since I always thought I did. (My sister & I looked like we did...)

If Tyka (his full sister) ever did that and joined a DNA site, people could actually find out if they were related to Prince! She probably never would, but wouldn't that be the coolest thing if you found out somewhere down the generations you had a common ancestor? You do have to be careful about that kind of thing though, especially if there are family skeletons as far as "whose your real daddy" and all.

I always wanted to this test. I don't know who my father is, only got a name. His sister doesn't want to show me pictures of him and if I asked others about him no one could remember him, what he looked like etc. However, I always thought I am a german, I was born here so that makes me german. But there were a few incidents with some nazis and they kinda stuck with me. I got insulted because they thought I am turkish.

I never looked like the typical german either. When I was in school the turkish kids asked me why I'd hang out with the germans so much. They also thought I must be one of them. Of course it wouldn't change me as a person, I'd still be who I am, but it would explain why I never really felt at home in germany (and not only because some nazis would insult me and my sister because they think we aren't germans). I always felt strange it was always a feeling of: I shouldn't be here and I was born here, my mother was, her mother was etc.

Funny enough, my brother is half turkish, but he doesn't look like he is. He never got insulted by nazis because they think he's german. He's blond and got blue eyes (nazis don't know that not every turkish person has dark hair).

Also a thing I heard a lot: "Germans don't have a broad nose." I do have kind of a broad nose, I got bullied a lot, especially from my brother, he would call me 50 cent (tho my nose is by far not as broad). I grew up hating it.

The only thing my grandma once said was that there's probably spanish blood running in my family.

ThatWhiteDude said:

I always wanted to this test. I don't know who my father is, only got a name. His sister doesn't want to show me pictures of him and if I asked others about him no one could remember him, what he looked like etc. However, I always thought I am a german, I was born here so that makes me german. But there were a few incidents with some nazis and they kinda stuck with me. I got insulted because they thought I am turkish.

I never looked like the typical german either. When I was in school the turkish kids asked me why I'd hang out with the germans so much. They also thought I must be one of them. Of course it wouldn't change me as a person, I'd still be who I am, but it would explain why I never really felt at home in germany (and not only because some nazis would insult me and my sister because they think we aren't germans). I always felt strange it was always a feeling of: I shouldn't be here and I was born here, my mother was, her mother was etc.

Funny enough, my brother is half turkish, but he doesn't look like he is. He never got insulted by nazis because they think he's german. He's blond and got blue eyes (nazis don't know that not every turkish person has dark hair).

Also a thing I heard a lot: "Germans don't have a broad nose." I do have kind of a broad nose, I got bullied a lot, especially from my brother, he would call me 50 cent (tho my nose is by far not as broad). I grew up hating it.

The only thing my grandma once said was that there's probably spanish blood running in my family.

Go and apply and get a copy of your birth certificate. It names one or both parents and nationality and birthplace. Official documents contain valuable information.

Seahorsie said:

Since I am a biologist, I tend to think about stuff like this, so pardon if this wierds you out a little bit. I got one of those ancestry DNA kits for Christmas this past year and did it and sent it off. According to my family, we were supposed to be part Cherokee. I found out there was 0%, at least in me. Although I did make some new cousin contacts I was kinda dissapointed I didn't have any Native American in me, since I always thought I did. (My sister & I looked like we did...)

If Tyka (his full sister) ever did that and joined a DNA site, people could actually find out if they were related to Prince! She probably never would, but wouldn't that be the coolest thing if you found out somewhere down the generations you had a common ancestor? You do have to be careful about that kind of thing though, especially if there are family skeletons as far as "whose your real daddy" and all.

I don't believe them. My brother took 1 and it said 0% Native American in him also. We have a family tree that leads us right back to the Cherokee tribe and even the name of the Brave we are related to.

2 of my kids did the DNA test and they each came up different, some the same, some different. Unless my kids got switched at birth, there is no way it should've came up like it did.

So something is off somewhere.

I was considering taking the test but I then changed my mind because it only shows either Y lineage or X lineage, not the whole ancestry. I looked up my grandma's family tree and it was very interesting because I moved to a place where my ancestors lived back in the day although I didn't know about that. And I found an ancestor with a Sephardic surname, which could explain some of my outstanding physical features (I am Czech, but people sometimes suppose I'm not).

With regards to the 0% Cherokee ancestry, I don't know what your ethnicities are otherwise, but I read somewhere a few days ago that many white USians believe that they have Cherokee ancestry even though it's not true, because having it meant reaffirming Southern identity.

And even if you have a legal ancestor of a specific ethnicity, it doesn't mean they're your biological ancestor. "Mother's baby, father's maybe."

ThatWhiteDude said:

I always wanted to this test. I don't know who my father is, only got a name. His sister doesn't want to show me pictures of him and if I asked others about him no one could remember him, what he looked like etc. However, I always thought I am a german, I was born here so that makes me german. But there were a few incidents with some nazis and they kinda stuck with me. I got insulted because they thought I am turkish.

I never looked like the typical german either. When I was in school the turkish kids asked me why I'd hang out with the germans so much. They also thought I must be one of them. Of course it wouldn't change me as a person, I'd still be who I am, but it would explain why I never really felt at home in germany (and not only because some nazis would insult me and my sister because they think we aren't germans). I always felt strange it was always a feeling of: I shouldn't be here and I was born here, my mother was, her mother was etc.

Funny enough, my brother is half turkish, but he doesn't look like he is. He never got insulted by nazis because they think he's german. He's blond and got blue eyes (nazis don't know that not every turkish person has dark hair).

Also a thing I heard a lot: "Germans don't have a broad nose." I do have kind of a broad nose, I got bullied a lot, especially from my brother, he would call me 50 cent (tho my nose is by far not as broad). I grew up hating it.

The only thing my grandma once said was that there's probably spanish blood running in my family.

I have no idea about Germany, but there are many people with Turek surname in Czechia (which means "Turkish"), so I wouldn't be surprised if some Germans had Turkish roots, too (and not just those whose family recently emigrated from Turkey).

kitbradley said:

Ive always been curious about the test and almost sent off for it once but something keeps telling me its a scam. Plus I dont want my DNA filed away somewhere. Im still tempted to send in my cat's DNA to see what kind of baloney results they send back.

You should do it!

FullLipsDotNose said:

ThatWhiteDude said:

I always wanted to this test. I don't know who my father is, only got a name. His sister doesn't want to show me pictures of him and if I asked others about him no one could remember him, what he looked like etc. However, I always thought I am a german, I was born here so that makes me german. But there were a few incidents with some nazis and they kinda stuck with me. I got insulted because they thought I am turkish.

I never looked like the typical german either. When I was in school the turkish kids asked me why I'd hang out with the germans so much. They also thought I must be one of them. Of course it wouldn't change me as a person, I'd still be who I am, but it would explain why I never really felt at home in germany (and not only because some nazis would insult me and my sister because they think we aren't germans). I always felt strange it was always a feeling of: I shouldn't be here and I was born here, my mother was, her mother was etc.

Funny enough, my brother is half turkish, but he doesn't look like he is. He never got insulted by nazis because they think he's german. He's blond and got blue eyes (nazis don't know that not every turkish person has dark hair).

Also a thing I heard a lot: "Germans don't have a broad nose." I do have kind of a broad nose, I got bullied a lot, especially from my brother, he would call me 50 cent (tho my nose is by far not as broad). I grew up hating it.

The only thing my grandma once said was that there's probably spanish blood running in my family.

I have no idea about Germany, but there are many people with Turek surname in Czechia (which means "Turkish"), so I wouldn't be surprised if some Germans had Turkish roots, too (and not just those whose family recently emigrated from Turkey).

I see. Well I don't know if you can trust these tests. Like, I don't waste my money for something that doesn't give you the right answers.

luv4u said:

ThatWhiteDude said:

I always wanted to this test. I don't know who my father is, only got a name. His sister doesn't want to show me pictures of him and if I asked others about him no one could remember him, what he looked like etc. However, I always thought I am a german, I was born here so that makes me german. But there were a few incidents with some nazis and they kinda stuck with me. I got insulted because they thought I am turkish.

I never looked like the typical german either. When I was in school the turkish kids asked me why I'd hang out with the germans so much. They also thought I must be one of them. Of course it wouldn't change me as a person, I'd still be who I am, but it would explain why I never really felt at home in germany (and not only because some nazis would insult me and my sister because they think we aren't germans). I always felt strange it was always a feeling of: I shouldn't be here and I was born here, my mother was, her mother was etc.

Funny enough, my brother is half turkish, but he doesn't look like he is. He never got insulted by nazis because they think he's german. He's blond and got blue eyes (nazis don't know that not every turkish person has dark hair).

Also a thing I heard a lot: "Germans don't have a broad nose." I do have kind of a broad nose, I got bullied a lot, especially from my brother, he would call me 50 cent (tho my nose is by far not as broad). I grew up hating it.

The only thing my grandma once said was that there's probably spanish blood running in my family.

Go and apply and get a copy of your birth certificate. It names one or both parents and nationality and birthplace. Official documents contain valuable information.

Thanks, I'll do that

purplethunder3121 said:

kitbradley said:

Ive always been curious about the test and almost sent off for it once but something keeps telling me its a scam. Plus I dont want my DNA filed away somewhere. Im still tempted to send in my cat's DNA to see what kind of baloney results they send back.

You should do it!

Yeah I was about to say that too for shits and giggles

If you do go ahead with it, post your cats deets.

I am wary of those tests. I too feel they are an expensive scam.

Looking at my family tree I know what's in my paternal and maternal sides.

I did it. They said, and I quote, "We are not equipped to analyze DNA from Krypton".

RodeoSchro said:

I did it. They said, and I quote, "We are not equipped to analyze DNA from Krypton".

Are you serious???!! C'monnnnnnnn!!! ::groan::

RodeoSchro said:

I did it. They said, and I quote, "We are not equipped to analyze DNA from Krypton".

RodeoSchro said:

I did it. They said, and I quote, "We are not equipped to analyze DNA from Krypton".

Ha. Not your first rodeo around the double helix, huh? Keep em coming..............

ThatWhiteDude said:

FullLipsDotNose said:

I have no idea about Germany, but there are many people with Turek surname in Czechia (which means "Turkish"), so I wouldn't be surprised if some Germans had Turkish roots, too (and not just those whose family recently emigrated from Turkey).

I see. Well I don't know if you can trust these tests. Like, I don't waste my money for something that doesn't give you the right answers.

As I said, these tests only test either the X or Y chromosome. If it tests the X, then it will tell you something about your maternal ancestors: mother's mother, grandmother's mother, etc. But only women. If it tests the Y chromosome, it's the opposite, only paternal male ancestors: father' father, grandfather's father, etc. As you can see, it doesn't give you the whole picture.

Besides, I believe they compare the results to various populations and if yours happen to be within a specific cluster, they will determine you're part of that ethnic group. But this is just my guess, I have never done genetics at university.

You can also go through archives for birth certificates, but it will only tell you your "legal" ancestors because your biological ancestors might be different.

I did 23andMe and Ancestry. My mom had always said I was part native American but NOPE. I suspect many people that have been told that were not told the truth.

I was talking about the tests with some co-workers and a few of them has also gotten kits (Note they are normally $99 but they often have sales wait for a sale AND get a referral code from a friend for a better discount)

So one sends theirs off and it comes back... with a shocking result! He found out his mother was adopted...and the secret was kept for 60 years! He now has a biological grandfather and 2 aunts. Crazy stuff... and the weird thing was it was all by chance.

Both of them had gotten a 23andMe kit but for some reason did not use them... and both were given and ancestry kit and both did them and did so within a few weeks of each other.

Seahorsie said:

RodeoSchro said:

I did it. They said, and I quote, "We are not equipped to analyze DNA from Krypton".

Ha. Not your first rodeo around the double helix, huh? Keep em coming..............

Speaking of double helixes, I saw a Steely Dan tribute band Monday night. They were INCREDIBLE. My guess is that they sound better than whatever is passing for the actual Steely Dan these days.

Anyway, their last song was "Aja" (it references the double helix). The back-up singer had the actual whistle used for that one little toot towards the end of the song. That is DEDICATION TO YOUR CRAFT, and I applaud it!

BTW, the band is Houston, Texas-based and is called Bad Sneakers. 10 players, including a 4-piece horn section.

kitbradley said:

Ive always been curious about the test and almost sent off for it once but something keeps telling me its a scam. Plus I dont want my DNA filed away somewhere. Im still tempted to send in my cat's DNA to see what kind of baloney results they send back.

it is real. 100%! your cat's DNA would not give results of a human. the fact that my kit came back with my father and half-sister and other known relatives... you think that is all a scam?

and my co-worker found his long-lost biological grandfather... who when asked admitted he was the father and how the daughter came to be.

The worry of having your DNA in a database is worthy of some thought and concern. I guess if you tested Postive for markers for cancer or whatever that could be used against you. Or if you had committed a crime? or if a close relative had?


What is a joke is the app that claims to connect to these databases that says you are related to all kinds of famous people. LOL huh no.

ThatWhiteDude said:

I always wanted to this test. I don't know who my father is, only got a name. His sister doesn't want to show me pictures of him and if I asked others about him no one could remember him, what he looked like etc. However, I always thought I am a german, I was born here so that makes me german. But there were a few incidents with some nazis and they kinda stuck with me. I got insulted because they thought I am turkish.

I never looked like the typical german either. When I was in school the turkish kids asked me why I'd hang out with the germans so much. They also thought I must be one of them. Of course it wouldn't change me as a person, I'd still be who I am, but it would explain why I never really felt at home in germany (and not only because some nazis would insult me and my sister because they think we aren't germans). I always felt strange it was always a feeling of: I shouldn't be here and I was born here, my mother was, her mother was etc.

Funny enough, my brother is half turkish, but he doesn't look like he is. He never got insulted by nazis because they think he's german. He's blond and got blue eyes (nazis don't know that not every turkish person has dark hair).

Also a thing I heard a lot: "Germans don't have a broad nose." I do have kind of a broad nose, I got bullied a lot, especially from my brother, he would call me 50 cent (tho my nose is by far not as broad). I grew up hating it.

The only thing my grandma once said was that there's probably spanish blood running in my family.

That´s a heartwrenching story. Sounds like you´ve been (and still are) bullied a lot. It´s respectable that you´ve remained calm, strong and smart despite all that negativity.

Turkish people have a lot of mixed DNA. Some of my relatives have African DNA and would be considered "black" in the USA (their Ottoman ancestors were probably from Africa), some of my relatives are blond and have blue eyes and pale skin, some look Central Asian and most of them look very mediterranean like me.

I don´t trust those DNA kits because I find the idea of giving a private company my DNA very scary. Who knows what they are up to? They might sell the data to others, and that´s a scary thought.

I think being German depends on how you personally define "being German" and who you talk to. To some, I qualify as German because I was born and raised in Germany and because I speak the language without an accent and because I accept and respect the culture and the laws but many people don´t accept that and label me a German on paper only due to my ethnic background. I think things are slowly starting to change now but the reactions to the #metwo campaign from the right paint a rather bleak picture as far as mutual acceptance, respect and compassion are concerned.

KoolEaze said:

ThatWhiteDude said:

I always wanted to this test. I don't know who my father is, only got a name. His sister doesn't want to show me pictures of him and if I asked others about him no one could remember him, what he looked like etc. However, I always thought I am a german, I was born here so that makes me german. But there were a few incidents with some nazis and they kinda stuck with me. I got insulted because they thought I am turkish.

I never looked like the typical german either. When I was in school the turkish kids asked me why I'd hang out with the germans so much. They also thought I must be one of them. Of course it wouldn't change me as a person, I'd still be who I am, but it would explain why I never really felt at home in germany (and not only because some nazis would insult me and my sister because they think we aren't germans). I always felt strange it was always a feeling of: I shouldn't be here and I was born here, my mother was, her mother was etc.

Funny enough, my brother is half turkish, but he doesn't look like he is. He never got insulted by nazis because they think he's german. He's blond and got blue eyes (nazis don't know that not every turkish person has dark hair).

Also a thing I heard a lot: "Germans don't have a broad nose." I do have kind of a broad nose, I got bullied a lot, especially from my brother, he would call me 50 cent (tho my nose is by far not as broad). I grew up hating it.

The only thing my grandma once said was that there's probably spanish blood running in my family.

That´s a heartwrenching story. Sounds like you´ve been (and still are) bullied a lot. It´s respectable that you´ve remained calm, strong and smart despite all that negativity.

Turkish people have a lot of mixed DNA. Some of my relatives have African DNA and would be considered "black" in the USA (their Ottoman ancestors were probably from Africa), some of my relatives are blond and have blue eyes and pale skin, some look Central Asian and most of them look very mediterranean like me.

I don´t trust those DNA kits because I find the idea of giving a private company my DNA very scary. Who knows what they are up to? They might sell the data to others, and that´s a scary thought.

I think being German depends on how you personally define "being German" and who you talk to. To some, I qualify as German because I was born and raised in Germany and because I speak the language without an accent and because I accept and respect the culture and the laws but many people don´t accept that and label me a German on paper only due to my ethnic background. I think things are slowly starting to change now but the reactions to the #metwo campaign from the right paint a rather bleak picture as far as mutual acceptance, respect and compassion are concerned.

To the red: Thanks, I try my best to remain the calm.

One thing that these encounters did to me is, I often look at myself in the mirror for 20 or more minutes because I'm trying to find what those see who said these slurs to me. They look at my profile picture on FB and think I'm from another country. I'm sometimes sitting there and think: "What is it that makes them say that? Is it my green eyes? My brown hair?

A few weeks ago someone called my twin sister: "Passdeutsche" wich means he thought she might be from another country even tho we are born here. I know it shouldn't make us feel this way but, it's harder than it seems. It really makes you think about yourself.

ThatWhiteDude said:

KoolEaze said:

That´s a heartwrenching story. Sounds like you´ve been (and still are) bullied a lot. It´s respectable that you´ve remained calm, strong and smart despite all that negativity.

Turkish people have a lot of mixed DNA. Some of my relatives have African DNA and would be considered "black" in the USA (their Ottoman ancestors were probably from Africa), some of my relatives are blond and have blue eyes and pale skin, some look Central Asian and most of them look very mediterranean like me.

I don´t trust those DNA kits because I find the idea of giving a private company my DNA very scary. Who knows what they are up to? They might sell the data to others, and that´s a scary thought.

I think being German depends on how you personally define "being German" and who you talk to. To some, I qualify as German because I was born and raised in Germany and because I speak the language without an accent and because I accept and respect the culture and the laws but many people don´t accept that and label me a German on paper only due to my ethnic background. I think things are slowly starting to change now but the reactions to the #metwo campaign from the right paint a rather bleak picture as far as mutual acceptance, respect and compassion are concerned.

To the red: Thanks, I try my best to remain the calm.

One thing that these encounters did to me is, I often look at myself in the mirror for 20 or more minutes because I'm trying to find what those see who said these slurs to me. They look at my profile picture on FB and think I'm from another country. I'm sometimes sitting there and think: "What is it that makes them say that? Is it my green eyes? My brown hair?

A few weeks ago someone called my twin sister: "Passdeutsche" wich means he thought she might be from another country even tho we are born here. I know it shouldn't make us feel this way but, it's harder than it seems. It really makes you think about yourself.

Wow, what makes them think you're not German? I thought brown hair and green eyes are frequent among Germans. That being said, I've been mistaken for other nationalities a few times in my life, but I'm part German, part Ashkenazi, and part Sephardi, so i have a pass

FullLipsDotNose said:

ThatWhiteDude said:

To the red: Thanks, I try my best to remain the calm.

One thing that these encounters did to me is, I often look at myself in the mirror for 20 or more minutes because I'm trying to find what those see who said these slurs to me. They look at my profile picture on FB and think I'm from another country. I'm sometimes sitting there and think: "What is it that makes them say that? Is it my green eyes? My brown hair?

A few weeks ago someone called my twin sister: "Passdeutsche" wich means he thought she might be from another country even tho we are born here. I know it shouldn't make us feel this way but, it's harder than it seems. It really makes you think about yourself.

Wow, what makes them think you're not German? I thought brown hair and green eyes are frequent among Germans. That being said, I've been mistaken for other nationalities a few times in my life, but I'm part German, part Ashkenazi, and part Sephardi, so i have a pass

I don't know haha But nazis aren't the smartes people anyway They always say german people are blonde and have blue eyes. The only people in my family with blue eyes are my grandma, my two cousins and my brother. The rest got green eyes.

About that brown hair, my mother has dark hair, so I think my father must be a blonde guy, maybe that's why I have brown hair.

FullLipsDotNose said:

ThatWhiteDude said:

To the red: Thanks, I try my best to remain the calm.

One thing that these encounters did to me is, I often look at myself in the mirror for 20 or more minutes because I'm trying to find what those see who said these slurs to me. They look at my profile picture on FB and think I'm from another country. I'm sometimes sitting there and think: "What is it that makes them say that? Is it my green eyes? My brown hair?

A few weeks ago someone called my twin sister: "Passdeutsche" wich means he thought she might be from another country even tho we are born here. I know it shouldn't make us feel this way but, it's harder than it seems. It really makes you think about yourself.

Wow, what makes them think you're not German? I thought brown hair and green eyes are frequent among Germans. That being said, I've been mistaken for other nationalities a few times in my life, but I'm part German, part Ashkenazi, and part Sephardi, so i have a pass

If you have Ashkenazi and Sephardi in your ancestry they would not consider you a proper German.

ThatWhiteDude said:

One thing that these encounters did to me is, I often look at myself in the mirror for 20 or more minutes because I'm trying to find what those see who said these slurs to me. They look at my profile picture on FB and think I'm from another country. I'm sometimes sitting there and think: "What is it that makes them say that? Is it my green eyes? My brown hair?

A few weeks ago someone called my twin sister: "Passdeutsche" wich means he thought she might be from another country even tho we are born here. I know it shouldn't make us feel this way but, it's harder than it seems. It really makes you think about yourself.

You have my deepest sympathy. It´s not easy to grow up like that and it can surely fuck with your mental stability and outlook on life. I know because I was often very bitter, angry, aggressive and had violent tendencies in my teenage years and beat up many assholes who thought they could say something stupid or racist to me . I have realized that, as a Turkish person, I needed to be smarter and better than them, and now that I´m a grown and successful man some of those assholes from the past are even envious and wonder how I got so far in life, coming from the background that I come from. I also have accepted that sometimes being the bad guy and living up to their negative expectations makes life much easier for me. On the other hand I also try to be as nice as possible to most people and love helping people and being there for people. Just be yourself and spend time with good people, work out, maybe pick up martial arts or boxing so people think twice about messing with you. You are obviously a smart person so stay above them, and intimidate them with your brains and physically if necessary. I also think it is a terrible thing that you are not allowed to find out more about your father, regardless of what a person he is or isn´t.

KoolEaze said:

FullLipsDotNose said:

Wow, what makes them think you're not German? I thought brown hair and green eyes are frequent among Germans. That being said, I've been mistaken for other nationalities a few times in my life, but I'm part German, part Ashkenazi, and part Sephardi, so i have a pass

If you have Ashkenazi and Sephardi in your ancestry they would not consider you a proper German.

OK then, well, I'm mostly Czech, so I wouldn't be considered a proper German anyway

I think its great, I had a test done a year and a half ago and it pretty much summed up what I suspected. Mostly white (Irish/Scandinavian), with some Polynesian blood and nothing else.

. (Spacing dosen't seem to work on this site?)

I was only suspicious that the amount of English ancestry was low at 4%, when I had 2 English great grandparents of pure English ancestry (Should = 25%). Otherwise it told me I was 11/16 White and 5/16 Polynesian.

I'm pretty sure I'd be surprised by the results. I was born to Saudi bloodline - which really doesn't mean anything to anybody because Arabs from the peninsula are mixed race due to the history behind their region - but I know for a fact that my grandmom (dad's mom) was east African from Zanzibar (Now called Tanzania) and like many coastal places specifically in Africa, that region was heavily mixed race due to slavery (Portuguese) and Arab/South Asian business trade. I wanna do the test, but I'm apprehensive about it for some reason.

Heads up, which I'm sure every knows already since it's been all over the news. 23 and Me has made a deal with a major phamacutical company regarding their DNA result. FYI, I have taken the test and no I'm not bothered by this new news but a lot of people are. So go in fully aware that your information may not always and forever remain just for you.

KoolEaze said:

ThatWhiteDude said:

One thing that these encounters did to me is, I often look at myself in the mirror for 20 or more minutes because I'm trying to find what those see who said these slurs to me. They look at my profile picture on FB and think I'm from another country. I'm sometimes sitting there and think: "What is it that makes them say that? Is it my green eyes? My brown hair?

A few weeks ago someone called my twin sister: "Passdeutsche" wich means he thought she might be from another country even tho we are born here. I know it shouldn't make us feel this way but, it's harder than it seems. It really makes you think about yourself.

You have my deepest sympathy. It´s not easy to grow up like that and it can surely fuck with your mental stability and outlook on life. I know because I was often very bitter, angry, aggressive and had violent tendencies in my teenage years and beat up many assholes who thought they could say something stupid or racist to me . I have realized that, as a Turkish person, I needed to be smarter and better than them, and now that I´m a grown and successful man some of those assholes from the past are even envious and wonder how I got so far in life, coming from the background that I come from. I also have accepted that sometimes being the bad guy and living up to their negative expectations makes life much easier for me. On the other hand I also try to be as nice as possible to most people and love helping people and being there for people. Just be yourself and spend time with good people, work out, maybe pick up martial arts or boxing so people think twice about messing with you. You are obviously a smart person so stay above them, and intimidate them with your brains and physically if necessary. I also think it is a terrible thing that you are not allowed to find out more about your father, regardless of what a person he is or isn´t.

Wait, they thought you wouldn't come far in life because you're a turkish man? Or did I get this wrong?

Yeah, I don't get with my father I don't wanna hang out with him, I mean, he left my mother when she told she's pregnant with us. I only want a picture, and his sister got them but always makes excuses why she can't show me a picture......and then they wonder when I think they try to hide something from me......