I know this is weird, but here it goes;

Since the new semester began (since what happened happened really), I've been really unmotivated. I haven't done any of my homework assignments and I haven't really felt any anxiety over it. I guess I seem okay, but it kind of seems to me like I'm not. Somehow, I'm surviving my classes, though. I do things with friends and stuff and I'm seen publically, but most of the time, between classes and most weekends, I'm just alone either sleeping all day or staring at my laptop trying to figure out something productive to do but not finding anything. Last year, I was all about getting stuff done and thinking up new ideas, but now I just can't. Some of the time I'm sad about it, but most of the time, I'm not really feeling any kind of way.

Recently, there's this guy I've been seeing around campus. He's very handsome, almost beautiful. He's in my Accounting class. I just stare at him when I see him around because his face is so nice. I'd talk to him, but things don't usually go well when I talk to guys I fancy and it's not very often that I find a guy attractive. Maybe, once every few years - but, that's because most men are ugly.

I guess, I'm at that age where finding love becomes important because relationships have really been on my mind and my friends and I talk about it a lot. So, I'll admit, I did think about talking to him, but then I realized that handsome guys don't find me too worthwhile. Then, I became sad. I started thinking about how horrible my love life is going to be - only unattractive men ever talk to me, and how can I ever love someone if I don't like their face or body? I started to feel like I'm doomed to never get what I want and I'm afraid I'll end up alone. It's kind of a conundrum because that shouldn't be the case - I'm at least a solid 6 - not a show stopper, but just a little above average. People tell me I'm interesting, funny, and pretty intelligent and these things are pretty self-evident without people saying it anyway.

Then, there's this everyday liberalism growing on college campuses across the country. It's horrible - I know how to stop it, but I don't have the resources. These horrible millenials which I have the misfortune of being a part of continue to try to bend the world to their way and recreate it in their image, which they've somewhat successfully done. The forces resisting are not enough. We do not have the cultural capital to successfully resist the cultural marxism being pushed against us. How will we ever survive?

The two worst possible candidates are running for President and there's nothing we can do about it at this point.

Everything is just on the decline for us.

PANDURITO said:

EmmaMcG said:

"...I think the guy on the left has a drinking problem..."

Your left? Or the guy in the aisle seat's left?

;¬)

phatphuk said:

EmmaMcG said:

"...My left. Always my left. ..."

OK. But I still say the guy in the window seat is the Iffier one of the two ;¬)

I know how it feel, you feel lost and really there's no much help i can give you; just try hard to give up to those thoughts, they just drag you down, but it won't be easy.