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Advice for love? Alright....there is this guy that I've loved and grown up with since I was a small child. We were inseperable.... Well, we hung out almost every day since his father passed a few years ago. He even moved in with me for a whole year.
At that time he kept giving me signs that he wanted to be with me but I was way too nervous to tell him anything. Fast forward to 2015 and he (out of nowhere) called me and told me he was coming over. After freshening myself up I went to my room and there he was...looking like an angel...I can't even describe the feeling I had when I saw him!
He wanted to fool around since he's never been with a guy before (we had sexted a few times before though). Then things went to hell. I couldn't get it up because I was so fucking nervous . I ended up jacking him off. Afterwards he kinda acted like he was depressed but calmed him down with a back rub. After that I didn't know what to say and all that and texted some bullshit ugh (fuck you Brandon, that's my name)
Well suffice to say...he blocked me on facebook for a while. I got soooo depressed because of that, started to become a recluse... After a few blocks/unblocks later I just messaged him and told him how much he means to me and how I actually love.
Out of nowhere he finally unblocked my and accepted my friend request . He said: "What's Up?" then asked: "What do you mean you love me? Like you wanna be in a relationship with me kinda love?" Of course I replied that was what I wanted. Of course there has been no reply.
I know he likes me but with him and Prince dying I've been soooooo depressed! To the point of not getting out of my house for almost a whole year. I love him so much and I know he likes me but he just doesn't reply and idk... sorry: can't type much...i can't stop crying.....
Please help me! What should I write to him on facebook?
Damn, I'm so sick and tired of being depressed. I wish he would just come out and tell me how he feels. Goddamnit I need to take somethingg to make me numb... I'll be able to write better after taking some Vyvanse...
EDIT: I HATE SO MUCH THAT PARAGRAPHS DON'T WORK!!! FUCK....
Anyway, what I'm saying I guess is: What should I message him on facebook? Should I tell him how his silence hurts me?
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Why not just actually talk to him face to face? | |
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You say you are sick and tired of being depressed. Have you sought medical help for your depression? I think it is one of the most deadly and misunderstood mental illnesses there is and, if you are able to lift the fog a little, you might find life isn't as bad as it seems.
I do wonder if you miss this guy as a friend or as a lover or both? I think you should try and separate the two. Maybe he wants to be friends again but nothing more? Would you be able to live with that? Could you ever get back what you had before? Or is it as a lover and nothing less that you could cope with? There may be many reasons that the sex went wrong and, as a human, when something goes wrong we naturally want to fix it. It is natural that you want to show this guy that you are more dynamic in the bedroom than you were on this occasion and it is also perfectly understandable that your sexual confidence has been knocked. But it sounds like this guy doesn't want a repeat. Is he even into guys still? Maybe he wanted his first experience to be with you before playing the field? Who knows. But you are obsessing over it and that is not healthy. We've all had bad sexual experiences but you try and forget it and move forward, either getting better at sex with the same partner or finding someone who is completely compatable.
So, to answer your last question, I wouldn't message him on Facebook. Take his silence as a message and take the first, difficult steps to realising that this guy isn't your everything and that you might need to look elsewhere to find love. This will not be easy but I'm sure it'll beat living as a tired, depressed, weapy, heart-broken recluse. I wish you all the luck in the world | |
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