Hi,

Well, I'm going to fly to London in a few hours and see Londonboy.

We will be together for the weekend

So we can see what happens between us, now that we both are single at the same time.

Enjoy!



I'll just be working...

I plan to freeze some more and dig out from another foot of snow that's expected to drop this weekend.

SSDD.

Gotta basement /bathroom that needs to be decorated. I hate doing this type of stuff so, I'm bring my mother alone and she can pickout everthing for me.

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Have fun dJJ! (all things in moderation of course!)

Who is going to care for Angel while you're away?

Prepping the house for some not too far in the future plans. I always get behind in this stuff, but then it's always in the back of my mind nagging me. I guess I need to learn the first step to peace, do the crap that's nagging the heck out of you.

PurpleJedi said:

TD3 said:

morningsong said:

Pokeno4Money said:

take my car in for an oil change, read the first in a set of wizard of oz books i bought, hang out with my buddies and work around the house. low key weekend for me, i guess

dJJ said:

Pokeno4Money said:

I plan to freeze some more and dig out from another foot of snow that's expected to drop this weekend.

SSDD.

I so don't get it. But I do hope you will dig the snow with a smile.

Where I am there's nothing but sub-freezing temperatures and snow going on.

Last night the temperature (not wind chill, the actual temperature) went down to 7 below.

And considering I just sold my snowblower, the chances of me digging with a smile are very low.

dJJ said:

morningsong said:

Prepping the house for some not too far in the future plans. I always get behind in this stuff, but then it's always in the back of my mind nagging me. I guess I need to learn the first step to peace, do the crap that's nagging the heck out of you.

When it comes to DIY your house, there is no light at the end off the tunnel. But I love being creative in the house and fix it! Have fun, and make sure you got all the material before you start.

True. Sometimes I love it, sometimes I don't. Home Depot gets a fair share of my income. I have tools (mostly plumbing) I've only used for one project. Yard sale time. Anyway, I have something to look forward to and it's giving me "ch'i" right now, so I'm running with it.

djj how was your trip to london? hope you had fun!

XxAxX said:

djj how was your trip to london? hope you had fun!

It was confusing.

I thought we were having a good time, getting along and having great sex.

So, at the last evening, I wanted to talk about what was going on with us. He told me he didn't know and we should play it by ear. However, I had no idea what was on his mind. So, I asked him and after a while he got angry with me. He told me he didn't know and that I was just asking the same question that he could not answer. As I considered myself part of this whatever-it-was-relationship, I thought that it was reasonable to expect to have a conversation about it. I didn't want some definitive answer or whatever, but just talk about how we both thought and felt.

He got angry and turned his back to me (we were in bed) and stayed like that all night. I felt hurt, because that silent treatment and retracting love is something I find hard to deal with. So, the next morning we were chatting, and before I left he said........let's think about it, give it some time.

However, I felt so ***** about how he treated me that night, that I told him I'd rather stick with my happy-go-lcuky life in Amsterdam, than be in a relationship in which I feel lonely. I said I knew I had to give it some time and that I would wait for his E-mail. That was Sunday.

I didn't hear from him and I called him wednesday, but he didn't answer. So, Thursday I got an E-mail from him, saying that he tought it was good to see me, but that we didn't seem to great at spending too much time together.

I felt hurt and thought is was harsh of him to not talk to me, but just send me an E-mail. He said something about staying friends, but I doubt he meant that. He would have not got rid of me by E-mail if he would consider me to be a friend, right?

So, I guess it's the same old story. I love him, but he doesn't love me. I think he must have been agitated with me for the weekend, because I find it hard to believe he rather break up with me, than just talk with me. But, I guess I will never know. He doesn't think I'm good enough for him, so it really doesn't matter what I feel or think. It has been his call all along. Not mine.

It hurts a lot and I feel the pain all day and night. I guess my pain will fade away with time. And he'll find some other girl he can make miserable.

I'm holding on to the tought that I will get over this one day. And that there are many people who find love, so that there is no reason to assume that I will allways be lonely.

dJJ said:

It was confusing.

I thought we were having a good time, getting along and having great sex.

So, at the last evening, I wanted to talk about what was going on with us. He told me he didn't know and we should play it by ear. However, I had no idea what was on his mind. So, I asked him and after a while he got angry with me. He told me he didn't know and that I was just asking the same question that he could not answer. As I considered myself part of this whatever-it-was-relationship, I thought that it was reasonable to expect to have a conversation about it. I didn't want some definitive answer or whatever, but just talk about how we both thought and felt.

He got angry and turned his back to me (we were in bed) and stayed like that all night. I felt hurt, because that silent treatment and retracting love is something I find hard to deal with. So, the next morning we were chatting, and before I left he said........let's think about it, give it some time.

However, I felt so ***** about how he treated me that night, that I told him I'd rather stick with my happy-go-lcuky life in Amsterdam, than be in a relationship in which I feel lonely. I said I knew I had to give it some time and that I would wait for his E-mail. That was Sunday.

I didn't hear from him and I called him wednesday, but he didn't answer. So, Thursday I got an E-mail from him, saying that he tought it was good to see me, but that we didn't seem to great at spending too much time together.

I felt hurt and thought is was harsh of him to not talk to me, but just send me an E-mail. He said something about staying friends, but I doubt he meant that. He would have not got rid of me by E-mail if he would consider me to be a friend, right?

So, I guess it's the same old story. I love him, but he doesn't love me. I think he must have been agitated with me for the weekend, because I find it hard to believe he rather break up with me, than just talk with me. But, I guess I will never know. He doesn't think I'm good enough for him, so it really doesn't matter what I feel or think. It has been his call all along. Not mine.

It hurts a lot and I feel the pain all day and night. I guess my pain will fade away with time. And he'll find some other girl he can make miserable.

I'm holding on to the tought that I will get over this one day. And that there are many people who find love, so that there is no reason to assume that I will allways be lonely.

That wasn't love dJJ.

dJJ said:

It was confusing.

I thought we were having a good time, getting along and having great sex.

So, at the last evening, I wanted to talk about what was going on with us. He told me he didn't know and we should play it by ear. However, I had no idea what was on his mind. So, I asked him and after a while he got angry with me. He told me he didn't know and that I was just asking the same question that he could not answer. As I considered myself part of this whatever-it-was-relationship, I thought that it was reasonable to expect to have a conversation about it. I didn't want some definitive answer or whatever, but just talk about how we both thought and felt.

He got angry and turned his back to me (we were in bed) and stayed like that all night. I felt hurt, because that silent treatment and retracting love is something I find hard to deal with. So, the next morning we were chatting, and before I left he said........let's think about it, give it some time.

However, I felt so ***** about how he treated me that night, that I told him I'd rather stick with my happy-go-lcuky life in Amsterdam, than be in a relationship in which I feel lonely. I said I knew I had to give it some time and that I would wait for his E-mail. That was Sunday.

I didn't hear from him and I called him wednesday, but he didn't answer. So, Thursday I got an E-mail from him, saying that he tought it was good to see me, but that we didn't seem to great at spending too much time together.

I felt hurt and thought is was harsh of him to not talk to me, but just send me an E-mail. He said something about staying friends, but I doubt he meant that. He would have not got rid of me by E-mail if he would consider me to be a friend, right?

So, I guess it's the same old story. I love him, but he doesn't love me. I think he must have been agitated with me for the weekend, because I find it hard to believe he rather break up with me, than just talk with me. But, I guess I will never know. He doesn't think I'm good enough for him, so it really doesn't matter what I feel or think. It has been his call all along. Not mine.

It hurts a lot and I feel the pain all day and night. I guess my pain will fade away with time. And he'll find some other girl he can make miserable.

I'm holding on to the tought that I will get over this one day. And that there are many people who find love, so that there is no reason to assume that I will allways be lonely.

Better off without him definitely.

sexton said:

dJJ said:

It was confusing.

I thought we were having a good time, getting along and having great sex.

I didn't hear from him and I called him wednesday, but he didn't answer. So, Thursday I got an E-mail from him, saying that he tought it was good to see me, but that we didn't seem to great at spending too much time together.

I felt hurt and thought is was harsh of him to not talk to me, but just send me an E-mail. He said something about staying friends, but I doubt he meant that. He would have not got rid of me by E-mail if he would consider me to be a friend, right?

So, I guess it's the same old story. I love him, but he doesn't love me. I think he must have been agitated with me for the weekend, because I find it hard to believe he rather break up with me, than just talk with me. But, I guess I will never know. He doesn't think I'm good enough for him, so it really doesn't matter what I feel or think. It has been his call all along. Not mine.

It hurts a lot and I feel the pain all day and night. I guess my pain will fade away with time. And he'll find some other girl he can make miserable.

I'm holding on to the tought that I will get over this one day. And that there are many people who find love, so that there is no reason to assume that I will allways be lonely.

Better off without him definitely.

Yes. I guess.

It's not easy to let go though. I do love him a lot.

When everything is ok, we are wonderful together.

But hey, alcoholics love their drinks and that is no reason to keep on drinking either, rigth?

awww bummer. hope you find someone right for you

This coming weekend will be ok.

Friday a friend is coming over to hug me and tell me I'm going to be all right.

Maybe my dad will come over for a reading from a beekeeper about bees in Amsterdam. In that case, I will tag along and will learn everything about the bees in Amsterdam.

And there is a re-opening of a cafe I'm invited for. I don't know how and if I'm going to combine these things.

Saturday I will go to the gym, or have breakfast with my dad in the city. In the afternoon, I have my drivers lessons. Surprisingly, I really love it.

And I will meet up with a friend on Sunday.

So, should be a good week end without any emotional turmoil.

TD3 said:

Gotta basement /bathroom that needs to be decorated. I hate doing this type of stuff so, I'm bring my mother alone and she can pickout everthing for me.

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Did you finish it, or is it on your to-do list for this coming weekend again?

XxAxX said:

awww bummer. hope you find someone right for you

Well, if the past predicts the future, I think I just have to settle for being a cat lady.

Eventhough I only have one cat.

dJJ said:

XxAxX said:

awww bummer. hope you find someone right for you

Well, if the past predicts the future, I think I just have to settle for being a cat lady.

Eventhough I only have one cat.

...but he is THE cat!!!

PurpleJedi said:

dJJ said:

Well, if the past predicts the future, I think I just have to settle for being a cat lady.

Eventhough I only have one cat.

...but he is THE cat!!!

Exactly.


Hard to match that standard for a human male.

dJJ said:

PurpleJedi said:

...but he is THE cat!!!

Exactly.


Hard to match that standard for a human male.

dJJ said:

It was confusing.

I thought we were having a good time, getting along and having great sex.

So, at the last evening, I wanted to talk about what was going on with us. He told me he didn't know and we should play it by ear. However, I had no idea what was on his mind. So, I asked him and after a while he got angry with me. He told me he didn't know and that I was just asking the same question that he could not answer. As I considered myself part of this whatever-it-was-relationship, I thought that it was reasonable to expect to have a conversation about it. I didn't want some definitive answer or whatever, but just talk about how we both thought and felt.

He got angry and turned his back to me (we were in bed) and stayed like that all night. I felt hurt, because that silent treatment and retracting love is something I find hard to deal with. So, the next morning we were chatting, and before I left he said........let's think about it, give it some time.

However, I felt so ***** about how he treated me that night, that I told him I'd rather stick with my happy-go-lcuky life in Amsterdam, than be in a relationship in which I feel lonely. I said I knew I had to give it some time and that I would wait for his E-mail. That was Sunday.

I didn't hear from him and I called him wednesday, but he didn't answer. So, Thursday I got an E-mail from him, saying that he tought it was good to see me, but that we didn't seem to great at spending too much time together.

I felt hurt and thought is was harsh of him to not talk to me, but just send me an E-mail. He said something about staying friends, but I doubt he meant that. He would have not got rid of me by E-mail if he would consider me to be a friend, right?

So, I guess it's the same old story. I love him, but he doesn't love me. I think he must have been agitated with me for the weekend, because I find it hard to believe he rather break up with me, than just talk with me. But, I guess I will never know. He doesn't think I'm good enough for him, so it really doesn't matter what I feel or think. It has been his call all along. Not mine.

It hurts a lot and I feel the pain all day and night. I guess my pain will fade away with time. And he'll find some other girl he can make miserable.

I'm holding on to the tought that I will get over this one day. And that there are many people who find love, so that there is no reason to assume that I will allways be lonely.

Clearly he has made a bad mistake. You are a wonderful person and there is no doubt the right person will come into your life.

dJJ said:

XxAxX said:

awww bummer. hope you find someone right for you

Well, if the past predicts the future, I think I just have to settle for being a cat lady.

Eventhough I only have one cat.

it can be hard being single but it's an even worse feeling when you're lonely because you're with the wrong guy. don't stress or worry, keep the faith. you'll find him someday

dJJ said:

It was confusing.

I thought we were having a good time, getting along and having great sex.

So, at the last evening, I wanted to talk about what was going on with us. He told me he didn't know and we should play it by ear. However, I had no idea what was on his mind. So, I asked him and after a while he got angry with me. He told me he didn't know and that I was just asking the same question that he could not answer. As I considered myself part of this whatever-it-was-relationship, I thought that it was reasonable to expect to have a conversation about it. I didn't want some definitive answer or whatever, but just talk about how we both thought and felt.

He got angry and turned his back to me (we were in bed) and stayed like that all night. I felt hurt, because that silent treatment and retracting love is something I find hard to deal with. So, the next morning we were chatting, and before I left he said........let's think about it, give it some time.

However, I felt so ***** about how he treated me that night, that I told him I'd rather stick with my happy-go-lcuky life in Amsterdam, than be in a relationship in which I feel lonely. I said I knew I had to give it some time and that I would wait for his E-mail. That was Sunday.

I didn't hear from him and I called him wednesday, but he didn't answer. So, Thursday I got an E-mail from him, saying that he tought it was good to see me, but that we didn't seem to great at spending too much time together.

I felt hurt and thought is was harsh of him to not talk to me, but just send me an E-mail. He said something about staying friends, but I doubt he meant that. He would have not got rid of me by E-mail if he would consider me to be a friend, right?

So, I guess it's the same old story. I love him, but he doesn't love me. I think he must have been agitated with me for the weekend, because I find it hard to believe he rather break up with me, than just talk with me. But, I guess I will never know. He doesn't think I'm good enough for him, so it really doesn't matter what I feel or think. It has been his call all along. Not mine.

It hurts a lot and I feel the pain all day and night. I guess my pain will fade away with time. And he'll find some other girl he can make miserable.

I'm holding on to the tought that I will get over this one day. And that there are many people who find love, so that there is no reason to assume that I will allways be lonely.