singing. dial up some youtube clips and belt the songs out. never fails

I eat a Hershey's kiss. Look how happy he is.

There's no cure for manic-depressive/schizo-affected personality.

Im bent and built on self destruction.

When Im good-Im great person

When Im bad-Im awful.

Last week I was reprimanded by H&R at work for screaming at a nurse.

If I keep getting provoked here,I'll probably post bad pictures.

When the last straw breaks,all hell breaks loose.

iaminparties said:

There's no cure for manic-depressive/schizo-affected personality.

Im bent and built on self destruction.

When Im good-Im great person

When Im bad-Im awful.

Last week I was reprimanded by H&R at work for screaming at a nurse.

If I keep getting provoked here,I'll probably post bad pictures.

When the last straw breaks,all hell breaks loose.

I thought I was bi - polar type 2. My subjective experience tallied with the symptoms. A psychiatrist said I have it. Through really experiencing stuck energy and seeing through deficient beliefs such as "I'm weak", "I'm bi polar type 2", the symptoms have lost their power, and I no longer believe that I am the label "bi-polar type 2".

What I'm saying is it might be useful to drop the label manic depressive/schizo affected personality.

this is a bit off topic, but might be of some use generally. forgive me as i'm suffering from cabin fever: i watched a documentary about pharmaceuticals that scared the shit right out of me.

long story short the phamaceutical industry has spent millions of dollars on lobbyists who are influencing how our primary care doctors are treating us. the new "norm" is for our physicians to prescribe pharmas that may or may NOT be approved for use in treating the specific condition at issue.

moreover, some currently popular and way over-prescribed pharmaceuticals which are currently being marketed on TV to the public come with what's called black box warnings. meaning, you will find, on your data sheet that comes with your scrip, a black outlined box which will tell you of negative drug effects. surprisingly, the FDA will allow drugs to be marketed even though they have serious, possibly life-threatening, side effects. (see, below).

because of this phenomenon (over prescription of mood altering prescription drugs for profit), people are experiencing symptoms like sudden explosive outbursts of rage, and (get this!) suicidal impulses which can actually be the result of bad drug combinations and/or side effects. it is terrifying to me that the FDA allows this to go on but then again we do live in a corporatocracy.

Occasionally rare but very serious adverse effects come to the notice of the pharmaceutical company. Sometimes, in the opinion of the FDA, these rare but serious effects do not mandate removal of the product from the market but do require notification to the prescribers. To insure that these potentially severe untoward effects are brought to the attention of the prescribers the FDA mandates a warning be published in the PI Sheet. To emphasize the concern, this warning is separated from the other warnings, cautions and alerts and surrounded in the PI sheet by a Black Box border around the text. This is designed to catch the attention of all concerned: prescribers; pharmacists; and the public. The FDA makes this warning because the drug carries a significant risk of serious or possibly even life-threatening adverse effects. Because the warning is boxed off from the rest by of the PI Sheet by a black ink border it is called a "Black Box Warning" or a "Black Label Warning."

EXAMPLE:

"The Food and Drug Administration will require two smoking-cessation drugs, Chantix and Zyban, to carry the agency's strongest safety warning over side effects including depression and suicidal thoughts.

"The new requirement, called a 'Black Box' warning, is based on reports of people experiencing unusual changes in behavior, becoming depressed, or having suicidal thoughts while taking the drugs."

—Damian J. Triose, "FDA Requires Chantix, Zyb...ve Warning," The Washington Post, July 1, 2009.

from: http://www.ealmanac.com/3...ceuticals/

Meshell Ndegeocello has a brief lyric in the song Mary Magdelene: "The world will blind you." I'm not one who subscribes to automatically eschewing the things of the world, but I totally believe that lyric. And when I'm down or disillusioned, I find my place by retreating to -- and realigning myself with -- an internal sense of purpose. It may not always make me happy per se, but it does slough off the feeling of being lost in the world or of life being futile, which I personally find far, far worse than unhappiness.

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Lammastide said:

Meshell Ndegeocello has a brief lyric in the song Mary Magdelene: "The world will blind you." I'm not one who subscribes to automatically eschewing the things of the world, but I totally believe that lyric. And when I'm down or disillusioned, I find my place by retreating to -- and realigning myself with -- an internal sense of purpose. It may not always make me happy per se, but it does slough off the feeling of being lost in the world or of life being futile, which I personally find far, far worse than unhappiness.

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Yes, "To thine own self be true".

Enjoy music and things like that. Keeps me stupidly happy.

Of course, I let out sarcastic and cynical things out of my mouth all the time, which to many means I must be "negative". I haven't found a solution to that problem. I'm not going to let go of my sense of humour just to please everyone.

nursev said:

pray n drink

Amen

stay positive? move away from the snow zone. certainly don't linger around when they tell you yet another winter storm is coming. run! do it!

I let the sunshine in and face it with a grin.

Look at men and try to imagine what they look like naked.

Lammastide said:

Meshell Ndegeocello has a brief lyric in the song Mary Magdelene: "The world will blind you." I'm not one who subscribes to automatically eschewing the things of the world, but I totally believe that lyric. And when I'm down or disillusioned, I find my place by retreating to -- and realigning myself with -- an internal sense of purpose. It may not always make me happy per se, but it does slough off the feeling of being lost in the world or of life being futile, which I personally find far, far worse than unhappiness.

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This.^

Thank you all for your great replies!

I'm struggling too.


It's my nature to be depressed.

And I still think there's something physically wrong with me. Because eventhough I'm not as tired and exhausted as I was before (diet change), I still don't have the same energy level as other people have. Am going to the hospital for another check, hopefully there will be an outcome that I can work with.



And I convince myself to get up and do something. That helps.

I will never commit suicide.

Therefore, the only other option is to make something out of my life.

So, I'll get up and try to do something that will be good for me.

dJJ said:

Thank you all for your great replies!

I'm struggling too.


It's my nature to be depressed.

And I still think there's something physically wrong with me. Because eventhough I'm not as tired and exhausted as I was before (diet change), I still don't have the same energy level as other people have. Am going to the hospital for another check, hopefully there will be an outcome that I can work with.



And I convince myself to get up and do something. That helps.

I will never commit suicide.

Therefore, the only other option is to make something out of my life.

So, I'll get up and try to do something that will be good for me.

Depression has lifted for me since I looked at deficiency beliefs such as "I'm unlovable, I'm weak, I'm all alone". These are just stories, albeit stories that seem real. They seem real because there are physical sensations in my body that seem "velcroed" to these beliefs which make them seem real.

I would suggest that the belief "It's my nature to be depressed", is a story you are telling yourself and in fact may be contributing to the depression.

dJJ said:

Thank you all for your great replies!

I'm struggling too.


It's my nature to be depressed.

And I still think there's something physically wrong with me. Because eventhough I'm not as tired and exhausted as I was before (diet change), I still don't have the same energy level as other people have. Am going to the hospital for another check, hopefully there will be an outcome that I can work with.



And I convince myself to get up and do something. That helps.

I will never commit suicide.

Therefore, the only other option is to make something out of my life.

So, I'll get up and try to do something that will be good for me.

I have been having some health issues as well. My issues are not depression related however I've discovered the answer to my problems and it may be the answer to yours. NIACIN (vitamin B3). This stuff is amazing and is turning my life around day by day. It has also been shown to be the answer to many people's health issues (ie depression, schizophrenia, alcoholism, anxiety, high cholesterol, heart discease, cardiovascular issues, extreme fatigue, etc.) due to a niacin deficiency. It's amazing stuff and detoxifies the body beautifully in addition to many, many other beneficial things. My body has been slowly healing over the last 2 months that I've been taking Niacin. You have to slowly find the optimum dose that's just right for you (start low & work up). Niacin is saving my life and I mean that sincerely.

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Read up on Dr. Hoffer's discoveries here: http://www.doctoryourself...iacin.html as well as in the book NIACIN: The Real Story b...Dr. Foster. (I purchased it at Amazon).

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If you decide to take it be sure to read up on it first and take real NIACIN (immediate release) not the slow release kind. You can read more about that. It's also good to take a B Complex vitamin when taking higher doses of Niacin because the B vitamins work as a team. The reason for starting low & working your way up is due to the niacin flush. You can read more on that too.

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http://foodmatters.tv/art...nd-anxiety (watch the video too)

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Be sure to Google Dr Hoffer and the other Drs. There are some really good reads out there.

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ConsciousContact said:

dJJ said:

Thank you all for your great replies!

I'm struggling too.


It's my nature to be depressed.

And I still think there's something physically wrong with me. Because eventhough I'm not as tired and exhausted as I was before (diet change), I still don't have the same energy level as other people have. Am going to the hospital for another check, hopefully there will be an outcome that I can work with.



And I convince myself to get up and do something. That helps.

I will never commit suicide.

Therefore, the only other option is to make something out of my life.

So, I'll get up and try to do something that will be good for me.

Depression has lifted for me since I looked at deficiency beliefs such as "I'm unlovable, I'm weak, I'm all alone". These are just stories, albeit stories that seem real. They seem real because there are physical sensations in my body that seem "velcroed" to these beliefs which make them seem real.

I would suggest that the belief "It's my nature to be depressed", is a story you are telling yourself and in fact may be contributing to the depression.

Yes, that is true.

I should not label myself like that.


However, I struggle with reality of life. Is that a better way to express what interferes with my happiness?

Tempest said:

dJJ said:

Thank you all for your great replies!

I'm struggling too.


It's my nature to be depressed.

And I still think there's something physically wrong with me. Because eventhough I'm not as tired and exhausted as I was before (diet change), I still don't have the same energy level as other people have. Am going to the hospital for another check, hopefully there will be an outcome that I can work with.



And I convince myself to get up and do something. That helps.

I will never commit suicide.

Therefore, the only other option is to make something out of my life.

So, I'll get up and try to do something that will be good for me.

I have been having some health issues as well. My issues are not depression related however I've discovered the answer to my problems and it may be the answer to yours. NIACIN (vitamin B3). This stuff is amazing and is turning my life around day by day. It has also been shown to be the answer to many people's health issues (ie depression, schizophrenia, alcoholism, anxiety, high cholesterol, heart discease, cardiovascular issues, extreme fatigue, etc.) due to a niacin deficiency. It's amazing stuff and detoxifies the body beautifully in addition to many, many other beneficial things. My body has been slowly healing over the last 2 months that I've been taking Niacin. You have to slowly find the optimum dose that's just right for you (start low & work up). Niacin is saving my life and I mean that sincerely.

*

Read up on Dr. Hoffer's discoveries here: http://www.doctoryourself...iacin.html as well as in the book NIACIN: The Real Story b...Dr. Foster. (I purchased it at Amazon).

*

If you decide to take it be sure to read up on it first and take real NIACIN (immediate release) not the slow release kind. You can read more about that. It's also good to take a B Complex vitamin when taking higher doses of Niacin because the B vitamins work as a team. The reason for starting low & working your way up is due to the niacin flush. You can read more on that too.

*

http://foodmatters.tv/art...nd-anxiety (watch the video too)

*

Be sure to Google Dr Hoffer and the other Drs. There are some really good reads out there.

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I will look it up. Never heard of Niacin before.

dJJ said:

Tempest said:

I have been having some health issues as well. My issues are not depression related however I've discovered the answer to my problems and it may be the answer to yours. NIACIN (vitamin B3). This stuff is amazing and is turning my life around day by day. It has also been shown to be the answer to many people's health issues (ie depression, schizophrenia, alcoholism, anxiety, high cholesterol, heart discease, cardiovascular issues, extreme fatigue, etc.) due to a niacin deficiency. It's amazing stuff and detoxifies the body beautifully in addition to many, many other beneficial things. My body has been slowly healing over the last 2 months that I've been taking Niacin. You have to slowly find the optimum dose that's just right for you (start low & work up). Niacin is saving my life and I mean that sincerely.

*

Read up on Dr. Hoffer's discoveries here: http://www.doctoryourself...iacin.html as well as in the book NIACIN: The Real Story b...Dr. Foster. (I purchased it at Amazon).

*

If you decide to take it be sure to read up on it first and take real NIACIN (immediate release) not the slow release kind. You can read more about that. It's also good to take a B Complex vitamin when taking higher doses of Niacin because the B vitamins work as a team. The reason for starting low & working your way up is due to the niacin flush. You can read more on that too.

*

http://foodmatters.tv/art...nd-anxiety (watch the video too)

*

Be sure to Google Dr Hoffer and the other Drs. There are some really good reads out there.

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I will look it up. Never heard of Niacin before.

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I'm really glad you're going to look into it. Niacin is Vitamin B3 that your body requires for many, many things. Stress & anxiety will drain your body of it very quickly. That's what happened to me over the course of a few years of MAXIMUM stress overload. Stress really did a number on me and affected my body negatively. So, I'm on the mend, slowly but surely. Niacin (discovering the truth about it) was a God send in my life and I pray it is in yours as well. Healing thoughts your way.

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ANOTHER GOOD LINK: http://www.amidepressedte...epression/

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