When? Where? Why?

Today, at home, thinking about the totally heart-breaking talk with my ex on the phone yesterday.

Last month during my period. I woke at 3am and was in increasing pain until 4pm, eventually the pain just got to me. That had never happened before.

Probably one or two months ago, thinking about the time when I still lived with my mum and my little brother, and thinking about how I should have savoured that time much more.

I hate crying like I hate death and disease.

Sometimes, I may feel an urge to for whatever reasons, but I automatically hold them back.

Crying makes me feel helpless, powerless and stupid...it's never the "cleansing relief" people seem to describe. I can't relate to wanting to watch a tear-jerker movie to have "a good cry". Those sorts of movies feel manipulative to me, at best.

That said, it was about six months ago when I lost my job. See? Helpless, powerless and stupid.

Today.

JustErin said:

Today.

Me too. Right now.

a couple of weeks ago while watching "Dirty Dancing"

The other day when I was listening to this song... it made me think of my Dad... Elvis always reminds me of dad... Seems to be getting harder instead of easier..

Uhope said:

It was 3 days ago and I was at home. I had a bad falling out with someone a few days before then and I was thinking about it a lot and trying to make sense of it all

Emotional crying is a complicated issue with me. The act of having a good cry, is rare with me, I get emotional and teary about everything under the sun but to actually breakdown and have a good cry hardly happens. I've been that way my entire life, my goldfish died I bawled buckets, a friend hurt my feelings hardly a tear even privately. I've woke up crying more than I actually cry and that's been a long time too.

Last night watching the people and Wendy Davis standing up to the Texas Senate and their desire to hinder women's rights.

I cry all the time. I tear up quite easily, especially just before my period.

That said, the last real cry I had was in the last few weeks. A very good friend of mine died on June 9th. I've never had anyone closer to me pass away. The first few days brought big crying jags off and on. These days it's just a few tears here and there as things remind me of him. It really, really sucks.

Today at home due to my financial situation.

Just yesterday. I was on Youtube reading this comment left by a young girl about her grandfather:

"Hello, When I heard this I cried. It reminds me of my Grandpa, he died when I was 4, now I'm 11. He was my Best friend. And my dad said he loved sports and Lionel Richie. I wish my Grandpa could see me play Basketball, Softball, and golf, I know he would have been so proud of me. But god bless my Grandpa in heaven. My Grandma who is missing him every second of the day, and hopefully her house will sell soon, it has been a year now. God bless all of you too! And anyone who lost someone too."

This touched my heart because it was so sincerely written. I pictured a nice older gentleman going to all of this young girl's ball games, cheering her on when she made the winning basket or hit the home run that made her team win. It made me think of my own grandparents. Even though they have been gone over 20 years, I miss them every day. But I know that they are in a better place now.

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Stymie said:

Me too. Right now.

Saturday, alone in my living room. I'd rather not get into the reason.

funkyslsistah said:

Today at home due to my financial situation.

oh man crap

A few moments ago in my car.

The reason is personal.

About 2 months ago....in the doctors office.

I kinda feel like crying now(but i wont).

^Family stuff.

Last night watching Wendy Davis take a stand for the women of Texas... it was inspiring and some of it fell in my eyeball...

Big softy here
I tear up when something moves me. I never cry if something 'bad' happens to me personally though.

Everytime I see this scene

I'm a big softie also. I cry at commercials. Sad movies...I cried the other day watching Finding Nemo with my 3yo grandson because he was sad (spoiler alert) when the mom and eggs got eaten...

The last time I really was a month ago when I found out my great-nephew (18) had a cancerous brain tumor. It's just so not fair.

Serious said:

Today, at home, thinking about the totally heart-breaking talk with my ex on the phone yesterday.

noimageatall said:

Serious said:

Today, at home, thinking about the totally heart-breaking talk with my ex on the phone yesterday.

Thank you April . It's so sad when 2 people love each other so much but it doesn't work because of all the circumstances .

So sorry about your great-nephew, life is so cruel sometimes .

A big to everybody who feels like crying

Serious said:

A big to everybody who feels like crying

See? Just your comments here make me shed a tear. Even if it is just a message board...I 'feel' your hug.