ZombieKitten said:

When things don't happen the way I planned I fall apart. I think it's a disorder - I don't see other people around me affected the same way, they manage to stay calm and positive and I feel helpless and distressed. It's like I get to the point where if I don't get some good news today, the day is a write-off.

Think of days like skin cells and other cells; old ones die and new ones replace them on a daily level.

Eventually the whole process slows down, and as you get older you don"t replace your skin cells so readily.

Now if you take care of yourself and stay active you can keep this up much longer.

So you are now getting some physical activity which will help you immensely mentally and emotionally. It is all very connected.

As you see getting fit as a process and see that all those trips to the gym add up, so too you will see that all these attempts in other areas also add up.

Something tells me that your best years are ahead of you. I just have that feeling about you.

LadyCasanova said:

Deadflow3r said:

So you have gone before?

What do you like best about it?

What part of California is it in?

Good seeing you again!

Yes, I have gone for the last 2 years.

I LOVE seeing everyone all dressed up in their Pirate gear. People really change when they are

in character.

It was hosted in Vallejo, California.

Thanks dear!!

Sort of like Halloween; put a mask on someone and you see a side of them you haven't seen before. It is nice that there are other events besides Halloween to let your secret self take the stage, and that nice presentable person you mainly are go behind the curtain.

paintedlady said:

Deadflow3r said:

lol, yes, it may be one of the few places left to discuss it.

Right now I can only live vicariously through others since lining up a home and job are my big priority.

Step by step and bit by bit you are getting things done! Good for you.

No worries... soon I'll be living vicariously through you when you hit the dating scene again.

LOL, there is still some life in me yet. I have never been married. I can see myself marrying for the first time in my 70's or 80's.

psychodelicide said:

It's past 7:30 p.m., and I still don't have my work schedule for the upcoming week. I don't understand why they make me wait so damn long to receive it. Going to text them nicely and ask, "Where is it?" This is ridiculous!

Maybe it is a suprise vacation week .

Deadflow3r said:

psychodelicide said:

It's past 7:30 p.m., and I still don't have my work schedule for the upcoming week. I don't understand why they make me wait so damn long to receive it. Going to text them nicely and ask, "Where is it?" This is ridiculous!

Maybe it is a suprise vacation week .

That would be nice.

Deadflow3r said:

ZombieKitten said:

Deadflow3r said:

Think of days like skin cells and other cells; old ones die and new ones replace them on a daily level.

Eventually the whole process slows down, and as you get older you don"t replace your skin cells so readily.

Now if you take care of yourself and stay active you can keep this up much longer.

So you are now getting some physical activity which will help you immensely mentally and emotionally. It is all very connected.

As you see getting fit as a process and see that all those trips to the gym add up, so too you will see that all these attempts in other areas also add up.

Something tells me that your best years are ahead of you. I just have that feeling about you.

My post was actually about not getting to the gym yesterday

hahaha, OMG, hahaha!!!!

Deadflow3r said:

ZombieKitten said:

Deadflow3r said:

hahaha, OMG, hahaha!!!!

I did an aqua fitness class last night and a body combat this morning so it all worked out in the end

GOOD! PURPLEJEDI turned me on to Ernestine Shepherd, who didn't start body building until over 55 and looks crazy good now at 75. That really changed the way I looked at my part in the aging process.

I have gained maybe 10lbs since moving to Boston!!!

I had worked so hard to lose this weight that I am not going to let this happen!!!!

I bought a sxale so that I can stay on top of it. I MUST weigh myself every day or I just eat without any awareness of the consequences. I do not get full easily so it is so easy for me to overeat. I have to just kkep track of the fact that I have eaten plenty and despite feeling hungry, I am not starving to death and do not need to eat more!!!

[Edited 6/25/13 8:44am]

Working from home today...or not

Hey I got a job!

Now I need a home! Given that I have been in this town for only a month that is not bad!

Deadflow3r said:

Deadflow3r said:

Hey I got a job!

Now I need a home! Given that I have been in this town for only a month that is not bad!

YOU GO GIRL!!!!

Deadflow3r said:

I have gained maybe 10lbs since moving to Boston!!!

I had worked so hard to lose this weight that I am not going to let this happen!!!!

I bought a sxale so that I can stay on top of it. I MUST weigh myself every day or I just eat without any awareness of the consequences. I do not get full easily so it is so easy for me to overeat. I have to just kkep track of the fact that I have eaten plenty and despite feeling hungry, I am not starving to death and do not need to eat more!!!

[Edited 6/25/13 8:44am]

They told me at my assessment I'm 35% body fat

There is no way!!!! I bought some calipers to do the 7 point measurement, I don't believe those scales.

I'm sure it's the boobs, they weigh like 5kg (32GG )

Deadflow3r said:

Hey I got a job!

Now I need a home! Given that I have been in this town for only a month that is not bad!

congrats !

Nothinbutjoy said:

Deadflow3r said:

Hey I got a job!

Now I need a home! Given that I have been in this town for only a month that is not bad!

* * * * CONGRATULATIONS!

THANK YOU!!!!

LadyCasanova said:

Deadflow3r said:

Hey I got a job!

Now I need a home! Given that I have been in this town for only a month that is not bad!

YOU GO GIRL!!!!

THANK YOU!!!!

Serious said:

Deadflow3r said:

Hey I got a job!

Now I need a home! Given that I have been in this town for only a month that is not bad!

congrats !

THANK YOU!!!!

In this city,Boston, most of the shelters are on a day to day basis and that can get exausting. There are two that you don't want to be in Woods Mullen and "the Island", and a third called the Pine St in which is a bit better but usually there is more women then beds. So

Each day between 2pm and 3pm you need to migrate to that shelter and put you name in the basket to be pulled. Somewhere around 3;30pm they begin to pull the 70 names in groups of 10. The process takes FOREVER AND IS STRESSFUL.

At about 4pm you know if you are going to be able to stay or not. If not you then must remain in the lobby and wait for a van. The van takes you to the first dump, Woods Mullen. You don't get to stay there. You must wait for the city bus that will take you and often some drunken ass men to the Island. The Island is in Quincy and the surrounding area is beautiful, but you won't be enjoying any beauty.

Needless to say I have been doing my best to get into a shelter that is better. I found one that is only run during the summer and takes in only 12 people. Most of the homeless people I have spoke to have never heard of it. THANK GOD, because I got in!!!

I can stay here until August 10th free of charge. I have to leave the building at 7:30am and be gone until 6:30pm. My curfew is 8:30pm but with a job they allow you to stay out later. Hopefully I will be set up someplace by August 1st. I am thinking about even staying at the YWCA. I am grateful that I don't have to think about "where am I going to sleep" starting at 2pm in the afternoon! It is no wonder some of these women are beyond stressed.

So, given that I have just passed one month in this town, I am doing quite well.

ZombieKitten said:

Deadflow3r said:

I have gained maybe 10lbs since moving to Boston!!!

I had worked so hard to lose this weight that I am not going to let this happen!!!!

I bought a sxale so that I can stay on top of it. I MUST weigh myself every day or I just eat without any awareness of the consequences. I do not get full easily so it is so easy for me to overeat. I have to just kkep track of the fact that I have eaten plenty and despite feeling hungry, I am not starving to death and do not need to eat more!!!

[Edited 6/25/13 8:44am]

They told me at my assessment I'm 35% body fat

There is no way!!!! I bought some calipers to do the 7 point measurement, I don't believe those scales.

I'm sure it's the boobs, they weigh like 5kg (32GG )

Blame it all on the boobs. 35% body fat is not bad for someone who wasn't that physically active before now. You were always busy and have 3 boys so that may have helped.

Deadflow3r said:

My husband was fired from his job earlier this month. He had appealed it and had his hearing yesterday. We won't know the result of the hearing for a week, give or take. My husband has been applying for jobs EVERYWHERE, even in other states, which would mean a major move for our family. The only hit he's gotten is for a hospital on the outskirts of San Antonio, TX. That's great for him, he grew up there and he's been wanting to move back for awhile now. It's not great for me. I hate Texas. H.A.T.E. it with a loathing that I cannot begin to do justice to with mere words. So here we sit.

Thank you Mom for making a very stressful situation just that much more stressful.

My kid who just had his tonsillectomy 3 weeks ago and who is recovering from bronchitis now, has to have x-rays and an ultrasound of his shoulder/top of his arm. He has a huge hard lump there that I didn't even notice until we were in the hospital and I was helping him on with his hospital gown. I thought maybe it was a bite (he gets enormous swellings from mosquito bites etc) but it wasn't hot, itchy or sore. Doc thinks it's a BONY growth yikes. Poor child can't get a break this month.

ZombieKitten said:

My kid who just had his tonsillectomy 3 weeks ago and who is recovering from bronchitis now, has to have x-rays and an ultrasound of his shoulder/top of his arm. He has a huge hard lump there that I didn't even notice until we were in the hospital and I was helping him on with his hospital gown. I thought maybe it was a bite (he gets enormous swellings from mosquito bites etc) but it wasn't hot, itchy or sore. Doc thinks it's a BONY growth yikes. Poor child can't get a break this month.

Oh no

Serious said:

ZombieKitten said:

Serious said:

Oh no

I think it's an osteochondroma. A benign tumor.

Yikes, your kids have had some health scares. (If I recall right they seem to happen when you have plans like holiday etc).

Deadflow3r said:

Those pita chips I ate have made me very thirsty. I keep drinking Pepsi, hoping it goes away soon.