hospitals and doctors

Too many but I'm in no novel writing mood today

Can I say I have a fear of addiction? I had a crisis yesterday and my cousin happened to leave a box of butts in my car awhile back and I just want to have some of it to calm my nerves though I think smoking is disgusting and I have a fear of lighting fires or going near them. I know all users are not addicts, but I know myself with my addictive and obsessive ways and see it happening cause the only times I ever wanted to do anything though I don't do it was when I had higher stress than usual.

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peacenlovealways said:

Ever since I was young 10...11 my mom always made fun of my body...I was small and skinny. I think I was damaged at some point, because ever since I always wear a jacket even in 90 and above degree weather. It's stupid I know. I also feel people will judge what I'm wearing and my skinny arms since at my last job I was called "arms". At my current job there is one guy who always makes fun of my weight, but it's nothing too serious with him. I have multiple food allergies and a messed up stomach. One time a guy stopped his van in the middle of the street to ask me if I was hot.

Try growing up as a GUY with skinny arms/legs.

I went through my entire childhood not wearing shorts or tanktops.

I think that in high school I discovered long shorts (the ones that came down below the knee) and after college I finally started wearing tank tops.

But as a girl, you should have no complex about being skinny. At least not in this society.

As for my "weird" phobia/fear...?

(I've mentioned this before) I have a strange fear of being crushed underneath an overpass. You know the train or highway overpasses? When I'm driving and I get stuck in traffic directly underneath one, I start getting anxious. Then, God forbid a TRAIN should happen to pass overhead?!?!?

I am convinced that one of those will crush me to death one day.

I wouldn't exactly call it a phobia or a fear, but under the heading of "Things I'm uncomfortable with..." would be animated characters that are larger than they should be. Example: Those Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade balloons used to freak me the Hell out!

PDogz said:

I wouldn't exactly call it a phobia or a fear, but under the heading of "Things I'm uncomfortable with..." would be animated characters that are larger than they should be. Example: Those Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade balloons used to freak me the Hell out!

Not too weird, but I can be quite afraid of heights. I don't like balconies at all.

One of my second cousins is afraid of strawberries.

Hot air balloons, no problem. But these things I start hyperventilating.

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PurpleJedi said:

PDogz said:

I wouldn't exactly call it a phobia or a fear, but under the heading of "Things I'm uncomfortable with..." would be animated characters that are larger than they should be. Example: Those Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade balloons used to freak me the Hell out!

I don't like open stairs. I get the heebeegeebees on them. I have terrible balance and I'm afraid I'm going to trip and fall.

i'm afraid to drive, and it makes things difficult for me living in california (the area i do live in at least) because i have to rely on my husband to drive me and my son everywhere. and there isn't good public transportation in my area. so i always feel ashamed when people find out i don't drive, because they look at me like i'm crazy. but my parents told me so many times when i was a teenager that i was a bad driver, and constantly put me down, that i still can't get over this. and i have no confidence when it comes to getting behind the wheel.

morningsong said:

Hot air balloons, no problem. But these things I start hyperventilating.

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Yes!

I actually sat on the floor of one going over Disney World.

I thought I could handle it, but I started freaking out. I became convinced that the cable was going to snap.

When the cable car passed going in the other direction, the guy inside said, "Wow! She looks scared!" He had no idea.

Heights...

ZombieKitten said:

I USED to be mortified of heights and depths but I seem to have got over it In 1996 my mum paid for us to up the elevator in la Sagrada Familia cathedral in Barcelona but once I reached the top I couldn't even look out at the view I was so freaked out, all I could do was walk down the interminable amount of steps to get back down, clutching at the bannister and looking anywhere but out through the windows. My mum was sooooo mad. The same year a handful of us drove up Mt Barrow (Tasmania) on a dirt track in an old Valiant and I had to lie accross my friends laps because I was too afraid to look out of the windows. In 1998 I realized my fear of heights extended to depths so snorkeling in the barrier reef wasn't a pleasant experience The last real fearful episode I had was probably around 2006, on the observation floor of the Eureka Tower, which isn't as high up as the observation deck on the empire state building. I couldn't go near the floor to ceiling windows. But since then I've been for a few helicopter rides and cable car rides, and I'm up in every steeple and skyscraper I can get into, not to mention plane rides. Last year I was up in he Eureka tower again and there wasn't even a hint of anxiety I find planes and skyscrapers thrilling probably BECAUSE of the fear but instead of avoiding heights I'm drawn to them. I am making plans now to go skydiving.

it takes me 20 minutes to leave the house i constantly go back inside checking windows, house alarm is activated, iron, hair dryer, lights etc r off...

its like a safety phobia and because of it i am often late

i also tend not to tread on cracks in the foot path - i often walk over them

and.... yes there's more

but if i say them all u'll think i'm weird

peacenlovealways said:

Ever since I was young 10...11 my mom always made fun of my body...I was small and skinny. I think I was damaged at some point, because ever since I always wear a jacket even in 90 and above degree weather. It's stupid I know. I also feel people will judge what I'm wearing and my skinny arms since at my last job I was called "arms". At my current job there is one guy who always makes fun of my weight, but it's nothing too serious with him. I have multiple food allergies and a messed up stomach. One time a guy stopped his van in the middle of the street to ask me if I was hot.

I was always quite skinny (and still am). I guess you just gotta find a way around it and use it to your advantage

Be glad you're not a huge fucking bear with no agility and no sensual movement. We're cats on our tiptoes - elegant but deadly.

ThisOne said:

it takes me 20 minutes to leave the house i constantly go back inside checking windows, house alarm is activated, iron, hair dryer, lights etc r off...

its like a safety phobia and because of it i am often late

i also tend not to tread on cracks in the foot path - i often walk over them

and.... yes there's more

but if i say them all u'll think i'm weird

no....I check my locks a lot and stove and iron before I leave ...I want to know what else you have...

PurpleJedi said:

peacenlovealways said:

Ever since I was young 10...11 my mom always made fun of my body...I was small and skinny. I think I was damaged at some point, because ever since I always wear a jacket even in 90 and above degree weather. It's stupid I know. I also feel people will judge what I'm wearing and my skinny arms since at my last job I was called "arms". At my current job there is one guy who always makes fun of my weight, but it's nothing too serious with him. I have multiple food allergies and a messed up stomach. One time a guy stopped his van in the middle of the street to ask me if I was hot.

Try growing up as a GUY with skinny arms/legs.

I went through my entire childhood not wearing shorts or tanktops.

I think that in high school I discovered long shorts (the ones that came down below the knee) and after college I finally started wearing tank tops.

But as a girl, you should have no complex about being skinny. At least not in this society.

As for my "weird" phobia/fear...?

(I've mentioned this before) I have a strange fear of being crushed underneath an overpass. You know the train or highway overpasses? When I'm driving and I get stuck in traffic directly underneath one, I start getting anxious. Then, God forbid a TRAIN should happen to pass overhead?!?!?

I am convinced that one of those will crush me to death one day.

I sometimes think about that too.

peacenlovealways said:

ThisOne said:

it takes me 20 minutes to leave the house i constantly go back inside checking windows, house alarm is activated, iron, hair dryer, lights etc r off...

its like a safety phobia and because of it i am often late

i also tend not to tread on cracks in the foot path - i often walk over them

and.... yes there's more

but if i say them all u'll think i'm weird

no....I check my locks a lot and stove and iron before I leave ...I want to know what else you have...

WATCHOUT!!!

peace sounds like a burgurgurlur

Dave1992 said:

peacenlovealways said:

Ever since I was young 10...11 my mom always made fun of my body...I was small and skinny. I think I was damaged at some point, because ever since I always wear a jacket even in 90 and above degree weather. It's stupid I know. I also feel people will judge what I'm wearing and my skinny arms since at my last job I was called "arms". At my current job there is one guy who always makes fun of my weight, but it's nothing too serious with him. I have multiple food allergies and a messed up stomach. One time a guy stopped his van in the middle of the street to ask me if I was hot.

I was always quite skinny (and still am). I guess you just gotta find a way around it and use it to your advantage

Be glad you're not a huge fucking bear with no agility and no sensual movement. We're cats on our tiptoes - elegant but deadly.

me, too. I used to be very self conscious about it. In fact, people used to constantly tell me "you're too skinny" or even "you look emaciated" Somehow that is okay to tell someone to their face, but you'd never say "please lose ten pounds"

But like you say, that concern goes away, as does the innate ability to eat anything and never gain weight. Once you hit 30 the rules change a bit.

I have a bit of claustrophobia, or an offshoot of it. I don't think it's exactly a fear of small places, but rather the fear of being stuck somewhere. So it ties into my fear of flying. I am not scared so much of crashing (well of course I am aware of it) as much as being on a plane and not being able to get off if I need to.

I am even more scared of a cruise. I am slightly scared of deep water, but REALLY scared of being stuck on a boat for days.

peacenlovealways said:

ThisOne said:

it takes me 20 minutes to leave the house i constantly go back inside checking windows, house alarm is activated, iron, hair dryer, lights etc r off...

its like a safety phobia and because of it i am often late

i also tend not to tread on cracks in the foot path - i often walk over them

and.... yes there's more

but if i say them all u'll think i'm weird

no....I check my locks a lot and stove and iron before I leave ...I want to know what else you have...

well there r a few one i inherited from my mum something about never stepping over clothing as it gives bad luck to who ever ownes the clothing - so i am always picking up stuff

i also get paranoid when i see big black crows flying around my place as i worry one of them may attack my dog

i worry and get paranoid about those i care 4 esp if i dont hear from them 4 a long time ~ i want 2 live in a perfect world where nothing happens to my loved ones..............

but mostly my biggest fear is something happening 2 one of my kids ~ that fear began the minute i became a mum and it just gets bigger and bigger and bigger as they get older!!!!!! it keeps me up at night and i always check on them and obsess about them

One of my biggest fears is if I don't smoke emcees...I'll smoke crack.

Tittypants said:

One of my biggest fears is if I don't smoke emcees...I'll smoke crack.

but wait!!!!!!

what r emcees????

ThisOne said:

Tittypants said:

One of my biggest fears is if I don't smoke emcees...I'll smoke crack.

but wait!!!!!!

what r emcees????

Tittypants said:

ThisOne said:

but wait!!!!!!

what r emcees????

stop it!!!

stop laughing i said!!!

what r emcees????

i dont know why but i actually have a fear of being banned!!!!

ThisOne said:

i dont know why but i actually have a fear of being banned!!!!

Me too.

Tittypants said:

ThisOne said:

i dont know why but i actually have a fear of being banned!!!!

Me too.

what could u possibly get banned 4?????? u r the org saint!!!!

they call u tittysaint behind your back!!!!

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