Hey there orgers, could really use some advice from y'all... feeling kind of down when I should be feeling ecstatic.

A while back I made a thread about whether or not this guy I was seeing liked me (he's in college, I'm in highschool) because we'd been out about 4 times and he hadn't kissed me.

Well, he came home for Thanksgiving, and yesterday we spent pratically the whole day together. We went to the zoo, got Mexican food, walked through a park and just drove around talking a lot.

Things went well, but about halfway through all this, I kind of decided I was being silly, and that if he hadn't done anything yet, he probably just wanted to be friends, and I shouldn't try to ruin that because I do enjoy his friendship.

At the end of the day, he drove me home and we parked in my driveway, just talking for a little while. He got all serious, saying he wasn't going to be able to come back very often, because although he'd be back for Christmas, he's got internships and jobs lined up for next summer. And I just sort of nodded and was like "okay, well we can still keep in touch, etc." and then he said, "yeah, but there's one thing I want to do first."

At this point I'd actually been in the process of looking down at my iPod, trying to turn off the music, but since he kind of paused, I turned to look up at him, and the second I did, his tongue was in my month. It happened so fast, I kinda thought I'd blacked out or something... anyway, we kissed for what felt like about 20 seconds, and when I pulled away I giggled a little and he laughed and said that he was overjoyed at the artist I'd chosen to play on my iPod, because a few days prior he'd look up some of their songs on youtube (when he'd seen I'd liked them on fb) and seen that a lot of the comments were people saying they got their first kiss to these songs, and that he thought that was really cool.

So naturally I came home with butterflies in my stomach and just feeling like the luckiest girl in the world. A few hours later I texted him, and we joked that I was going to get the fever he had a few days ago, etc. And then I asked him how I was... and he replied. "Oh god I knew I shouldn't have... ahem well actually I was kinda surprised."

To which I said

"define surprised?"

and he said "You went left."

I told him I couldn't really help it, he came at me so fast... and then he told me that he really wasn't one to judge, since he hasn't kissed a ton of people (at least sober) and that I'd get more practice once I found someone at my highschool or wherever.

In short, I'm depressed. It sounds to me like the kiss meant nothing to him, and that he doesn't expect us to ever really see each other again, and that we're both supposed to just move on.

Am I reading too much into this? What does he mean? Why did he kiss me in the first place then?

It sounds that you two really like eachother.

And maybe he has feelings for you to, however, can't see a way for the two of you work out together because the age difference and because he's away from you a lot.

I think you can ask him what the kiss meant. And be honest about your own feelings to him.

You can only find out by talking to him about it.

Why don't you just ask him?

Oh, what I wouldn't do to have a love life that was only this complicated.

Honestly, don't stress. He obviously likes you or he wouldn't have kissed you. I'm sure it meant something to him....even with that comment about other high school boys.

Like dJJ said, I would just tell him you like him and ask if he feels the same. Maybe you can pick up where you left off when he returns.

He likes u.

The first kiss is always messy and awkward so don't worry it's normal.

I found your account very romantic...you have a nice writing style..

Thanks everyone. Yeah, I talked to him, and I said that to me, it felt like he was saying he regretted it. He told me that I was the coolest person he'd ever met in his home state, and that before me he hated coming home, but I made that all change. Then he said that actually, it was quite the opposite that he regrets it. He said now he feels like he has no regrets in the past 20 years. Then he said "you made me a normal person again."

I know he's not very romantic by nature, so this really touched me.

TheFreakerFantastic said:

He likes u.

The first kiss is always messy and awkward so don't worry it's normal.

I found your account very romantic...you have a nice writing style..

That's so nice of you to say! I actually aspire to be a writer...

AmandaWint3r said:

Thanks everyone. Yeah, I talked to him, and I said that to me, it felt like he was saying he regretted it. He told me that I was the coolest person he'd ever met in his home state, and that before me he hated coming home, but I made that all change. Then he said that actually, it was quite the opposite that he regrets it. He said now he feels like he has no regrets in the past 20 years. Then he said "you made me a normal person again."

I know he's not very romantic by nature, so this really touched me.

Aaaaw, he likes you.

Just play it by ear. You seem to have a nice contact eventhough you'r not together. Have fun together and enjoy. After you finished highschool you can see where you two are at then.

AmandaWint3r said:

Hey there orgers, could really use some advice from y'all... feeling kind of down when I should be feeling ecstatic.

A while back I made a thread about whether or not this guy I was seeing liked me (he's in college, I'm in highschool) because we'd been out about 4 times and he hadn't kissed me.

Well, he came home for Thanksgiving, and yesterday we spent pratically the whole day together. We went to the zoo, got Mexican food, walked through a park and just drove around talking a lot.

Things went well, but about halfway through all this, I kind of decided I was being silly, and that if he hadn't done anything yet, he probably just wanted to be friends, and I shouldn't try to ruin that because I do enjoy his friendship.

At the end of the day, he drove me home and we parked in my driveway, just talking for a little while. He got all serious, saying he wasn't going to be able to come back very often, because although he'd be back for Christmas, he's got internships and jobs lined up for next summer. And I just sort of nodded and was like "okay, well we can still keep in touch, etc." and then he said, "yeah, but there's one thing I want to do first."

At this point I'd actually been in the process of looking down at my iPod, trying to turn off the music, but since he kind of paused, I turned to look up at him, and the second I did, his tongue was in my month. It happened so fast, I kinda thought I'd blacked out or something... anyway, we kissed for what felt like about 20 seconds, and when I pulled away I giggled a little and he laughed and said that he was overjoyed at the artist I'd chosen to play on my iPod, because a few days prior he'd look up some of their songs on youtube (when he'd seen I'd liked them on fb) and seen that a lot of the comments were people saying they got their first kiss to these songs, and that he thought that was really cool.

So naturally I came home with butterflies in my stomach and just feeling like the luckiest girl in the world. A few hours later I texted him, and we joked that I was going to get the fever he had a few days ago, etc. And then I asked him how I was... and he replied. "Oh god I knew I shouldn't have... ahem well actually I was kinda surprised."

To which I said

"define surprised?"

and he said "You went left."

I told him I couldn't really help it, he came at me so fast... and then he told me that he really wasn't one to judge, since he hasn't kissed a ton of people (at least sober) and that I'd get more practice once I found someone at my highschool or wherever.

In short, I'm depressed. It sounds to me like the kiss meant nothing to him, and that he doesn't expect us to ever really see each other again, and that we're both supposed to just move on.

Am I reading too much into this? What does he mean? Why did he kiss me in the first place then?

Why would you ask that? You seriously actually asked him how your kiss was?