So I heard about a gig where models, singers and dancers were wanted for an event. It's a rememberance event for someone's parents and I was agreeing to do it, but then a few things said by the woman (middle aged I believe) made me suspicious and now I don't want to do it and will wheel myself out of it soon. She was surprised at my age when I told her what decades of music I sing and thought I was young. Later on, she asked if I work though not where, if I live with family or alone or what, and then something about whether I speak English or was born here and shit like that and I'm just WTF. She even mentioned we should meet alone. I just kind of answered and played along, and then she said something about possibly starting a band in the future and I kept wishing her the best of luck with that and the planning and all, though I really meant thanks but I'm not interested.

It sounded like a good opportunity, but I really don't think those questions were necessary when we just started talking. I felt like I was asking for trouble.

[Edited 8/9/11 22:49pm]

Super sketchy sounding.

Yeah I just backed out and it went fine.

Good.

I used to perform on the side, but I don't do it anymore, my passion for it has disappeared. The few attempts I made to try again did not work, cause my singing was not coming out like before and same with the dancing, so forced. If I tried booking other events to try to get back into it or had big ideas for it, it backfired, or something unrelated came along that did not permit me time for this, like work shifts, which are top priority right now. This one didn't work out, and there's another one that I'm interested in that pays, but I realized it's a place I've been to before that I didn't like and it's getting very bad reviews online, but I already said I might be available. I really believe this is something I need to leave behind me now, but it hurts like hell too cause I used to get so high off performing and that all disappeared for the past couple of years, and those events were fine, these are all just so shady or my skills have disappeared and I have no motivation left and now have to create new goals. How the hell do you get so high off something and it's just gone? Yes, I know I've said something similar about someone else, but it also applies to my musical skills, I feel like that part of me is dead and I'm trying to bring it back in a way but the universe isn't working in my favour over it anymore either and I have to accept it.

[Edited 8/9/11 23:36pm]

Maybe u need a break from it until u get your desire back.

But I got a weird feeling when I read about that woman and her seedy questions

I did say some stuff about myself before but nothing too personal and gave vague answers though I wish I didn't and wish I spoke up some more. I just acted polite the whole time and shortly after sent an email backing out.

I only performed 2 times in the last 2 years. I tried an audition a few months ago and could not sing at all. I could sing so-so at home. The most I have done is write and record a little bit, and even then, I couldn't sing in full anymore, I've just become lazy with warming up and everything.

[Edited 8/9/11 23:48pm]