I go away, get older. Grandma died, friend has cancer, another friend falls physically and then into memory loss, relationships fall away, things change, life changes. We move on with the changes. A life fully lived contains much loss.

Then I come HERE after months of being away. I recognize many names. The same old characters float about discussing the same kinds of things.

How nice.

The more things change... the more they stay the same (on the org)

I missed you... I was thinking of you recently for some weird reason, hoping things are well with you.

paintedlady said:

The more things change... the more they stay the same (on the org)

I missed you... I was thinking of you recently for some weird reason, hoping things are well with you.

oh, how sweet!

It's weird to have been so involved at one point in my life. I couldn't stay away from the org for a day. (or an hour ) and sometimes I feel like maybe I abandoned you.

I think orging is done in "phases" and in time people just run out of things to share or say, since they naturally lose interest.

I understand you going away for a bit. I know a few people that have, especially the older orgers.

Yeah, there's a constancy here -- even with rotating characters -- that's kind of cool.

Glad you're doing OK, heartbeatocean.

It really has been one of the more stable things in my life, to be able to come back here, and chat with known folks. Kind of like family. You take them for granted and try to escape, and then one day, you realize they're the only people who care.

mynameisnotsusan said:

This place should be called crack.org. I've deleted my account twice yet here I am again.

do I know you by a different orgname? because I don't recognize this one. Not that it matters too much.

heartbeatocean said:

mynameisnotsusan said:

This place should be called crack.org. I've deleted my account twice yet here I am again.

do I know you by a different orgname? because I don't recognize this one. Not that it matters too much.

No, that's always been my org name and I don't start a lot of threads but this site has constantly entertained.

yeah this place is the place. I have not told many people here but my mom died last new years eve. I am having a harder time now than I did then. Then I was too busy dealing with all that I had to do and all that to really give myself any time to grieve. Now it is hitting me. I can not talk to her. I can not call her. We had been estranged to some extent for years. But we would talk. Anyway... welcome back.

OnlyNDaUsa said:

yeah this place is the place. I have not told many people here but my mom died last new years eve. I am having a harder time now than I did then. Then I was too busy dealing with all that I had to do and all that to really give myself any time to grieve. Now it is hitting me. I can not talk to her. I can not call her. We had been estranged to some extent for years. But we would talk. Anyway... welcome back.

Damn, man, sorry to hear it...

OnlyNDaUsa said:

yeah this place is the place. I have not told many people here but my mom died last new years eve. I am having a harder time now than I did then. Then I was too busy dealing with all that I had to do and all that to really give myself any time to grieve. Now it is hitting me. I can not talk to her. I can not call her. We had been estranged to some extent for years. But we would talk. Anyway... welcome back.

When the mind races late at night and sleep is no where in sight... the org. is a great place to have.

Boob threads are always popular at least that hasn't changed.

OnlyNDaUsa said:

yeah this place is the place. I have not told many people here but my mom died last new years eve. I am having a harder time now than I did then. Then I was too busy dealing with all that I had to do and all that to really give myself any time to grieve. Now it is hitting me. I can not talk to her. I can not call her. We had been estranged to some extent for years. But we would talk. Anyway... welcome back.

Very sorry to hear that, and my condolences on your loss. Hope you are able to enjoy this time of year as much as possible.

OnlyNDaUsa said:

yeah this place is the place. I have not told many people here but my mom died last new years eve. I am having a harder time now than I did then. Then I was too busy dealing with all that I had to do and all that to really give myself any time to grieve. Now it is hitting me. I can not talk to her. I can not call her. We had been estranged to some extent for years. But we would talk. Anyway... welcome back.

I'm sorry for your loss...

OnlyNDaUsa said:

yeah this place is the place. I have not told many people here but my mom died last new years eve. I am having a harder time now than I did then. Then I was too busy dealing with all that I had to do and all that to really give myself any time to grieve. Now it is hitting me. I can not talk to her. I can not call her. We had been estranged to some extent for years. But we would talk. Anyway... welcome back.

heartbeatocean said:

I go away, get older. Grandma died, friend has cancer, another friend falls physically and then into memory loss, relationships fall away, things change, life changes. We move on with the changes. A life fully lived contains much loss.

Then I come HERE after months of being away. I recognize many names. The same old characters float about discussing the same kinds of things.

How nice.

Welcome back

babynoz said:

OnlyNDaUsa said:

yeah this place is the place. I have not told many people here but my mom died last new years eve. I am having a harder time now than I did then. Then I was too busy dealing with all that I had to do and all that to really give myself any time to grieve. Now it is hitting me. I can not talk to her. I can not call her. We had been estranged to some extent for years. But we would talk. Anyway... welcome back.

I'm sorry for your loss...

So am I

The org is an amazing place . I am going through really rough times currently and I was away from the org for 3 months because I was abroad without internet connection and my org friends have done so much to make me feel a little better since I am back .

Serious said:

The org is an amazing place . I am going through really rough times currently and I was away from the org for 3 months because I was abroad without internet connection and my org friends have done so much to make me feel a little better since I am back .

So you must've received that weed I mailed you, eh?

Lammastide said:

Serious said:

The org is an amazing place . I am going through really rough times currently and I was away from the org for 3 months because I was abroad without internet connection and my org friends have done so much to make me feel a little better since I am back .

So you must've received that weed I mailed you, eh?

If you knew more about my situation you would know that getting weed would make me feel even worse......

Lammastide said:

Serious said:

The org is an amazing place . I am going through really rough times currently and I was away from the org for 3 months because I was abroad without internet connection and my org friends have done so much to make me feel a little better since I am back .

So you must've received that weed I mailed you, eh?

I once got a pakage in the mail that was a coffee can! And I just knew this girl i knew sent me some weed. But it was just coffee. She told me that she meant to put some in it but got high and forgot. (we had seen Beverly Hills Cop together and joked about using coffee to mail drugs)

OnlyNDaUsa said:

Lammastide said:

So you must've received that weed I mailed you, eh?

I once got a pakage in the mail that was a coffee can! And I just knew this girl i knew sent me some weed. But it was just coffee. She told me that she meant to put some in it but got high and forgot. (we had seen Beverly Hills Cop together and joked about using coffee to mail drugs)

I hope I never get weed in the mail

Serious said:

OnlyNDaUsa said:

I once got a pakage in the mail that was a coffee can! And I just knew this girl i knew sent me some weed. But it was just coffee. She told me that she meant to put some in it but got high and forgot. (we had seen Beverly Hills Cop together and joked about using coffee to mail drugs)

I hope I never get weed in the mail

well there goes your Christmas gift.

"i'm dreaming of a green Christmas

just like the ones I can't recall..."

OnlyNDaUsa said:

Serious said:

I hope I never get weed in the mail

well there goes your Christmas gift.

"i'm dreaming of a green Christmas

just like the ones I can't recall..."

heartbeatocean said:

I go away, get older. Grandma died, friend has cancer, another friend falls physically and then into memory loss, relationships fall away, things change, life changes. We move on with the changes. A life fully lived contains much loss.

Then I come HERE after months of being away. I recognize many names. The same old characters float about discussing the same kinds of things.

How nice.

Nice to see you.

"A life fully lived contains much loss."

I love that. Thanks.

Oh and welcome back, I remember I was posting on a very interesting thread of yours shortly before you (and I) left .

PunkMistress said:

heartbeatocean said:

I go away, get older. Grandma died, friend has cancer, another friend falls physically and then into memory loss, relationships fall away, things change, life changes. We move on with the changes. A life fully lived contains much loss.

Then I come HERE after months of being away. I recognize many names. The same old characters float about discussing the same kinds of things.

How nice.

Nice to see you.

"A life fully lived contains much loss."

I love that. Thanks.

Me too. yes, HBO some of us are still kickin this joint!

I'm sorry for all your troubling news.

But I'm sensing sarcasm in the rest of your post.