...dick in a public place froma stranger. I may be more respected...

Ok another sob sad. You remember the guy i told you about i like, remember his brother being jealous to the point of almost threatening to kill one of us...

well, theres a party sat night that my friend will be singing at....he knows his brother doesnt like me, calls me a fat pig, and my own damn sister was like "he deserves a slut.... I told her to fuck off.

what the fuck is wrong with people???

what the fuck to do?? I'm going, but i know its gonna be drama central in that bitch.

myfavorite said:

...dick in a public place froma stranger. I may be more respected...

Ok another sob sad. You remember the guy i told you about i like, remember his brother being jealous to the point of almost threatening to kill one of us...

well, theres a party sat night that my friend will be singing at....he knows his brother doesnt like me, calls me a fat pig, and my own damn sister was like "he deserves a slut.... I told her to fuck off.

what the fuck is wrong with people???

what the fuck to do?? I'm going, but i know its gonna be drama central in that bitch.

I wouldent even try to please those people. I just leave them, there should be a different group or people you should be associated with. And usually the people that we hang around reflect our mind state. And alot of times, if you think yourself as shit, youll find youll attract someone to treat you like it. Or if you have a personality disorder or something negetive going on someone will be there to help you make sure its true if you dont notice it. So its all really a mind game. I can attest to that.

Theres no need to be around those people, or people that treat you like that. Im sure youre better than that. The moment I realized that and saw that I had many things going for me was the moment I ditched all my friends. Not that they were all bad, though some of them where, but I realize they had nothing to offer me and there wasnt much of a good reason to be around them when nothings going on. Since then I found much better people, Im much more social, and im able to make friends with others easier and people treat me with respect and your confidence will go way up. And when people see that youre personality will command respect naturally (not in a bad way) with out you trying to do anything and you will attract much better people who dont treat you bad and the way you see yourself. That doesnt mean there wont be scum out there here and there, but the thing is youll know how to snip them instead of being around it or dealing with it or getting convinced youre any of that bad stuff they say.

However once you do that and start changing, be prepared to expect shit from everyone you know or where aquinted with. Friends or not. But if you dont succumb to the pressure and BS (its alot easier just to give in and not fight), after its over, youll find out everything is much better because your mind will be much clear and once thats good it effects everything around you since your mind is where it all starts.

BklynBabe said:

You need new folk to hang with. Try church.

but not the priest...do not try the priest LOL

been there done that actually......maybe i'll go somewhere else....

what you mean like shyt lazziekiddz??? is all that cursing nexcessary???

myfavorite said:

been there done that actually......maybe i'll go somewhere else....

what you mean like shyt lazziekiddz??? is all that cursing nexcessary???

...in beyond my years...shyt.

As soon as your recovery allows, you need to focus and rooting your life with positive people, influences, and activities.

Sweetie, there's an old saying that goes "if you lay down with dirty dogs, you get up with fleas".

If you want your life to change and move forward in a positive direction, not only do you have to change yourself for the better, but you have to change your surroundings (including people). You will have a lot less headaches if you would dump some of these jokers sucking the life blood out of you and the joy out of your life.

If church is not the place for you, then try other avenues. You could start with joining a support group for cancer survivors. As you move along with your recovery, join a book club, a discussion group, or any other organization based on a hobby that you like a lot. Build your friendship base through these activities, activities that are life affirming. If you're tired of the b.s. in your life and the abuse and the negativity, then drop the dead weight that's clearly pulling you down.

that makes sense Ott. It really does...But consider having to interact with an entirely differnt set of friends....... ..

Have i become comfortable in the drama??? jeez! and what will changes bring??? lawd...I swear life wasnt so hard.

I feel like a wobbly toddler at the thought...but i have met some jewels here recently........but we both know the sqeaky wheel is the one that gets the grease, and its the wheel that gets the car moving...

shyt, who am i foolin...imma ride around in circles in my neighborhood as usuall..

I may peep in later, but i dont wanna be there from the start. I imagine it would be a phyric victory at best....

for ott.

myfavorite said:

that makes sense Ott. It really does...But consider having to interact with an entirely differnt set of friends....... ..

Have i become comfortable in the drama??? jeez! and what will changes bring??? lawd...I swear life wasnt so hard.

I feel like a wobbly toddler at the thought...but i have met some jewels here recently........but we both know the sqeaky wheel is the one that gets the grease, and its the wheel that gets the car moving...

shyt, who am i foolin...imma ride around in circles in my neighborhood as usuall..

I may peep in later, but i dont wanna be there from the start. I imagine it would be a phyric victory at best....

for ott.

Life is what you make it. If you are comfortable in drama, then that's cool. But, take it from one who has been in your shoes, drama gets tiring after awhile. Like many have said on this board, you need to first do some soul searching and asked yourself, is all this drama and the feelings that it brings, all worth it? You need to start looking after you and ONLY you. You need to find out what you like about yourself and build on that. Liking yourself, is not always easy; I know, it took me YEARS to honestly like myself. Then once you do that, others will like you too,(It would help to surround youself, with a different set of friends, too). One last thing to remember....People don't like you for who you are, but for how you make THEM feel. This was a hard lesson for me to learn, but once I did...Things became easier....

[Edited 10/29/10 5:43am]