Dreams 8/28

I am in a bedroom and the feeling that I have is that I'm observing, and not really involved with what is going on. Even though I'm in close contact, it's like I'm invisible and cannot be seen.

There is this beautiful beautiful man. He's Latin. He has an amazing body and is outwardly perfect. Soon he begins undressing and I have this feeling like I want to be there because I'm excited at the thought of seeing him naked but I also feel like I shouldn't be there because he doesn't know I'm watching him and I don't want to violate his boundaries. Well he undresses completely and I have no control over it so I'm excited because he is just beautiful to behold.

Well..... the next thing you know he goes to this bed and "Mama" from Throw Mama from the train is there! (Sidebar: Ok, I know many of you have seen that movie. If not, Mama is this old old woman who is cantankerous with an atrocious personality and she yells and screams through the movie and drives his son to the brink of madness. Let's just say that unless the man is into a fetish of some sort, a young man isn't likely to want to have a sexual relationship with her)

So she is in this bed and the man is forced to be with her. There isn't anyone there to make him do it but that is the definite context. He has no choice. So now I definitely do not want to be there but I too have no choice to remove myself from the scene. So he starts his relations with her and I am no longer enticed by the vision of this beautiful man because it involves freakin Mama from the train and I definitely don't want to see her in any way sexual! OMG.

So they are involved and at one point the man pulls away from her and she is laying there exposed and I saw it up close It reminded me of when our dogs go into heat! So she cackles her wicked witch laugh and she looks at the man and says "Endurance" (hah hah hah - laughing) and it's as if she's saying she could do this all day all night. At this point the man reaches out to me and I had no idea I was visible. So he pulls me over and starts undressing me and I'm at one time totally wanting to be naked with him but at the same time no way in hell do I want to be naked with him and her.

So the undressing happened instantly, it wasn't as if there was a process about it. One minute I'm invisible and observing and the next minute the man is pulling me towards him and I'm nude. So he starts kissing me and it's not physically possible the position I was in but it was like he was still engaged with her but I'm kind of floating in the air and he's hugging me and kissing me and begging me to help him get through it. I kissed him and hugged him and there was a total sense of intimacy but it was in a state of alarm for both of us.

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