1) found a boarding school for the kid, and dropped him off today hopefully they will be able to teach him some values and some empathy as it is a place for "troubled" kids. They will also be having school (education!) during the summer. It is a Christian place, they do not charge for anything but they do accept donations. If anyone would like to give a donation, feel free to orgnote me. I think it's a wonderful thing to see a school care about chiildren and their values and their education. I definitely plan to help out anyway I can, especially since I really do think they will be able to help me help him become a more positive and productive individual with a bright future.

Plus now I can focus on working and getting myself back together without wondering what to do with the kid or having to leave him with grandma and him getting into trouble or trying to run around all over creation to pick him up or drop him off or being tired and having to deal with his BS too.

2) starting part time job tomorrow. paperwork is all done and I don't have to deal with John Q Public!

3) have a job interview on Wednesday with another place that sounds very, very promising! I also will not have to deal with the public, and a person I went to school with used to work there so it was like a pseudo-in!

Am feeling preety good today to have accomplished so much. Crossed fingers and prayers, please!

cool! good luck ive kinda been looking for a job too so you just gave me hope!

Good luck!!!

Best wishes

YAY!!!!!

Good Luck

I enjoyed my job today. As long as I don't have to deal with the public maybe I will be okay in this industry. What has been very eye opening to me is talking with other people, and there is a lot of shadiness and bitterness....and people that are really good at what they do, really sweet individuals....I'm starting to see that it really isn't something wrong with me, per se. I can see how it it bothered me to the point of a near nervous breakdown, but when I talk to a person who is very tolerant and they are thinking that they don't want to do it anymore Wow!

Anyway knowing this I feel better about the interview tomorrow, the person who used to work there that I know said it's a good place to work

BklynBabe said:

1) found a boarding school for the kid, and dropped him off today hopefully they will be able to teach him some values and some empathy as it is a place for "troubled" kids. They will also be having school (education!) during the summer. It is a Christian place, they do not charge for anything but they do accept donations. If anyone would like to give a donation, feel free to orgnote me. I think it's a wonderful thing to see a school care about chiildren and their values and their education. I definitely plan to help out anyway I can, especially since I really do think they will be able to help me help him become a more positive and productive individual with a bright future.

Plus now I can focus on working and getting myself back together without wondering what to do with the kid or having to leave him with grandma and him getting into trouble or trying to run around all over creation to pick him up or drop him off or being tired and having to deal with his BS too.

2) starting part time job tomorrow. paperwork is all done and I don't have to deal with John Q Public!

3) have a job interview on Wednesday with another place that sounds very, very promising! I also will not have to deal with the public, and a person I went to school with used to work there so it was like a pseudo-in!

Am feeling preety good today to have accomplished so much. Crossed fingers and prayers, please!

I am so incredibly happy for you!

I hope this school is a good fit for your nephew. From what you post here and what you've shared in messages, I truly believe that you are doing everything in your power to help him turn out okay, despite all the odds that have been stacked against him. God bless you for that.

I'll be thinking good thoughts for your interview.

BklynBabe said:

I enjoyed my job today. As long as I don't have to deal with the public maybe I will be okay in this industry. What has been very eye opening to me is talking with other people, and there is a lot of shadiness and bitterness....and people that are really good at what they do, really sweet individuals....I'm starting to see that it really isn't something wrong with me, per se. I can see how it it bothered me to the point of a near nervous breakdown, but when I talk to a person who is very tolerant and they are thinking that they don't want to do it anymore Wow!

Anyway knowing this I feel better about the interview tomorrow, the person who used to work there that I know said it's a good place to work

Yay!

All these promising signs, they'd better come together in a happy reality!

PunkMistress said:

I am so incredibly happy for you!

I hope this school is a good fit for your nephew. From what you post here and what you've shared in messages, I truly believe that you are doing everything in your power to help him turn out okay, despite all the odds that have been stacked against him. God bless you for that.

I'll be thinking good thoughts for your interview.

well I dropped off the rest of his stuff today and checked up on him. He told me he saw a rat! And you know what? Oh well. He had his own room, he had a TV, he had video games, books, all sorts of nice things I have done for him, and all I ever asked is he respect his grandma and respect his teachers and just get his work done and then he could have played until his heart was content. I signed him up for Tae Kwon Do. Counseling, medicine, and of course the ubiquitous spanking

But to see his grandma tell him one day that she didn't feel well and him to still keep bugging her like he just didn't give a fuck, made me realize he really doesn't give a fuck! To run around and disrespect her when I am not home Forget it, I am not sacrificing her health, or mine for that metter, just because he wants to be an asshole. Even a kid! A child should know some things about love and empathy and if not, then he can go live with rats, roaches and whatever until he gets it or he's grown. I've got to be able to work and support the family and I can't even leave him home for a day with his own grandma.

He also told me the kids were teasing him already (karma!) and that he cried last night because he missed his home...

But you know what, when I said bye....did he even ask about his grandma and how she was or to tell her he missed her and he loved her It's like that move "The Bad Seed" wheere the love gene is just missing from him. It's been 24 hours and they already have him pegged.

I was gone all day from 5:30a to 6pm and to be honest if I would have had to leave him home with his grandma I would have freaked out. I just can't do it all myself anymore. He either has to learn how to be respectful and loving and grateful for what he has, or he can be without but I'm done.

But trust, as soon as I can I will be giving them a hefty donation toward some exterminating services (or maybe I can kill 2 birds with one stone and give them my ever-yowling cat ) Meanwhile obviously he won't be playing Wii LOL, I told him he should name the rat Ben and write a song about it.....

OH yeah and BTW now that I have good job prospects the government seems to be actually perking up with all my applications...go figure. So maybe in a few months I'll have some really great news to share *crosses fingers again*

orgnote.

PL I did not get an orgnote.....

Interview went very well, about 95% sure that I can has job! The person who makes the ultimate decision I only met for like 5 seconds LOL. But everyone else seemed cool. Again, I met another peson who was in the same environment I was and got fed up, so that's a clue that something shady was going down and it wasn't really me with the problem. It was nice because I didn't even really have to explain my situation because she already knew

Which is good because today I got the rejection from one of the government jobs I really wanted. BOO!

BklynBabe said:

PL I did not get an orgnote.....

Interview went very well, about 95% sure that I can has job! The person who makes the ultimate decision I only met for like 5 seconds LOL. But everyone else seemed cool. Again, I met another peson who was in the same environment I was and got fed up, so that's a clue that something shady was going down and it wasn't really me with the problem. It was nice because I didn't even really have to explain my situation because she already knew

Which is good because today I got the rejection from one of the government jobs I really wanted. BOO!

YAY

and

BOO!

Girl it will get better, it has too,

keep your head up. God loves you and so do I.

interactiveplayer said:

Girl it will get better, it has too,

keep your head up. God loves you and so do I.

every time I feel like giving up and losing faith, then I remind myself the devil just wants to bring me down but God the Creator did not make this world to be full of all the stupidness. I keep on keepin' on

That's what I would like the kid to understand. There's no need for drama in life.

I'd like grown people to get it too.....

Good to hear some things are looking up for you.